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up there we go go live now we're going

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we're live ladies and gentlemen and then

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go live somebody can tell me he's

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hanging out with us on this Thursday

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he told me he wanted me to sing

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always ask me all right I still have a

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recording somewhere and I may have

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um of you

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singing oh see now the link is gone so I

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can like put it all out and [\h__\h] again

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it's all right brother you don't want me

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oh that's right they dropped the

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dropped onto the new temp janky yeah of

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lore Studio what up Ellen

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all right well right now man I'm going

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to the book in the house on this

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Thursday night with Mr Chris in the den

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of Lords sure now oh I remember it was

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ladies and gentlemen Chris from the

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just like the world I Used to Know

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just got chills

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where the Treetops glisten and the

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children listen to hear the sleigh bells

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in the official release we're probably

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this is not my usual setup uh the studio

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has been torn apart as I mentioned last

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week but first ladies and gentlemen

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Today We Gather here to acknowledge a

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powerful truth that has the potential to

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change all of our lives and I want you

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all to repeat after me I can and I will

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overcome now let's say it again with a

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little bit more energy Rocky if you're

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gonna understand and I will overcome we

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all face negative or we all face

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challenges obstacles demons in our lives

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but both internal and external they come

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in various forms fear doubt negativity

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addiction or even the Judgment of others

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but I'm here to tell you all

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that no matter how tough this can seem

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and the battles may seem you have the

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power to overcome that uh now let me

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remind you of something very essential

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it's okay to not be strong enough some

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it's okay to feel weak to feel like

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you're unable to overcome the challenges

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in your life what's important is for you

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to remember that every day is a new

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opportunity

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for you to keep fighting tomorrow's

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another day another day to conquer those

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demons and emerge Victorious as long as

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you're still breathing you can keep

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when you wake up each morning remind

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yourself that you have the power to make

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the day better than yesterday you have

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the chance to face those demons head on

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and prove yourself that you are more

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than your fears your doubts your

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insecurities remember that growth and

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progress are not linear

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there will be ups and downs moments of

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weakness and moments of Triumph so when

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life knocks you down don't be afraid to

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lean on others for support share your

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struggles with friends family even

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professional if you need to there is

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strength and vulnerability my friends do

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not be ashamed to admit that you need

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help because in the end we are all human

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and we all have our demons to face now I

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want you to visualize a better version

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of yourself picture yourself Standing

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Tall fearless and unbreakable that's a

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little bit cheesy but okay we'll go with

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it having conquered your demons

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let that image fuel you inspire you and

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lies within you because you're from my

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friends you have boundless potential and

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yourself so as you walk out of here

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from the den remind uh remind

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me remember that life is full of

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challenges but it's also full of

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opportunities and you have the power to

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so Rocky uh

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I'm gonna give you your intro and I want

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to say thank you very much for taking

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the time I know you are an extremely

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extremely busy these days and uh warms

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my heart to be able to have a good time

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with you again real quick brother I love

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it for one and I know I just completely

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interrupt your flow it's okay but I want

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people to understand something what you

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just said in your intro there I hope

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you're going to say that every show

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that don't come for free what you just

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brother speak those words

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because they're just words people speak

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those words they're coming from

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somewhere brother so hats off to you man

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that was one

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beautiful intro brother well thank you

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brother this you know this this um

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like the the dens like helped people

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itself myself went through many many

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years and I'm like you know what we can

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learn a lot about cool cool [\h__\h] but

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like at the end of the day it's it's

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like you know we gotta look out for one

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another and there's so much negativity

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in the world these days

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uh you gotta add some positivity back

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now for you it's funny because I said

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that yesterday it's it's it's not so

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much in my mindset of wanting to change

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the world anymore because as I lived in

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that realm that I thought that

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are a single voice could have so much

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power

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um it's more about okay I can't do that

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but what I can do is create my own world

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of the right people that encourage and

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influence each other and help people up

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when we fall and all share our past

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experiences and counsel one another in a

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positive manner because if you can build

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you do have a beautiful world you know

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what I mean and it's it it's kind of

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irrelevant in what goes on now the rest

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of the world it is relevant but

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Irrelevant in regards to when we say the

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words Pursuit of Happiness well you know

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what the pursuit is is putting the time

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in to make sure that our results at the

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end are what we expect you know what I

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mean well that's it man you know if you

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want something good you got to go get it

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but sometimes it's Out Of Reach

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sometimes it's hard to get sometimes

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there's obstacles in your way you know

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no life's Gonna Knock You Down sometimes

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and it's it's like heck not having

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coffee can knock you down you know you

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need to be out and down and out first

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thing in the morning I'm trying to make

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sure I get you know got this microphone

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boom it's pretty incredible the

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importance of of that first cup of

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coffee in that morning oh my God

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importance of people's safety that we

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gotta you have your morning go to your

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you collect yourself collect your

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deposit what you need to and get on with

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your day yeah and if that kind of

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routine at least it brings a normal seed

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that can help you a tremendous amount

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just trying to be able to get through

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day to day whether you're busy are you a

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creature or routine

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general concept of routine uh whether

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but like chaos that's that's that's life

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few kids you know what that's like

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things can get thrown right out the

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window or into the blender uh

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it but hey

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like what what like what about you like

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with stuff on a day-to-day especially

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with all like you know the new studio

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all the changes new guests new show

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so yeah so I can throw that right out

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I'm I I'm the complete opposite so now

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contractor I have a I have a large

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just that obstacle love my job very much

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appreciate it

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when you talk about change

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you know that type of life when you're

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um it's it's constantly changing things

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are constantly happening things are

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constantly breaking down but on the

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other spectrum of things in regards to

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what I do outside of my day job

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nothing can ever be planned ever because

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everything is based off of opportunity

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and making sure you're going out and

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getting those opportunities and you

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don't know when those opportunities are

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going to pop and so um if if you are a

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creature of habit and you are a program

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my wife is you know she's programmed for

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routine she is very dialed in she needs

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to understand what's going to happen

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next week what's the plans next month

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what's the six month Outlook what's the

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one-year Outlook she's very dialed in on

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that so you know

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we're too opposite we're Polar Opposites

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when it comes to that but yet it's a

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balance you know so when you have the

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teeter-totter yeah teeter-totter's

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sitting you know we kind of match in the

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but but if I was calculated like that

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psychologically then I wouldn't be able

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to do what I do because every single day

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I would have a complete mental

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frustration because of me not being able

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to adapt to that change so you can't get

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mad when things are out of your control

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and you can't change things that are out

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of your control so if it happens if it

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happens because it works out in the long

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run sooner or later well that's kind of

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one of the things I I'm better at doing

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things in the fly uh you know Meg whom

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you know like I'm you may have met her

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on camera like she just she just got

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home from trivia now I can just hear her

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hear her above me she's a creature a

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habit you know religiously so and I you

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know your my wife and your wife would

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get along fine probably in that regard

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it produces like sometimes oh yeah no it

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can it can I mean we're risk

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we are risk taking individuals and I'm

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right now in my life I'm about as

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risk because I laid my entire not my

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I heard bad things in the music industry

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about the soul and selling your soul so

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I'm not gonna use that reference

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um but I got a lot on the line

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because I'm not afraid

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because what else am I going to lose

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brother you know what I'm saying what

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else am I going to lose what's going to

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happen what's the worst that can happen

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you know it's it's I am so this sick and

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tired

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of watching so many people I love

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go an entire lifetime

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of all these things that they knew they

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had the capabilities of doing these

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dreams and these their imagination you

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know they never completely put it away

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but they left it contained and it kept

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it balanced because of of we're always

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afraid of how are the people that we

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love the most going to react and are

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they going to look at us as being silly

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or or if we have an idea or if we want

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to pursue something support is such a

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beautiful thing

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well in the support to like to a certain

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extent if you're dealing with that kind

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of negativity I'm not going to say

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negativity but those like those

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obstacles or those concerns a lot of the

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time that is uh you know that that's

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driven by fear fear of change fear of

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loss fear of of upending of Life uh fear

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of failure

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um and those are those like those are

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really natural things you can deal with

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um

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you know like even when I was growing up

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and I know like my mom she'll she'll

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watch the show sometimes and she's like

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oh let me watch the show tonight you

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know I like that Rocky guy it's like I'm

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booking the guests now based on my uh

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how you doing

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sorry

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hey hey could have told me to freaking

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behave before we started but you know

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when I heard Mama Chris is gonna pop in

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I gotta say yo ma don't worry about it

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you know uh oh man so

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so now Prado is going to say uh like

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yeah you know what Jesus had dinner with

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her like had dinner with her tonight

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tonight uh dropped the kids off because

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we're doing you know doing some heavy uh

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a heavy demo uh like all this is going

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to be gone in a couple of days and it's

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like

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you know I can remember

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I never really talked about it with her

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but I'm like like I remember back in the

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day when I'm like oh I'm gonna do you

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know XYZ and she's you know she would

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say like well that may not work and just

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like with anybody else they don't want

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to see you in pain they don't want to

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see you fail uh and it's not from uh you

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know not from a doubt of like oh I don't

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think you can do this it's like from

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like I don't think I can handle dealing

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watching you you know fall and lose

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everything because you know like parents

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are

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they're being empathetic they're

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protecting you from a pain

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well no matter how old you get you know

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parents are going to have that that same

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you've got to protect my my little boy

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or a little girl or attitude no matter

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how old you get amen um

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and it's you know like eventually you

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get to a point where it's like you know

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when I started going out and I started

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throwing events or running clubs and you

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know my mom's like well

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the first couple of times like you went

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where are you out of your effing mind

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and then like a year and a half later

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she's like helping me organize flyers

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for my own events I'm throwing so uh you

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know eventually wants to see that you

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can handle yourself they're like okay

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we're fine it's like with with my

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daughter you know the my youngest Kira

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she's she's starting to climb on on

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tables now

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like you know cheers coffee tables there

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[\h__\h] oh climbing up in the first couple

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times you know she'll climb up turn

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around just fall off the end

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and uh I'm like okay okay and like you

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know you're afraid that they're gonna do

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this brother can I tell you something

380
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there's parts of me that I feel super

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guilty and I feel like I fail as a

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father

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because those moments man those moments

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when when my boys were babies and they

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climbed stuff you know and and I

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remember one time I go out in the

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backyard of Mario he was halfway up a

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tree man he was like 15 feet off the

389
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ground I like part of my soul seriously

390
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came out my ear I swear I had to put my

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hand on my ear to stop it because it was

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coming up pretty quick

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it was harmless it wasn't gonna fall he

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was actually climbing extremely smart

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and he was doing everything correct but

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me thinking I saw him fall in my mind

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and in my mind I like could hear bones

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break and see arms break and see him in

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the hospital and I didn't want to see

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him in that pain and so a lot of their

401
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life I was that man I was I was wherever

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we went I was the Bulldog I was the lion

403
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and I was sometimes not allowing them to

404
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do certain things to be maybe I don't

405
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know a little overly protective

406
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and that's why

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like that's why the the idea of like

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helicopter parents you know like kids

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kids learn through through risk

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management or they learn risk management

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through

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pick themselves up again and I know you

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know like the it's cliche it's like you

414
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know Master I'll do my best Michael Kane

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impression Master White

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why should we fall down

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pick ourselves up back up again you know

418
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it's that's my bad Michael Caine

419
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impression

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and and it's kind of the same thing like

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pain the pain is wisdom but you have to

422
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be able to manage that pain

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um like even like

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you know like yesterday I'm I'm

425
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yesterday morning my brushing to test

426
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his hair you know like she's begging me

427
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like oh Dad please don't try and give me

428
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a ponytail like you know like don't

429
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don't give me a braid I don't want it to

430
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look too bad I'm like no I'm just gonna

431
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put it in this and kiro's climbing up

432
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the table right next to me and thinking

433
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okay well I'm right next to her it's

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fine

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boom hits the floor

436
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I'm like you know just look at her she

437
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gets up and she's just kind of like

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she's okay you know they they learn they

439
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learn that stuff and like that's the

440
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kind of lessons that they're gonna learn

441
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because you can't always be there

442
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to be able to catch your kids but at

443
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least you can be there to make sure that

444
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once they fall they're okay and it's

445
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like all right you know well what did

446
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you learn from this sometimes we're hurt

447
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more than they are you know just for

448
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watching the experience of it I remember

449
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my uh middle boy Mario he fell off the

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bed one time and hit inside on the end

451
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table brother I still see it like it's

452
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right here it's still like it happened

453
00:17:03,110 --> 00:17:01,500
last week I was I I think I'm suffering

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a little bit of trauma you know I'm just

455
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saying a little bit

456
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no like how how

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your middle child that was yeah at the

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time at the time he was probably I'm

459
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going to say maybe five and we're having

460
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a Battle Royal right we're on the big

461
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king-sized bed where I battle royal

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daddles elbow smashing them all in the

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face and putting them through the tables

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and and you know I got a little out of

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hand I'm not gonna lie you know it got a

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little on hand and Mario kind of flew

467
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you know we couldn't catch him

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bad things happen and I still see it in

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my memory bank

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oh my God we really used to do that

471
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it's it's those memories brother it's

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those memories

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I remember we were fishing it was some

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months ago

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and Rocky is you know he's gonna be 21.

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in June oh jeez yeah he's my oldest boy

477
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you remember him I remember Rocky junior

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middle school and yeah

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and um

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dude I I remember when we we don't have

481
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a boat and Rocky loves to airbrush and

482
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he does these lures and

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um

484
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we were fishing off the shore we go to a

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state park and we never catch anything

486
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we never catch anything really we catch

487
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more with the casting net than we do

488
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with our lures and just because it's off

489
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the bank it's but that's not the point

490
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of what we're doing

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because with my schedule and with his

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schedule and everything we have going on

493
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you know we seize opportunities when we

494
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can't and they're far in view between

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sometimes

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and I remember he was having a

497
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conversation about getting ready to move

498
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out and and you know as a father you

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encourage it I want my children to fail

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while I'm still alive I want them to go

501
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into the world and make the mistakes

502
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while I'm still here because I got

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people you know we can fix things we can

504
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we can we can make things you know

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better

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but I remember I was standing on the

507
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shore because he likes to walk the Shore

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Bank and cast and I looked over and he

509
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was quite a bit of ways

510
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something hit me different at that time

511
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it was different

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because it was that moment that

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I appreciate it

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that beach differently I appreciated the

515
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sounds differently

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I appreciated the smells differently I

517
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appreciate it all the things that we

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never pay attention to

519
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because my thought process was I was

520
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looking at my son

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and that put up potentially have been

522
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the last day him and I would have been

523
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on those Shores because he was thinking

524
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about moving back up north

525
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and

526
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why is it

527
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that we always had to have those moments

528
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and and I'm grateful for them

529
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but why is it that we can't program

530
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ourselves for that appreciation because

531
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what we find out brother

532
00:19:56,690 --> 00:19:53,940
is that we try to do these big things

533
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all the time these Big Brand things

534
00:20:00,770 --> 00:19:58,860
because we want to compete with Society

535
00:20:02,870 --> 00:20:00,780
so we want to go on the same vacations

536
00:20:04,850 --> 00:20:02,880
our friends did you know we feel like we

537
00:20:07,610 --> 00:20:04,860
got to compete with that

538
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and none of that matters it don't yeah

539
00:20:11,450 --> 00:20:09,419
it's beautiful to see the ocean I love

540
00:20:12,590 --> 00:20:11,460
watching the sun rises and the sunsets I

541
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really do

542
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but I also love being with my family

543
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right because the things brother when

544
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I'm going through my darkest times you

545
00:20:23,630 --> 00:20:20,880
know it's not those things it's not

546
00:20:25,310 --> 00:20:23,640
those trips it's not these extravagant

547
00:20:26,810 --> 00:20:25,320
things that we did that's we spent all

548
00:20:28,850 --> 00:20:26,820
this money thinking that there are great

549
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memories no they're a pain in our ass is

550
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what they were

551
00:20:35,810 --> 00:20:33,120
it was the fishing what's the hanging

552
00:20:37,669 --> 00:20:35,820
out in the backyard it was them climbing

553
00:20:40,730 --> 00:20:37,679
the tree and me freaking out it is it's

554
00:20:42,830 --> 00:20:40,740
crazy how you remember the most implicit

555
00:20:45,590 --> 00:20:42,840
things

556
00:20:48,289 --> 00:20:45,600
when your soul is at its darkest moments

557
00:20:50,029 --> 00:20:48,299
so people really need to reflect on that

558
00:20:52,130 --> 00:20:50,039
because when you wake up in that morning

559
00:20:55,150 --> 00:20:52,140
cup of coffee that drive to work

560
00:20:58,130 --> 00:20:55,160
the people you talk with every day

561
00:21:00,169 --> 00:20:58,140
we choose to separate ourselves because

562
00:21:01,789 --> 00:21:00,179
of beliefs and views

563
00:21:03,650 --> 00:21:01,799
and we never give ourselves the

564
00:21:06,529 --> 00:21:03,660
opportunity and I'm guilty and I'm

565
00:21:08,529 --> 00:21:06,539
speaking out because of that is that we

566
00:21:10,970 --> 00:21:08,539
miss out on Amazing friendships

567
00:21:12,830 --> 00:21:10,980
and we miss out on Amazing conversations

568
00:21:15,590 --> 00:21:12,840
because of that and we're not able to

569
00:21:18,650 --> 00:21:15,600
grow as people because of that and and

570
00:21:20,390 --> 00:21:18,660
so that's who I choose to be that's who

571
00:21:21,830 --> 00:21:20,400
I want to be and I'm going to appreciate

572
00:21:23,390 --> 00:21:21,840
the drive to work I'm going to

573
00:21:25,250 --> 00:21:23,400
appreciate those moments sitting on the

574
00:21:27,409 --> 00:21:25,260
beach with my kids I'm a good appreciate

575
00:21:29,330 --> 00:21:27,419
when I can have my dinners with my

576
00:21:31,730 --> 00:21:29,340
children or just do the littlest things

577
00:21:34,070 --> 00:21:31,740
you know because I ain't got a lot of

578
00:21:35,690 --> 00:21:34,080
life left and who knows you know what's

579
00:21:37,430 --> 00:21:35,700
going to happen next week but right now

580
00:21:40,010 --> 00:21:37,440
I have what I have in front of me and

581
00:21:42,950 --> 00:21:40,020
I'm going to capitalize on it

582
00:21:44,870 --> 00:21:42,960
you know that's

583
00:21:46,850 --> 00:21:44,880
probably one of the most mature things

584
00:21:49,900 --> 00:21:46,860
I've heard come out of your mouth in a

585
00:21:55,310 --> 00:21:53,230
[Laughter]

586
00:21:56,810 --> 00:21:55,320
we've grown up for you that was very

587
00:21:59,090 --> 00:21:56,820
grown up for you I was very grown up but

588
00:22:00,350 --> 00:21:59,100
you know no you're like you're 100 right

589
00:22:02,390 --> 00:22:00,360
like

590
00:22:04,850 --> 00:22:02,400
you know

591
00:22:07,010 --> 00:22:04,860
like especially with my dad passing away

592
00:22:09,590 --> 00:22:07,020
last year and

593
00:22:12,169 --> 00:22:09,600
um that was

594
00:22:13,789 --> 00:22:12,179
still is an extremely difficult part of

595
00:22:15,289 --> 00:22:13,799
my life still going through a lot of

596
00:22:17,510 --> 00:22:15,299
processing you know it's still a lot of

597
00:22:19,970 --> 00:22:17,520
processing that's a day by day thing can

598
00:22:22,250 --> 00:22:19,980
I can I can I dig a little bit brother

599
00:22:24,430 --> 00:22:22,260
is it still fresh

600
00:22:27,110 --> 00:22:24,440
oh man it's still fresh yeah

601
00:22:29,930 --> 00:22:27,120
I just want to ask at a surface level

602
00:22:32,090 --> 00:22:29,940
without without getting what are the

603
00:22:39,110 --> 00:22:32,100
things that come to mind the most when

604
00:22:43,250 --> 00:22:40,730
when you think of Dad right now what's

605
00:22:50,570 --> 00:22:43,260
the first memory that comes to mind

606
00:22:55,130 --> 00:22:53,090
well it's pretty much the you know the

607
00:22:57,770 --> 00:22:55,140
month that I spent with them this Summer

608
00:22:59,750 --> 00:22:57,780
you know there's

609
00:23:01,789 --> 00:22:59,760
I'd say like the biggest thing would be

610
00:23:03,549 --> 00:23:01,799
him and I getting into a fight over the

611
00:23:06,409 --> 00:23:03,559
fact that his

612
00:23:08,750 --> 00:23:06,419
his car that was perpetually falling

613
00:23:10,250 --> 00:23:08,760
apart is still falling apart

614
00:23:13,789 --> 00:23:10,260
um was overheating in the middle of like

615
00:23:15,830 --> 00:23:13,799
40 degree weather we went to to the uh

616
00:23:17,390 --> 00:23:15,840
and went to the store to go get lunch

617
00:23:19,549 --> 00:23:17,400
he's like okay man we'll take my car I'm

618
00:23:23,210 --> 00:23:19,559
like Dad I brought my car specifically

619
00:23:25,669 --> 00:23:23,220
because your car doesn't run

620
00:23:26,870 --> 00:23:25,679
and it's like okay we're gonna go to

621
00:23:28,730 --> 00:23:26,880
this one no no we're gonna go to this

622
00:23:30,409 --> 00:23:28,740
one that's further further out there I'm

623
00:23:32,390 --> 00:23:30,419
like saying like that I took lunch I'm

624
00:23:35,330 --> 00:23:32,400
working from home I am going to get back

625
00:23:37,010 --> 00:23:35,340
like an hour late you know uh I'm gonna

626
00:23:39,770 --> 00:23:37,020
get you know get in trouble get talked

627
00:23:42,470 --> 00:23:39,780
to and you know in reality if if they

628
00:23:45,230 --> 00:23:42,480
it's you know in reality if my job at

629
00:23:47,029 --> 00:23:45,240
the time and I'm with a with with a very

630
00:23:48,409 --> 00:23:47,039
good company now that you know when they

631
00:23:50,029 --> 00:23:48,419
say like family you know like the

632
00:23:51,529 --> 00:23:50,039
company's family a lot of companies will

633
00:23:54,409 --> 00:23:51,539
BS about that now this company doesn't

634
00:23:57,590 --> 00:23:54,419
BS about that guy take care of you

635
00:23:59,270 --> 00:23:57,600
um and uh you know so but the company I

636
00:24:01,310 --> 00:23:59,280
was working for at the time

637
00:24:03,289 --> 00:24:01,320
uh you know it's kind of one of those

638
00:24:04,610 --> 00:24:03,299
it's like well you know you're gonna go

639
00:24:06,770 --> 00:24:04,620
take care of that you got to work from

640
00:24:07,909 --> 00:24:06,780
home and you know they begrudgingly let

641
00:24:09,169 --> 00:24:07,919
me go and I'm sitting there you know

642
00:24:11,090 --> 00:24:09,179
going it's like

643
00:24:13,730 --> 00:24:11,100
if you didn't let me go I would just up

644
00:24:15,890 --> 00:24:13,740
and quit amen

645
00:24:17,029 --> 00:24:15,900
and I would have probably you know I

646
00:24:18,409 --> 00:24:17,039
would have gone back to freelance and

647
00:24:21,110 --> 00:24:18,419
it's I've been making more than I would

648
00:24:22,789 --> 00:24:21,120
be you know working working for you and

649
00:24:23,930 --> 00:24:22,799
I'd probably be able to spend a lot more

650
00:24:25,310 --> 00:24:23,940
time

651
00:24:27,649 --> 00:24:25,320
um but him and I got to a fight about

652
00:24:29,870 --> 00:24:27,659
the car because I'm thinking like

653
00:24:31,610 --> 00:24:29,880
everything else not necessarily

654
00:24:33,830 --> 00:24:31,620
realizing hey you know this is going to

655
00:24:34,970 --> 00:24:33,840
be one of the you know like I only got

656
00:24:36,289 --> 00:24:34,980
like three months or four months left

657
00:24:38,330 --> 00:24:36,299
with the guy

658
00:24:40,730 --> 00:24:38,340
um and that was like one of only two

659
00:24:43,549 --> 00:24:40,740
disagreements we got into during that

660
00:24:46,130 --> 00:24:43,559
entire month uh you know we dealt with

661
00:24:49,250 --> 00:24:46,140
the what you know the the directo of

662
00:24:51,590 --> 00:24:49,260
2022 May long weekend

663
00:24:54,470 --> 00:24:51,600
um and that was you know basically going

664
00:24:57,049 --> 00:24:54,480
like trying to survive with no power and

665
00:24:58,610 --> 00:24:57,059
you know crisscrossing this city trying

666
00:25:01,370 --> 00:24:58,620
to get supplies you gotta generator over

667
00:25:02,930 --> 00:25:01,380
here you got gas over there you know uh

668
00:25:04,490 --> 00:25:02,940
and like that was that was a really good

669
00:25:06,110 --> 00:25:04,500
bonding experience

670
00:25:08,210 --> 00:25:06,120
um but like that would be the first

671
00:25:10,130 --> 00:25:08,220
thing where it's like it's such a small

672
00:25:12,470 --> 00:25:10,140
stupid thing to to get into an argument

673
00:25:14,690 --> 00:25:12,480
about over like a car and it's like

674
00:25:16,730 --> 00:25:14,700
you're annoyed because you know your

675
00:25:17,930 --> 00:25:16,740
dad's or your mom you know your your

676
00:25:18,890 --> 00:25:17,940
parents are going to annoy you they're

677
00:25:19,850 --> 00:25:18,900
going to find that way to be able to do

678
00:25:21,289 --> 00:25:19,860
it that's that's what you're they're

679
00:25:22,789 --> 00:25:21,299
your parents because they they got that

680
00:25:23,690 --> 00:25:22,799
that you know they know how to push your

681
00:25:26,570 --> 00:25:23,700
buttons

682
00:25:27,890 --> 00:25:26,580
um but like even even then it's still

683
00:25:29,149 --> 00:25:27,900
one of those like well at least I had

684
00:25:32,029 --> 00:25:29,159
the opportunity to be able to do it

685
00:25:34,549 --> 00:25:32,039
because you know with with kids with

686
00:25:36,710 --> 00:25:34,559
with work and I was working insane hours

687
00:25:38,870 --> 00:25:36,720
at that point and because it wasn't just

688
00:25:40,130 --> 00:25:38,880
wasn't happy at you know at the time and

689
00:25:41,390 --> 00:25:40,140
my main concern was taking care of my

690
00:25:44,510 --> 00:25:41,400
family taking care of my kids taking

691
00:25:45,049 --> 00:25:44,520
care of my wife that was good

692
00:25:47,210 --> 00:25:45,059
um

693
00:25:48,710 --> 00:25:47,220
and it's like you look back on you're

694
00:25:49,970 --> 00:25:48,720
like wow that was kind of dumb but it's

695
00:25:52,549 --> 00:25:49,980
like it's an experience that you can

696
00:25:56,090 --> 00:25:52,559
actually remember about it and even with

697
00:25:57,409 --> 00:25:56,100
that negative experience it's still a

698
00:26:00,470 --> 00:25:57,419
positive for me because it's like I

699
00:26:02,390 --> 00:26:00,480
actually had it but it you know was it

700
00:26:04,610 --> 00:26:02,400
negative though you know I mean no

701
00:26:06,110 --> 00:26:04,620
because it's like it it's you sit here

702
00:26:07,970 --> 00:26:06,120
and you're laughing about it and your

703
00:26:10,250 --> 00:26:07,980
heart is warm over it and I find that

704
00:26:11,810 --> 00:26:10,260
profound brother and it warms my heart

705
00:26:13,190 --> 00:26:11,820
watching you tell the story because of

706
00:26:15,769 --> 00:26:13,200
most of our stories from an Italian

707
00:26:18,649 --> 00:26:15,779
family that's every day my brother well

708
00:26:19,630 --> 00:26:18,659
it's croatians that's every day but you

709
00:26:23,990 --> 00:26:19,640
know

710
00:26:25,970 --> 00:26:24,000
just again now I thought it was somebody

711
00:26:27,890 --> 00:26:25,980
else don't you talk to your mother that

712
00:26:29,990 --> 00:26:27,900
way and it's like you know it's like

713
00:26:31,490 --> 00:26:30,000
take my belt off I'm like ah your pants

714
00:26:32,870 --> 00:26:31,500
will fall down Dad don't don't do that

715
00:26:35,450 --> 00:26:32,880
then your mom hits you with this with a

716
00:26:37,970 --> 00:26:35,460
sandal or like a wooden spoon not that

717
00:26:39,590 --> 00:26:37,980
would ever happen you know I saw a

718
00:26:41,269 --> 00:26:39,600
documentary once you know it's not a

719
00:26:43,310 --> 00:26:41,279
documentary

720
00:26:45,409 --> 00:26:43,320
um but no I actually

721
00:26:47,450 --> 00:26:45,419
listening to you

722
00:26:50,090 --> 00:26:47,460
I ask you you know what it's like tell

723
00:26:52,070 --> 00:26:50,100
me a memory and it's it's amazing it it

724
00:26:53,870 --> 00:26:52,080
was warm in my heart watching you say

725
00:26:57,049 --> 00:26:53,880
that because

726
00:26:59,510 --> 00:26:57,059
you are telling me a memory

727
00:27:03,409 --> 00:26:59,520
that is for the most part an everyday

728
00:27:04,789 --> 00:27:03,419
event yeah it's happened we chaos all

729
00:27:06,409 --> 00:27:04,799
over the damn place and we're trying to

730
00:27:07,669 --> 00:27:06,419
figure things out everybody's annoying

731
00:27:09,049 --> 00:27:07,679
each other you just want to smack

732
00:27:13,669 --> 00:27:09,059
somebody you know

733
00:27:16,490 --> 00:27:13,679
and yet here we are I mean because

734
00:27:18,649 --> 00:27:16,500
of circumstances potentially

735
00:27:21,169 --> 00:27:18,659
I don't want to speak for you but you're

736
00:27:23,750 --> 00:27:21,179
able to view it differently right

737
00:27:26,090 --> 00:27:23,760
so my point with that is that stepping

738
00:27:28,730 --> 00:27:26,100
back again

739
00:27:31,250 --> 00:27:28,740
hi how can we as a society transform

740
00:27:33,470 --> 00:27:31,260
ourselves to

741
00:27:34,789 --> 00:27:33,480
be able to see those moments in a

742
00:27:40,430 --> 00:27:34,799
different set of eyes like you did with

743
00:27:48,430 --> 00:27:43,250
close your Facebook but I love my monkey

744
00:27:53,649 --> 00:27:50,870
it's a spider monkey why do you think

745
00:27:56,870 --> 00:27:53,659
everything I post now is memes

746
00:27:58,490 --> 00:27:56,880
well like dogs memes if you know funny

747
00:28:00,169 --> 00:27:58,500
stuff that's happening funny memories

748
00:28:01,789 --> 00:28:00,179
from back in the day

749
00:28:06,470 --> 00:28:01,799
um people be the change you desire

750
00:28:08,570 --> 00:28:06,480
exactly you know we we've we as as

751
00:28:11,149 --> 00:28:08,580
individuals with strong opinions of both

752
00:28:12,350 --> 00:28:11,159
thrown out strong opinions and it's like

753
00:28:14,029 --> 00:28:12,360
this is what I believe and this is my

754
00:28:14,750 --> 00:28:14,039
Hill I'm gonna die on it it's like you

755
00:28:17,210 --> 00:28:14,760
know at the end of the day it doesn't

756
00:28:18,529 --> 00:28:17,220
matter because the world's just going to

757
00:28:19,669 --> 00:28:18,539
keep turning after you're gone and it's

758
00:28:21,169 --> 00:28:19,679
going to be the exact same thing it's

759
00:28:23,090 --> 00:28:21,179
been the same thing for tens of

760
00:28:24,230 --> 00:28:23,100
thousands of years it's gonna be the

761
00:28:26,450 --> 00:28:24,240
same thing for tens of thousands of

762
00:28:28,870 --> 00:28:26,460
years more Yep why am I getting angry

763
00:28:33,409 --> 00:28:28,880
over something why am I

764
00:28:36,110 --> 00:28:33,419
allowing somebody else who is at the end

765
00:28:37,909 --> 00:28:36,120
of a keyboard whether it's from an

766
00:28:41,090 --> 00:28:37,919
article or whether it's from you know a

767
00:28:43,430 --> 00:28:41,100
social media post or whatever why am I

768
00:28:45,649 --> 00:28:43,440
letting that control my life or tell me

769
00:28:48,830 --> 00:28:45,659
how I'm supposed to feel or act towards

770
00:28:50,990 --> 00:28:48,840
a certain thing when in reality it's you

771
00:28:52,850 --> 00:28:51,000
know like most of these problems or most

772
00:28:54,470 --> 00:28:52,860
of these issues or most of these these

773
00:28:57,289 --> 00:28:54,480
subjects

774
00:28:58,789 --> 00:28:57,299
um you know they they necessarily that

775
00:28:59,810 --> 00:28:58,799
they don't affect me or anybody that I

776
00:29:02,810 --> 00:28:59,820
care about because a lot of the times

777
00:29:05,110 --> 00:29:02,820
they do but it's it's like I have the

778
00:29:08,149 --> 00:29:05,120
choice to be able to make up my own mind

779
00:29:11,690 --> 00:29:08,159
and it's like you know an opinion is

780
00:29:13,909 --> 00:29:11,700
like having uh you know it's like having

781
00:29:15,590 --> 00:29:13,919
a sexual appendage it's great that you

782
00:29:16,669 --> 00:29:15,600
got one nobody wants you to take it out

783
00:29:18,529 --> 00:29:16,679
of your pants and whap you in the face

784
00:29:19,630 --> 00:29:18,539
with it it doesn't you know it doesn't

785
00:29:22,010 --> 00:29:19,640
matter

786
00:29:26,649 --> 00:29:22,020
as I said it's a family show man that's

787
00:29:37,750 --> 00:29:29,110
only fans

788
00:29:41,389 --> 00:29:40,130
I just had a brain thing it's just it's

789
00:29:44,090 --> 00:29:41,399
just like you know meet with like George

790
00:29:50,570 --> 00:29:44,100
Costanza style poses like on the couches

791
00:29:53,510 --> 00:29:50,580
no no one arrested got chills oh I know

792
00:29:55,789 --> 00:29:53,520
gun it would make up most of the uh you

793
00:29:57,850 --> 00:29:55,799
know most of the the monthly costs

794
00:30:01,490 --> 00:29:57,860
probably for like the five people who

795
00:30:04,669 --> 00:30:01,500
it'll be like my wife and yeah you know

796
00:30:07,190 --> 00:30:04,679
my wife use clone wife and it'll go from

797
00:30:09,710 --> 00:30:07,200
9.99 a month to four dollars and 99

798
00:30:13,490 --> 00:30:09,720
Cents it's like

799
00:30:17,750 --> 00:30:14,769
um

800
00:30:19,669 --> 00:30:17,760
when when I I

801
00:30:21,529 --> 00:30:19,679
know brother

802
00:30:23,510 --> 00:30:21,539
you've had a super hard time with your

803
00:30:26,090 --> 00:30:23,520
dad and and

804
00:30:27,470 --> 00:30:26,100
I've always said sense of child my

805
00:30:29,450 --> 00:30:27,480
greatest fear in life

806
00:30:30,830 --> 00:30:29,460
is a day I have to say goodbye to both

807
00:30:33,710 --> 00:30:30,840
my parents

808
00:30:36,950 --> 00:30:33,720
and um you know

809
00:30:41,269 --> 00:30:36,960
I just recently uh reached two years

810
00:30:46,490 --> 00:30:41,279
last month almost exactly a month

811
00:30:51,169 --> 00:30:48,889
you know in a lot of ways I'm not the

812
00:30:52,549 --> 00:30:51,179
best Communicator in a lot of ways and I

813
00:30:54,529 --> 00:30:52,559
understand those faults because they are

814
00:30:56,450 --> 00:30:54,539
false because we understand the deaths

815
00:30:58,130 --> 00:30:56,460
and importance of communication if not

816
00:31:02,570 --> 00:30:58,140
the best day

817
00:31:05,210 --> 00:31:02,580
I I have this thing man and it just [\h__\h]

818
00:31:07,669 --> 00:31:05,220
just gets locked away bro you know

819
00:31:11,510 --> 00:31:07,679
um I don't know why sometimes sometimes

820
00:31:15,590 --> 00:31:11,520
it's like if I could only sometimes say

821
00:31:18,470 --> 00:31:15,600
right here what is right here

822
00:31:20,870 --> 00:31:18,480
I would be a poet but I don't know how

823
00:31:22,610 --> 00:31:20,880
to do it I don't even know how to start

824
00:31:24,230 --> 00:31:22,620
and it's weird because you turn on a

825
00:31:29,090 --> 00:31:24,240
microphone and I can go for 10 hours

826
00:31:34,970 --> 00:31:33,230
when I was getting close to making a

827
00:31:36,950 --> 00:31:34,980
move to come down here

828
00:31:39,590 --> 00:31:36,960
and things did happen kind of quick you

829
00:31:41,090 --> 00:31:39,600
know I was I was trying to find a

830
00:31:42,590 --> 00:31:41,100
company that was a good company that

831
00:31:44,810 --> 00:31:42,600
could help pay for the move because it's

832
00:31:46,789 --> 00:31:44,820
expensive and to help me get kicked off

833
00:31:51,470 --> 00:31:46,799
and

834
00:31:54,110 --> 00:31:51,480
communicate it because I was afraid of

835
00:31:56,149 --> 00:31:54,120
reaction from family because I didn't

836
00:31:57,830 --> 00:31:56,159
want to hear disappointments I didn't

837
00:31:59,210 --> 00:31:57,840
want to hear disappointment at a time

838
00:32:01,190 --> 00:31:59,220
where I was trying to create in my heart

839
00:32:02,450 --> 00:32:01,200
my soul opportunity because the

840
00:32:04,250 --> 00:32:02,460
disappointment from the people you love

841
00:32:06,409 --> 00:32:04,260
the most as much as we want to play

842
00:32:09,470 --> 00:32:06,419
hardcore and as much as we want to play

843
00:32:12,110 --> 00:32:09,480
thick it still hurts man it's still it

844
00:32:14,510 --> 00:32:12,120
hits us differently

845
00:32:17,630 --> 00:32:14,520
and I didn't want to see

846
00:32:19,490 --> 00:32:17,640
the sadness in my mom and the sadness of

847
00:32:21,049 --> 00:32:19,500
my dad with them being in their 70s that

848
00:32:22,730 --> 00:32:21,059
their son was going to get up and leave

849
00:32:23,630 --> 00:32:22,740
you know

850
00:32:25,610 --> 00:32:23,640
um

851
00:32:28,610 --> 00:32:25,620
so when I left brother it's you know I

852
00:32:31,190 --> 00:32:28,620
left with a lot of un uh unresolved

853
00:32:33,710 --> 00:32:31,200
communication situations

854
00:32:35,389 --> 00:32:33,720
and even though we love each other and

855
00:32:37,430 --> 00:32:35,399
I've gone up there and we visit we hug

856
00:32:39,529 --> 00:32:37,440
and hang out we're talking there's

857
00:32:41,570 --> 00:32:39,539
always that one part is kind of like the

858
00:32:43,970 --> 00:32:41,580
uh what do they call that that's

859
00:32:45,529 --> 00:32:43,980
whatever in the room the the angle into

860
00:32:46,610 --> 00:32:45,539
the room elephant to the room you have

861
00:32:48,529 --> 00:32:46,620
the egg in the room that made sense

862
00:32:51,049 --> 00:32:48,539
right well egg in the room also works

863
00:32:53,450 --> 00:32:51,059
too but it it was um

864
00:32:55,909 --> 00:32:53,460
I don't know what was different last oh

865
00:32:58,370 --> 00:32:55,919
you know what was different is when I

866
00:32:59,750 --> 00:32:58,380
had the stomach issue

867
00:33:00,769 --> 00:32:59,760
well a lot of things have changed my

868
00:33:01,850 --> 00:33:00,779
life in the last year we've been through

869
00:33:05,570 --> 00:33:01,860
a lot

870
00:33:07,490 --> 00:33:05,580
we've been trying to do everything we're

871
00:33:09,649 --> 00:33:07,500
doing

872
00:33:11,870 --> 00:33:09,659
and then with my stomach issue and then

873
00:33:13,250 --> 00:33:11,880
my heart stopped and everything just

874
00:33:16,610 --> 00:33:13,260
stopped for a second

875
00:33:22,669 --> 00:33:18,950
and I know brother I'm not in the place

876
00:33:24,230 --> 00:33:22,679
I'm in where I'm supposed to be but I

877
00:33:26,389 --> 00:33:24,240
realize at the moment that I wasn't

878
00:33:29,450 --> 00:33:26,399
spiritually where I was supposed to be

879
00:33:31,490 --> 00:33:29,460
us physically we're all supposed to be

880
00:33:33,830 --> 00:33:31,500
because I kept chugging forward like

881
00:33:38,029 --> 00:33:33,840
what we do as men and women

882
00:33:43,070 --> 00:33:41,029
and and we bury certain emotions that we

883
00:33:45,289 --> 00:33:43,080
feel that could distract us from the

884
00:33:47,090 --> 00:33:45,299
ultimate goal so we find these weird

885
00:33:48,590 --> 00:33:47,100
compartments way deep inside they're

886
00:33:51,470 --> 00:33:48,600
really difficult to find once you put

887
00:33:54,710 --> 00:33:51,480
that stuff away and and because that's

888
00:33:57,470 --> 00:33:54,720
our mechanism as a survival mechanism

889
00:33:59,149 --> 00:33:57,480
to make sure that when we get up the

890
00:34:01,070 --> 00:33:59,159
next morning that those feet are moving

891
00:34:03,710 --> 00:34:01,080
in front of one another because we got

892
00:34:04,730 --> 00:34:03,720
people to feed you know

893
00:34:06,889 --> 00:34:04,740
um

894
00:34:08,990 --> 00:34:06,899
so with that experience in the hospital

895
00:34:10,490 --> 00:34:09,000
with my stomach and I went four months

896
00:34:11,869 --> 00:34:10,500
there were three months I'm sorry I went

897
00:34:13,129 --> 00:34:11,879
three months worth because they messed

898
00:34:15,589 --> 00:34:13,139
up the surgery

899
00:34:17,510 --> 00:34:15,599
in chronic pain bro and I I couldn't

900
00:34:18,950 --> 00:34:17,520
gain weight I couldn't eat food there

901
00:34:20,629 --> 00:34:18,960
would be two or three days at a time I'd

902
00:34:22,490 --> 00:34:20,639
be in my bathroom on the floor uh

903
00:34:24,050 --> 00:34:22,500
because we didn't realize at the time

904
00:34:27,530 --> 00:34:24,060
but I had intestines that were crushed

905
00:34:29,270 --> 00:34:27,540
oh jeez man and there's a nerve when

906
00:34:32,210 --> 00:34:29,280
they did the first surgery that actually

907
00:34:37,490 --> 00:34:32,220
healed into the mesh which then created

908
00:34:39,409 --> 00:34:37,500
a whole neurological World mess bro in

909
00:34:42,050 --> 00:34:39,419
the whole area bro

910
00:34:44,149 --> 00:34:42,060
you know and uh

911
00:34:47,270 --> 00:34:44,159
it was just it put me in some Dark

912
00:34:49,190 --> 00:34:47,280
Places man uh pain does things and

913
00:34:50,570 --> 00:34:49,200
stomach pain I never had before and this

914
00:34:51,409 --> 00:34:50,580
was the first time ever I experienced

915
00:34:53,210 --> 00:34:51,419
this

916
00:34:54,829 --> 00:34:53,220
and when I went into the hospital last

917
00:34:58,010 --> 00:34:54,839
time I was so bloated they actually had

918
00:35:02,450 --> 00:34:58,020
to put things down my throat to relieve

919
00:35:07,010 --> 00:35:05,150
but it was when I woke up after the

920
00:35:09,650 --> 00:35:07,020
surgery that night

921
00:35:11,390 --> 00:35:09,660
and I woke up and the room was packed it

922
00:35:12,349 --> 00:35:11,400
was packed full of doctors man I'm like

923
00:35:14,810 --> 00:35:12,359
what

924
00:35:16,910 --> 00:35:14,820
and at first I was freaking out because

925
00:35:19,310 --> 00:35:16,920
I forgot where I was because my

926
00:35:21,589 --> 00:35:19,320
everything stopped everything stopped

927
00:35:23,630 --> 00:35:21,599
nobody knows why it just said I'm gonna

928
00:35:25,790 --> 00:35:23,640
stop

929
00:35:27,290 --> 00:35:25,800
and the reason the room was so packed is

930
00:35:28,910 --> 00:35:27,300
because they did a cold call throughout

931
00:35:30,589 --> 00:35:28,920
the hospital so any available hands any

932
00:35:33,050 --> 00:35:30,599
doctors and nurses they you know get to

933
00:35:34,970 --> 00:35:33,060
room stoochie immediately and they had

934
00:35:36,890 --> 00:35:34,980
to bring me back

935
00:35:39,109 --> 00:35:36,900
and then I'm like I'm 49 years old I'm

936
00:35:41,089 --> 00:35:39,119
gonna be 50 years old and

937
00:35:42,890 --> 00:35:41,099
going pretty hard Chris you know I'm

938
00:35:44,390 --> 00:35:42,900
going pretty hard and you know I want to

939
00:35:46,310 --> 00:35:44,400
make sure I'm not losing value but when

940
00:35:47,569 --> 00:35:46,320
I went up north and I sat with Dad and I

941
00:35:48,950 --> 00:35:47,579
sat with Mom I spent the whole weekend

942
00:35:50,390 --> 00:35:48,960
with my mom and dad I went up there for

943
00:35:51,349 --> 00:35:50,400
a funeral and I spent all weekend just

944
00:35:54,170 --> 00:35:51,359
with my I didn't want to do anything

945
00:35:55,609 --> 00:35:54,180
else I didn't want to go anywhere I love

946
00:35:59,630 --> 00:35:55,619
everybody man and they get mad at me

947
00:36:04,190 --> 00:36:01,790
um but there's certain things I need to

948
00:36:08,210 --> 00:36:04,200
do for me you know my life isn't always

949
00:36:09,829 --> 00:36:08,220
about the world there's my life too that

950
00:36:11,870 --> 00:36:09,839
needs to be addressed

951
00:36:12,829 --> 00:36:11,880
and me and my dad we play privilege the

952
00:36:18,829 --> 00:36:12,839
whole weekend

953
00:36:21,230 --> 00:36:18,839
and without speaking a word

954
00:36:23,390 --> 00:36:21,240
in regards to what we want to say deep

955
00:36:24,710 --> 00:36:23,400
in our soul of those compartments we

956
00:36:26,329 --> 00:36:24,720
didn't need to because it was being

957
00:36:28,250 --> 00:36:26,339
communicated

958
00:36:30,950 --> 00:36:28,260
because I knew

959
00:36:32,510 --> 00:36:30,960
everything his soul was saying to me

960
00:36:34,250 --> 00:36:32,520
sitting at those tables playing cribbage

961
00:36:35,870 --> 00:36:34,260
and he knew what I was saying and I

962
00:36:38,569 --> 00:36:35,880
cried a lot bro

963
00:36:41,030 --> 00:36:38,579
and saying goodbye to my parents just

964
00:36:41,870 --> 00:36:41,040
this recent time it was I'm not good at

965
00:36:45,230 --> 00:36:41,880
them

966
00:36:46,910 --> 00:36:45,240
first place

967
00:36:48,410 --> 00:36:46,920
but this one was different man because

968
00:36:50,870 --> 00:36:48,420
I'm always afraid that it's going to be

969
00:36:54,109 --> 00:36:50,880
my last time

970
00:36:56,329 --> 00:36:54,119
and when I got up at one o'clock I made

971
00:36:57,589 --> 00:36:56,339
my dad promise me he wasn't gonna get up

972
00:36:58,670 --> 00:36:57,599
I didn't want to say goodbye to him

973
00:37:01,069 --> 00:36:58,680
twice

974
00:37:02,390 --> 00:37:01,079
because I know how Brothers out there

975
00:37:05,510 --> 00:37:02,400
wish they would still have that

976
00:37:07,190 --> 00:37:05,520
opportunity to say goodbye

977
00:37:09,890 --> 00:37:07,200
but when I woke up I heard him walking

978
00:37:11,870 --> 00:37:09,900
upstairs he already had coffee made he

979
00:37:13,910 --> 00:37:11,880
already had snacks you ain't got snacks

980
00:37:15,890 --> 00:37:13,920
for me man you know

981
00:37:17,150 --> 00:37:15,900
sometimes we don't know how to show our

982
00:37:19,310 --> 00:37:17,160
emotions

983
00:37:21,470 --> 00:37:19,320
and my dad went his whole life doing

984
00:37:22,910 --> 00:37:21,480
that because my dad's always been a foot

985
00:37:25,250 --> 00:37:22,920
soldier

986
00:37:26,930 --> 00:37:25,260
um there's some things I can't say but

987
00:37:29,210 --> 00:37:26,940
you know I mean a Vietnam bad he's been

988
00:37:32,990 --> 00:37:29,220
shot he's been blown up I just

989
00:37:35,030 --> 00:37:33,000
celebrated 34 years of sobriety

990
00:37:36,890 --> 00:37:35,040
the things he's been through like it's

991
00:37:38,569 --> 00:37:36,900
amazing but through all those

992
00:37:41,270 --> 00:37:38,579
experiences he learned to become a

993
00:37:42,650 --> 00:37:41,280
different creature he became a creature

994
00:37:43,670 --> 00:37:42,660
of habit he became a creature of

995
00:37:46,550 --> 00:37:43,680
survival

996
00:37:49,069 --> 00:37:46,560
he became a creature of instinct

997
00:37:51,290 --> 00:37:49,079
but he never became the creature of who

998
00:37:53,450 --> 00:37:51,300
he truly wanted to be because he was

999
00:37:56,270 --> 00:37:53,460
surviving a world to make sure the

1000
00:37:58,430 --> 00:37:56,280
people he loves are taken care of and

1001
00:38:07,490 --> 00:37:58,440
they had the opportunity he don't that's

1002
00:38:13,130 --> 00:38:08,930
and what do you say goodbye to me that

1003
00:38:16,250 --> 00:38:14,990
when he sick about him that night that

1004
00:38:18,530 --> 00:38:16,260
hug

1005
00:38:20,569 --> 00:38:18,540
I know whatever in my life remember my

1006
00:38:22,370 --> 00:38:20,579
dad hugging me that strong with that

1007
00:38:24,109 --> 00:38:22,380
heart

1008
00:38:28,490 --> 00:38:24,119
you know it's terrible

1009
00:38:32,810 --> 00:38:31,130
it's weird how parents can bring the

1010
00:38:34,970 --> 00:38:32,820
child out in us because brother I was

1011
00:38:38,450 --> 00:38:34,980
crying like a little kid yeah

1012
00:38:40,069 --> 00:38:38,460
and um so

1013
00:38:41,870 --> 00:38:40,079
you know people like you really need to

1014
00:38:45,829 --> 00:38:41,880
know

1015
00:38:49,609 --> 00:38:47,870
you're saying this and how much you miss

1016
00:38:51,770 --> 00:38:49,619
somebody you love

1017
00:38:53,690 --> 00:38:51,780
and I value that

1018
00:38:56,089 --> 00:38:53,700
and I'll make sure I value it with with

1019
00:38:56,990 --> 00:38:56,099
what I still had the opportunity to

1020
00:39:00,829 --> 00:38:57,000
value

1021
00:39:02,750 --> 00:39:00,839
and um I I hope people can put the world

1022
00:39:05,150 --> 00:39:02,760
away

1023
00:39:08,630 --> 00:39:05,160
and put all the material reasons why we

1024
00:39:11,150 --> 00:39:08,640
disassociated ourselves with people

1025
00:39:13,849 --> 00:39:11,160
and just stop

1026
00:39:15,109 --> 00:39:13,859
and just figure out a way to live

1027
00:39:17,810 --> 00:39:15,119
I don't think that's really that

1028
00:39:19,609 --> 00:39:17,820
difficult we need to stop investing in

1029
00:39:22,190 --> 00:39:19,619
things that no longer spiritually

1030
00:39:23,710 --> 00:39:22,200
benefit us and when we do that brother

1031
00:39:26,450 --> 00:39:23,720
we become toxic

1032
00:39:28,670 --> 00:39:26,460
and we ain't doing any good to any cause

1033
00:39:32,210 --> 00:39:28,680
we claim to represent that's all

1034
00:39:34,010 --> 00:39:32,220
no that makes like total sense you know

1035
00:39:38,690 --> 00:39:34,020
if you're

1036
00:39:40,609 --> 00:39:38,700
ideal and that ideals

1037
00:39:42,829 --> 00:39:40,619
it doesn't add anything to the world

1038
00:39:44,569 --> 00:39:42,839
it's like are you really leaving the

1039
00:39:47,390 --> 00:39:44,579
world a better place than the way you

1040
00:39:49,010 --> 00:39:47,400
had it you know like

1041
00:39:50,990 --> 00:39:49,020
especially like my family like my

1042
00:39:53,690 --> 00:39:51,000
parents they came here and basically

1043
00:39:55,550 --> 00:39:53,700
from you know from a country that wasn't

1044
00:39:57,410 --> 00:39:55,560
exactly the best you know the best

1045
00:39:59,450 --> 00:39:57,420
condition for you know freedom of

1046
00:40:00,890 --> 00:39:59,460
thought freedom of expression right and

1047
00:40:02,349 --> 00:40:00,900
like my parents on the game here they

1048
00:40:05,089 --> 00:40:02,359
they wanted to

1049
00:40:06,589 --> 00:40:05,099
like you know they well first of all the

1050
00:40:08,210 --> 00:40:06,599
main thing was just like get the heck

1051
00:40:09,349 --> 00:40:08,220
out of there

1052
00:40:11,089 --> 00:40:09,359
um

1053
00:40:12,589 --> 00:40:11,099
and also it's like okay well if we're

1054
00:40:13,550 --> 00:40:12,599
gonna have a family like we can't you

1055
00:40:15,349 --> 00:40:13,560
know we can't bring them up in this

1056
00:40:17,030 --> 00:40:15,359
environment and we can't bring them up

1057
00:40:18,410 --> 00:40:17,040
in an environment where if they say the

1058
00:40:20,810 --> 00:40:18,420
wrong thing or just because their last

1059
00:40:23,470 --> 00:40:20,820
name or just because of you know their

1060
00:40:26,510 --> 00:40:23,480
lineage however many you know

1061
00:40:27,530 --> 00:40:26,520
Generations back is gonna put a Target

1062
00:40:28,849 --> 00:40:27,540
on their back or they're gonna be

1063
00:40:31,250 --> 00:40:28,859
blacklists they're not be able to work

1064
00:40:33,530 --> 00:40:31,260
or well constantly having secret police

1065
00:40:34,910 --> 00:40:33,540
knocking on your door it's like you know

1066
00:40:36,950 --> 00:40:34,920
they didn't want to have that kind of

1067
00:40:39,470 --> 00:40:36,960
environment for for my sister and for

1068
00:40:40,730 --> 00:40:39,480
myself and you know they came they came

1069
00:40:42,430 --> 00:40:40,740
to Canada

1070
00:40:44,810 --> 00:40:42,440
um you know

1071
00:40:47,990 --> 00:40:44,820
they didn't have they like they had

1072
00:40:49,730 --> 00:40:48,000
family that was basically it uh you know

1073
00:40:52,430 --> 00:40:49,740
the skills that they you know learned

1074
00:40:54,050 --> 00:40:52,440
that were transferable my mom thankfully

1075
00:40:57,950 --> 00:40:54,060
you know spoke English but my dad you

1076
00:40:59,930 --> 00:40:57,960
know he wasn't he wasn't the the the

1077
00:41:01,910 --> 00:40:59,940
I'm gonna say what's the most profound

1078
00:41:03,829 --> 00:41:01,920
linguist on the planet right when it

1079
00:41:04,510 --> 00:41:03,839
came to words

1080
00:41:06,890 --> 00:41:04,520
um

1081
00:41:08,990 --> 00:41:06,900
what he said was usually pretty profound

1082
00:41:10,790 --> 00:41:09,000
but

1083
00:41:12,410 --> 00:41:10,800
the words that they learn meant

1084
00:41:13,609 --> 00:41:12,420
something you know they they read

1085
00:41:15,829 --> 00:41:13,619
something because there's a message

1086
00:41:18,230 --> 00:41:15,839
behind it

1087
00:41:19,310 --> 00:41:18,240
take care of your health you know your

1088
00:41:23,109 --> 00:41:19,320
health is what's going to keep you going

1089
00:41:25,130 --> 00:41:23,119
forward uh but like my dad he

1090
00:41:26,569 --> 00:41:25,140
vaping too brother

1091
00:41:29,270 --> 00:41:26,579
I was just gonna ask you what's your

1092
00:41:31,250 --> 00:41:29,280
flavor bro no that's uh this is uh from

1093
00:41:33,890 --> 00:41:31,260
a manufacturer here in Ottawa it's

1094
00:41:35,930 --> 00:41:33,900
called sung as and again

1095
00:41:39,530 --> 00:41:35,940
that's not a sponsor the show it's

1096
00:41:41,329 --> 00:41:39,540
called sunken barrel uh it's finally

1097
00:41:44,329 --> 00:41:41,339
back in stock it's kind of like a

1098
00:41:46,670 --> 00:41:44,339
caramel with like some hazelnuts and you

1099
00:41:48,890 --> 00:41:46,680
know like you're rich it's yeah it's

1100
00:41:50,390 --> 00:41:48,900
nice it's nice who knows the way you

1101
00:41:52,250 --> 00:41:50,400
said it though man I got you know I got

1102
00:41:53,930 --> 00:41:52,260
chills a little bit he's a caramel with

1103
00:41:58,250 --> 00:41:53,940
a little Hazel not a little smoke

1104
00:42:00,530 --> 00:41:58,260
flavored Aroma for the pipelines oh okay

1105
00:42:03,670 --> 00:42:00,540
well I got blue ice bro I got blue Razz

1106
00:42:06,310 --> 00:42:03,680
ice up in my menthol

1107
00:42:08,569 --> 00:42:06,320
a minute

1108
00:42:10,609 --> 00:42:08,579
for this brother is because I'm trying

1109
00:42:12,890 --> 00:42:10,619
to supplement because

1110
00:42:15,650 --> 00:42:12,900
um again I got some cons I got more

1111
00:42:17,210 --> 00:42:15,660
health concerns and um I don't talk

1112
00:42:19,250 --> 00:42:17,220
about that ever that's actually first

1113
00:42:21,470 --> 00:42:19,260
time I've said that uh on public

1114
00:42:22,069 --> 00:42:21,480
platform but

1115
00:42:24,109 --> 00:42:22,079
um

1116
00:42:26,030 --> 00:42:24,119
been having issues with my breathing

1117
00:42:27,470 --> 00:42:26,040
and I'm in smoking since I've been a

1118
00:42:29,630 --> 00:42:27,480
teenager I'm going to be 50 years old so

1119
00:42:31,490 --> 00:42:29,640
I got issues I already know I do I mean

1120
00:42:35,210 --> 00:42:31,500
overall General Health is pretty good

1121
00:42:37,490 --> 00:42:35,220
but I still have some continuing issues

1122
00:42:40,310 --> 00:42:37,500
going on that hasn't been resolved with

1123
00:42:41,930 --> 00:42:40,320
my stomach yet and so I need to kind of

1124
00:42:44,150 --> 00:42:41,940
reinvest

1125
00:42:45,710 --> 00:42:44,160
um and again why do we always wait until

1126
00:42:47,270 --> 00:42:45,720
something breaks you know it's just what

1127
00:42:49,250 --> 00:42:47,280
we do as humans

1128
00:42:52,190 --> 00:42:49,260
but I need to kind of reinvest in in

1129
00:42:53,870 --> 00:42:52,200
some of my habits and and make sure that

1130
00:42:56,750 --> 00:42:53,880
you know I'm around as long as I

1131
00:42:59,089 --> 00:42:56,760
physical client hey brother I I come to

1132
00:43:01,250 --> 00:42:59,099
our conclusion

1133
00:43:03,290 --> 00:43:01,260
and I'm okay I'm not saying it and it's

1134
00:43:04,730 --> 00:43:03,300
not a bad thing like you know brother I

1135
00:43:10,309 --> 00:43:04,740
put myself through a lot of stuff man I

1136
00:43:14,569 --> 00:43:12,349
I don't know I don't know how much I

1137
00:43:15,890 --> 00:43:14,579
took away you know through through all

1138
00:43:18,950 --> 00:43:15,900
these years of doing the things I've

1139
00:43:21,170 --> 00:43:18,960
done so it was you know I know I know I

1140
00:43:23,089 --> 00:43:21,180
I just wanted what I got left I just

1141
00:43:25,250 --> 00:43:23,099
want to try to maximize that as much as

1142
00:43:27,230 --> 00:43:25,260
I can I want to see I want to see your

1143
00:43:28,910 --> 00:43:27,240
baby grow up I want to see my boys have

1144
00:43:31,250 --> 00:43:28,920
babies you know I want to see my friends

1145
00:43:33,650 --> 00:43:31,260
friends and families have families I

1146
00:43:35,329 --> 00:43:33,660
want to see all that this to me to

1147
00:43:37,490 --> 00:43:35,339
brother that that is what it's about

1148
00:43:40,309 --> 00:43:37,500
it's kind of weird you ever go where you

1149
00:43:42,829 --> 00:43:40,319
grew up as a kid yeah all the time

1150
00:43:45,170 --> 00:43:42,839
you ever like just touch a tree that you

1151
00:43:46,609 --> 00:43:45,180
used to touch when you were a kid uh I

1152
00:43:48,890 --> 00:43:46,619
did that once

1153
00:43:50,510 --> 00:43:48,900
um that was a long time ago well that

1154
00:43:52,309 --> 00:43:50,520
was like a long time I was maybe like 25

1155
00:43:54,470 --> 00:43:52,319
or 26 and I went out to like you know

1156
00:43:58,329 --> 00:43:54,480
the forest area behind the park where we

1157
00:44:00,890 --> 00:43:58,339
like we'd play Fort as a kid

1158
00:44:02,690 --> 00:44:00,900
well yo well yeah let's see you got two

1159
00:44:04,790 --> 00:44:02,700
forts like you you and your friends have

1160
00:44:06,290 --> 00:44:04,800
like a group and you know another group

1161
00:44:07,910 --> 00:44:06,300
of friends people have their own group

1162
00:44:10,309 --> 00:44:07,920
and like you know you have to play war

1163
00:44:11,630 --> 00:44:10,319
and it's basically just a bunch of 10

1164
00:44:14,150 --> 00:44:11,640
year olds hitting each other with sticks

1165
00:44:16,670 --> 00:44:14,160
in a field it's great I had the best

1166
00:44:18,050 --> 00:44:16,680
machine gun on the planet bro dude you

1167
00:44:19,130 --> 00:44:18,060
should see how much the second that

1168
00:44:21,290 --> 00:44:19,140
thing could shoot

1169
00:44:22,370 --> 00:44:21,300
oh my goodness yeah we didn't we didn't

1170
00:44:25,069 --> 00:44:22,380
have anything that advanced it was

1171
00:44:27,349 --> 00:44:25,079
mostly just you know Advanced I knew

1172
00:44:30,230 --> 00:44:27,359
people you know I knew people I knew the

1173
00:44:32,809 --> 00:44:30,240
stick manufacturers actually so broom

1174
00:44:34,730 --> 00:44:32,819
handles wrapped in electrical tape

1175
00:44:36,890 --> 00:44:34,740
and if it was a it was a gang related it

1176
00:44:38,030 --> 00:44:36,900
was just like you know like we got our

1177
00:44:40,970 --> 00:44:38,040
fourth they got their four we're just

1178
00:44:42,530 --> 00:44:40,980
gonna go out and paddle you know and

1179
00:44:43,750 --> 00:44:42,540
running and rolling through the grass

1180
00:44:45,829 --> 00:44:43,760
you know because

1181
00:44:47,450 --> 00:44:45,839
we beat the crap out of each other and

1182
00:44:49,730 --> 00:44:47,460
then we go play baseball it's it's you

1183
00:44:52,130 --> 00:44:49,740
know it's like okay oh yeah we got first

1184
00:44:54,410 --> 00:44:52,140
up and back okay it's great

1185
00:44:57,230 --> 00:44:54,420
um but like no like it's like where I

1186
00:44:58,130 --> 00:44:57,240
grew up is on my way into my mom's house

1187
00:45:03,470 --> 00:44:58,140
now

1188
00:45:04,550 --> 00:45:03,480
weeks say a couple weeks that's it

1189
00:45:06,770 --> 00:45:04,560
wasn't like you know the last couple

1190
00:45:10,849 --> 00:45:06,780
months or so like I've been in the car

1191
00:45:13,069 --> 00:45:10,859
and my my oldest she's like so it's this

1192
00:45:14,569 --> 00:45:13,079
place and you know we got to talk and

1193
00:45:17,210 --> 00:45:14,579
then all of a sudden she's like well

1194
00:45:19,970 --> 00:45:17,220
where did you grow up Dad I'm like well

1195
00:45:22,190 --> 00:45:19,980
let me tell you at this place like you

1196
00:45:23,990 --> 00:45:22,200
want to go see it right and it's like

1197
00:45:26,569 --> 00:45:24,000
okay so like we'll go drive through the

1198
00:45:27,890 --> 00:45:26,579
hood you know and it's it was not the

1199
00:45:29,630 --> 00:45:27,900
most glamorous neighborhood on the

1200
00:45:32,450 --> 00:45:29,640
planet we'll we'll we'll say that much

1201
00:45:34,130 --> 00:45:32,460
it uh was basically you know it was the

1202
00:45:35,930 --> 00:45:34,140
projects that's the one when you're

1203
00:45:37,069 --> 00:45:35,940
growing up and it's like okay well you

1204
00:45:38,870 --> 00:45:37,079
know it's driving through like this is

1205
00:45:40,790 --> 00:45:38,880
where I still I waited for the bus and

1206
00:45:43,849 --> 00:45:40,800
this yeah hey this is the rock we used

1207
00:45:45,530 --> 00:45:43,859
to throw our bikes off of oh awesome I

1208
00:45:46,730 --> 00:45:45,540
love that yeah like okay like well what

1209
00:45:48,410 --> 00:45:46,740
about where'd you live in the drive by

1210
00:45:51,410 --> 00:45:48,420
the house like you see that tree that's

1211
00:45:53,630 --> 00:45:51,420
like this huge huge you know three-story

1212
00:45:55,550 --> 00:45:53,640
tall like you know Redwood like just

1213
00:45:56,809 --> 00:45:55,560
massive it's a pine

1214
00:45:58,550 --> 00:45:56,819
um but they never cut it down it's like

1215
00:46:01,550 --> 00:45:58,560
it's it's now like three to four stories

1216
00:46:02,930 --> 00:46:01,560
tall in this small little yard in the

1217
00:46:04,970 --> 00:46:02,940
front you know they got to cut the

1218
00:46:06,230 --> 00:46:04,980
branches now to be able to make sure

1219
00:46:08,089 --> 00:46:06,240
that it's not it's not going into the

1220
00:46:10,250 --> 00:46:08,099
house and I'm like when we moved into

1221
00:46:12,589 --> 00:46:10,260
this house almost when when your aunt me

1222
00:46:14,630 --> 00:46:12,599
moves into this house with with your

1223
00:46:17,630 --> 00:46:14,640
grandmother and your grandfather that

1224
00:46:21,109 --> 00:46:17,640
tree was like this as tall as I am right

1225
00:46:23,809 --> 00:46:21,119
now she's like wow you must be a million

1226
00:46:25,750 --> 00:46:23,819
years old I'm like oh geez thanks

1227
00:46:28,270 --> 00:46:25,760
appreciate it honey

1228
00:46:32,150 --> 00:46:28,280
don't filter at all

1229
00:46:33,710 --> 00:46:32,160
so I oh yeah like man you you go through

1230
00:46:35,150 --> 00:46:33,720
like those Memory Lanes and he's like

1231
00:46:37,250 --> 00:46:35,160
you're trying to be able to show like

1232
00:46:38,569 --> 00:46:37,260
hey this is where we grew up and this is

1233
00:46:39,829 --> 00:46:38,579
what we were like when we were kids when

1234
00:46:41,630 --> 00:46:39,839
we were your age and this is what we

1235
00:46:43,970 --> 00:46:41,640
used to be able to do and we were way

1236
00:46:45,589 --> 00:46:43,980
cooler than this generation we knew

1237
00:46:47,569 --> 00:46:45,599
things

1238
00:46:49,550 --> 00:46:47,579
that's what I tell my kids that where

1239
00:46:51,770 --> 00:46:49,560
Our Generations were way more badass

1240
00:46:53,510 --> 00:46:51,780
than theirs like you know how to be able

1241
00:46:56,809 --> 00:46:53,520
to rewind the cassette tape with them

1242
00:46:58,910 --> 00:46:56,819
they don't understand bro

1243
00:47:00,230 --> 00:46:58,920
you ever do the spin oh of course man it

1244
00:47:02,030 --> 00:47:00,240
was it was the fastest that was that was

1245
00:47:03,470 --> 00:47:02,040
fast forward to rewind you know if you

1246
00:47:05,630 --> 00:47:03,480
want to see if your Walkman battery is

1247
00:47:07,309 --> 00:47:05,640
like what's a Walkman

1248
00:47:08,690 --> 00:47:07,319
that big old thing you put on your

1249
00:47:10,670 --> 00:47:08,700
freaking hip when you're walking down

1250
00:47:14,870 --> 00:47:10,680
the street okay

1251
00:47:16,550 --> 00:47:14,880
um I went up it was about a year ago

1252
00:47:18,170 --> 00:47:16,560
um I went up and I brought Ron Phillips

1253
00:47:18,950 --> 00:47:18,180
with me because we had to film it for

1254
00:47:22,430 --> 00:47:18,960
something

1255
00:47:26,210 --> 00:47:24,530
I gave Ryan the tour I brought him to

1256
00:47:27,349 --> 00:47:26,220
the oldie side that's where I was born I

1257
00:47:29,450 --> 00:47:27,359
was born on the east side of Saint Paul

1258
00:47:31,010 --> 00:47:29,460
and it tough town is you know it was all

1259
00:47:32,270 --> 00:47:31,020
Italians when my dad was a kid and then

1260
00:47:33,589 --> 00:47:32,280
it started changing when I was a kid

1261
00:47:35,210 --> 00:47:33,599
there but it was a tough time but we

1262
00:47:37,849 --> 00:47:35,220
didn't know it was a tough time that was

1263
00:47:39,710 --> 00:47:37,859
home uh we would ride our bikes at night

1264
00:47:40,730 --> 00:47:39,720
we you know things would be happening

1265
00:47:42,890 --> 00:47:40,740
and

1266
00:47:44,329 --> 00:47:42,900
we didn't know any different because we

1267
00:47:46,609 --> 00:47:44,339
weren't told that that wasn't normal

1268
00:47:48,650 --> 00:47:46,619
that was just the way we knew things but

1269
00:47:51,349 --> 00:47:48,660
when I brought rod

1270
00:47:53,210 --> 00:47:51,359
and we walked down the street and you

1271
00:47:55,730 --> 00:47:53,220
know I grew up on and and we went to

1272
00:47:58,609 --> 00:47:55,740
different areas

1273
00:48:00,770 --> 00:47:58,619
I reminisced about it differently

1274
00:48:02,630 --> 00:48:00,780
um you know it's like it's like a baby

1275
00:48:05,990 --> 00:48:02,640
when a baby gets the sucker taken away

1276
00:48:07,970 --> 00:48:06,000
oh God it kind of freaked you know

1277
00:48:10,430 --> 00:48:07,980
so it's not like I got my home taken

1278
00:48:12,349 --> 00:48:10,440
away but when you move away you you all

1279
00:48:13,670 --> 00:48:12,359
of a sudden that disconnect

1280
00:48:16,190 --> 00:48:13,680
something that you're used to always

1281
00:48:17,569 --> 00:48:16,200
having access to when everyone that

1282
00:48:19,970 --> 00:48:17,579
disconnect is there

1283
00:48:21,710 --> 00:48:19,980
and so it's like every time I go home

1284
00:48:23,510 --> 00:48:21,720
there's certain areas of specific

1285
00:48:26,150 --> 00:48:23,520
I just want to go and just stand there

1286
00:48:27,829 --> 00:48:26,160
or or go sit on this wall

1287
00:48:30,170 --> 00:48:27,839
and I don't know why I have such an

1288
00:48:32,329 --> 00:48:30,180
attachment right now to the old

1289
00:48:34,730 --> 00:48:32,339
neighborhood you know my youth is it

1290
00:48:36,890 --> 00:48:34,740
depression bro I know that's not I don't

1291
00:48:41,329 --> 00:48:36,900
think it's depression you know it's this

1292
00:48:43,490 --> 00:48:41,339
Nostalgia and it's uh you know as as

1293
00:48:45,230 --> 00:48:43,500
it's like there was this old uh Greek

1294
00:48:47,329 --> 00:48:45,240
guy that I used to work for when it was

1295
00:48:49,370 --> 00:48:47,339
started as a copywriter and yeah that's

1296
00:48:50,990 --> 00:48:49,380
mad Ben I'm not gonna tell that you know

1297
00:48:52,490 --> 00:48:51,000
that story but it's like it it's it's

1298
00:48:54,230 --> 00:48:52,500
the pain from an open wound like it's

1299
00:48:56,690 --> 00:48:54,240
it's those longing for those things that

1300
00:48:59,089 --> 00:48:56,700
were that were gone before and you know

1301
00:49:00,530 --> 00:48:59,099
that that's why you see like all of

1302
00:49:02,930 --> 00:49:00,540
these movies that are remakes of movies

1303
00:49:06,170 --> 00:49:02,940
that were popular when we were kids you

1304
00:49:09,109 --> 00:49:06,180
know Transformers and and you know like

1305
00:49:11,030 --> 00:49:09,119
you you know she sure as heck that if

1306
00:49:12,410 --> 00:49:11,040
well not you because well you're a

1307
00:49:13,970 --> 00:49:12,420
couple years old I mean not too many but

1308
00:49:15,230 --> 00:49:13,980
you're a couple years older than me and

1309
00:49:17,210 --> 00:49:15,240
it's like I remember like the first time

1310
00:49:19,250 --> 00:49:17,220
I watched Optimus Prime die you know

1311
00:49:22,130 --> 00:49:19,260
from the original Transformers movie man

1312
00:49:24,170 --> 00:49:22,140
that just like that destroyed me and

1313
00:49:25,670 --> 00:49:24,180
it's like they try and pull that with

1314
00:49:27,770 --> 00:49:25,680
the Michael Bay movies and you're like

1315
00:49:31,250 --> 00:49:27,780
just doesn't hit the same you know like

1316
00:49:34,609 --> 00:49:31,260
but they do that to try and and

1317
00:49:36,290 --> 00:49:34,619
uh Trend rekindle those feelings you

1318
00:49:39,410 --> 00:49:36,300
have from when you're younger hey

1319
00:49:42,770 --> 00:49:39,420
brother did you ever see the TV series

1320
00:49:43,390 --> 00:49:42,780
um uh on History Channel the Vikings

1321
00:49:45,710 --> 00:49:43,400
um

1322
00:49:48,410 --> 00:49:45,720
like two episodes into the first season

1323
00:49:51,950 --> 00:49:48,420
and oh I'm like oh okay I watched every

1324
00:49:54,470 --> 00:49:51,960
season about 30 347 times I can probably

1325
00:49:57,290 --> 00:49:54,480
recite every you know word in there but

1326
00:49:59,329 --> 00:49:57,300
yeah when somebody died in that movie or

1327
00:50:02,750 --> 00:49:59,339
that show

1328
00:50:03,890 --> 00:50:02,760
dude it hit me man bro I mean like I

1329
00:50:06,349 --> 00:50:03,900
think I'm still kind of going through

1330
00:50:08,030 --> 00:50:06,359
some damage in my face it's like I

1331
00:50:08,990 --> 00:50:08,040
didn't find justification in it and I

1332
00:50:10,130 --> 00:50:09,000
wish I would have been there to protect

1333
00:50:12,770 --> 00:50:10,140
him but

1334
00:50:14,450 --> 00:50:12,780
you know so and you know that's War when

1335
00:50:15,589 --> 00:50:14,460
you're a viking you know things happen I

1336
00:50:18,470 --> 00:50:15,599
guess

1337
00:50:21,349 --> 00:50:18,480
no like Vikings Space robot Vikings it's

1338
00:50:23,510 --> 00:50:21,359
like you you get those like those things

1339
00:50:25,490 --> 00:50:23,520
where it's okay well it's it's the the

1340
00:50:27,890 --> 00:50:25,500
understanding of like you're just a

1341
00:50:29,390 --> 00:50:27,900
Space robot biking adult's a Transformer

1342
00:50:31,490 --> 00:50:29,400
you know

1343
00:50:34,069 --> 00:50:31,500
good point hey Optimus Prime had a sword

1344
00:50:35,950 --> 00:50:34,079
yo okay well he did

1345
00:50:38,230 --> 00:50:35,960
was an energy sword

1346
00:50:40,490 --> 00:50:38,240
beats the eye

1347
00:50:41,569 --> 00:50:40,500
do you watch the Transformer cartoons

1348
00:50:43,970 --> 00:50:41,579
when you're little

1349
00:50:46,670 --> 00:50:43,980
what the heck yeah man oh

1350
00:50:49,790 --> 00:50:46,680
this is a good old phase man uh you

1351
00:50:51,710 --> 00:50:49,800
remember mask anybody else remember mask

1352
00:50:53,329 --> 00:50:51,720
with Rocky Dennis

1353
00:50:56,569 --> 00:50:53,339
I'm not too sure but it was it was it

1354
00:50:58,190 --> 00:50:56,579
was like Transformers in GI Joe where

1355
00:50:59,930 --> 00:50:58,200
you had like this guy who had like a it

1356
00:51:01,910 --> 00:50:59,940
was a Camaro or a Firebird that turned

1357
00:51:03,950 --> 00:51:01,920
into a plane like the golden doors would

1358
00:51:06,890 --> 00:51:03,960
come up in here like the laser you know

1359
00:51:10,309 --> 00:51:06,900
no yeah it was it was it was another toy

1360
00:51:13,490 --> 00:51:10,319
attic yo Hasbro commercial like show

1361
00:51:15,650 --> 00:51:13,500
that just was there to hog toys which is

1362
00:51:17,390 --> 00:51:15,660
basically like okay let's let's put some

1363
00:51:19,010 --> 00:51:17,400
impressionable youth in front of the

1364
00:51:20,870 --> 00:51:19,020
half an hour cartoon that just never

1365
00:51:24,290 --> 00:51:20,880
ends I get the parents to buy the stuff

1366
00:51:26,089 --> 00:51:24,300
one more cartoon reference because I I

1367
00:51:28,490 --> 00:51:26,099
still have questions you know I've

1368
00:51:30,049 --> 00:51:28,500
always had concerns about this one

1369
00:51:33,970 --> 00:51:30,059
um but you know in reference to the

1370
00:51:37,970 --> 00:51:33,980
Smurfs I've always had questions

1371
00:51:40,490 --> 00:51:37,980
why um there's only one female Smurf in

1372
00:51:42,410 --> 00:51:40,500
a village of like 400 of them you know

1373
00:51:44,390 --> 00:51:42,420
it's best not to think about these kind

1374
00:51:46,460 --> 00:51:44,400
of things uh is there a subliminal

1375
00:51:48,230 --> 00:51:46,470
message or somewhere

1376
00:51:51,890 --> 00:51:48,240
[Music]

1377
00:51:52,730 --> 00:51:51,900
it I'm thinking I don't know man I don't

1378
00:51:55,010 --> 00:51:52,740
know

1379
00:51:56,750 --> 00:51:55,020
why where's grandma's birth that's the

1380
00:51:59,030 --> 00:51:56,760
next one that's what I'm saying bro and

1381
00:52:00,950 --> 00:51:59,040
why are they all blue

1382
00:52:02,510 --> 00:52:00,960
but anyways that's just some thoughts I

1383
00:52:04,190 --> 00:52:02,520
have you know when I'm walking by myself

1384
00:52:05,270 --> 00:52:04,200
you know maybe if you're if you're

1385
00:52:08,089 --> 00:52:05,280
thinking about like that kind of thing

1386
00:52:10,370 --> 00:52:08,099
it's like why is it that there was like

1387
00:52:12,109 --> 00:52:10,380
this guy with a receding hairline trying

1388
00:52:13,549 --> 00:52:12,119
to turn them into gold all the time what

1389
00:52:15,470 --> 00:52:13,559
was with this cat

1390
00:52:17,390 --> 00:52:15,480
yeah

1391
00:52:18,950 --> 00:52:17,400
bro

1392
00:52:24,290 --> 00:52:18,960
what's your thoughts on the Mandela

1393
00:52:28,370 --> 00:52:26,510
I think it's just because we tend to

1394
00:52:31,910 --> 00:52:28,380
misremember things

1395
00:52:37,370 --> 00:52:34,790
you know like it's an alternate reality

1396
00:52:39,770 --> 00:52:37,380
but I honestly it could be I don't know

1397
00:52:41,990 --> 00:52:39,780
man but it could be what you're saying

1398
00:52:46,010 --> 00:52:42,000
too because it's it's the human brain

1399
00:52:48,710 --> 00:52:46,020
you know is is pretty easily

1400
00:52:50,030 --> 00:52:48,720
if we don't know 100 and somebody just

1401
00:52:51,890 --> 00:52:50,040
tells us most people are just going to

1402
00:52:53,569 --> 00:52:51,900
be like oh yeah totally

1403
00:52:55,309 --> 00:52:53,579
but there was a couple that trip me out

1404
00:52:57,950 --> 00:52:55,319
there was a couple because there was one

1405
00:53:01,370 --> 00:52:57,960
brother I'm I'm just going to say this

1406
00:53:03,049 --> 00:53:01,380
he was a local Chef on the local news up

1407
00:53:04,670 --> 00:53:03,059
home where I live and I've watched him

1408
00:53:05,630 --> 00:53:04,680
for years locally he was everybody

1409
00:53:08,809 --> 00:53:05,640
normal

1410
00:53:11,210 --> 00:53:08,819
his name was Andrew Zimmerman

1411
00:53:13,250 --> 00:53:11,220
and now it's Andrew Zim and I can't find

1412
00:53:15,109 --> 00:53:13,260
any reference anywhere on this planet of

1413
00:53:16,670 --> 00:53:15,119
him being Andrew Zimmerman

1414
00:53:18,049 --> 00:53:16,680
and I don't know what to say about this

1415
00:53:19,069 --> 00:53:18,059
well every single time you remember

1416
00:53:21,410 --> 00:53:19,079
something you're not actually

1417
00:53:23,809 --> 00:53:21,420
remembering the event you're remembering

1418
00:53:26,150 --> 00:53:23,819
the last time you remembered it

1419
00:53:27,829 --> 00:53:26,160
so every single time you recall that

1420
00:53:29,930 --> 00:53:27,839
you're basically recalling the last

1421
00:53:32,690 --> 00:53:29,940
recall and if you do that too many times

1422
00:53:34,910 --> 00:53:32,700
and you're like you know it it's not

1423
00:53:37,190 --> 00:53:34,920
you're making a photocopy of a photocopy

1424
00:53:39,589 --> 00:53:37,200
of a photocopy so you're you're

1425
00:53:41,089 --> 00:53:39,599
essentially just kind of messing up that

1426
00:53:43,849 --> 00:53:41,099
that memory too it's like not really

1427
00:53:45,530 --> 00:53:43,859
messing the memory up but uh so that's

1428
00:53:47,829 --> 00:53:45,540
how false realities are created yeah

1429
00:53:50,329 --> 00:53:47,839
pretty much at least

1430
00:53:51,589 --> 00:53:50,339
bro we just came down with some stuff or

1431
00:53:55,270 --> 00:53:51,599
we just worked together as a team and

1432
00:54:05,089 --> 00:53:58,549
you know in the shape of

1433
00:54:08,990 --> 00:54:06,410
I was just trying to think of a quick

1434
00:54:10,730 --> 00:54:09,000
form uh yeah you know it's it's yeah

1435
00:54:12,049 --> 00:54:10,740
it's a little bit but your central time

1436
00:54:14,030 --> 00:54:12,059
are you Mountain Time or Central time

1437
00:54:15,410 --> 00:54:14,040
now I'm Central okay I was wondering

1438
00:54:16,490 --> 00:54:15,420
about that reference because I had to

1439
00:54:19,010 --> 00:54:16,500
Google it

1440
00:54:20,690 --> 00:54:19,020
I was like what's GMT

1441
00:54:22,790 --> 00:54:20,700
I had to Google it don't worry about it

1442
00:54:26,690 --> 00:54:22,800
bro jeans

1443
00:54:29,329 --> 00:54:26,700
it's it's it's the new DMT the DMT the

1444
00:54:31,309 --> 00:54:29,339
DMT it's it's the the

1445
00:54:35,210 --> 00:54:31,319
you know it's the off brand it's it's

1446
00:54:36,829 --> 00:54:35,220
the PC Cola of of DMT

1447
00:54:39,950 --> 00:54:36,839
um I just want to say a big shout out to

1448
00:54:41,450 --> 00:54:39,960
Miss Audrey love you Matt and she's kind

1449
00:54:43,670 --> 00:54:41,460
of amazing

1450
00:54:45,589 --> 00:54:43,680
and helping me out keep the you know

1451
00:54:48,589 --> 00:54:45,599
keep keep the ship going and balancing

1452
00:54:50,809 --> 00:54:48,599
ideas off of uh you know she's like it's

1453
00:54:53,210 --> 00:54:50,819
like it's like this is going to be a

1454
00:54:54,530 --> 00:54:53,220
slow process and a slow build up she's

1455
00:54:56,470 --> 00:54:54,540
like that's fine I think I got my own

1456
00:54:59,390 --> 00:54:56,480
things going on I'm like don't worry

1457
00:55:01,670 --> 00:54:59,400
working family come first uh you know

1458
00:55:04,370 --> 00:55:01,680
that was uh one of my my you know

1459
00:55:06,290 --> 00:55:04,380
someone I'm running another podcast with

1460
00:55:09,589 --> 00:55:06,300
uh more like the business side of things

1461
00:55:11,750 --> 00:55:09,599
because he he he just instilled that

1462
00:55:13,790 --> 00:55:11,760
idea into me

1463
00:55:15,410 --> 00:55:13,800
um he's a great mentor like from from

1464
00:55:18,890 --> 00:55:15,420
like business and just business

1465
00:55:22,130 --> 00:55:18,900
operations yeah man just just even just

1466
00:55:24,470 --> 00:55:22,140
being like a a cool dude to like learn

1467
00:55:26,990 --> 00:55:24,480
stuff of who's been there done that and

1468
00:55:28,910 --> 00:55:27,000
a million times over

1469
00:55:31,190 --> 00:55:28,920
um and I was like no you know it's like

1470
00:55:35,230 --> 00:55:31,200
if I'm if we're gonna take this you know

1471
00:55:37,390 --> 00:55:35,240
take this to uh to a new level

1472
00:55:39,829 --> 00:55:37,400
started from the bottom now we're here

1473
00:55:41,930 --> 00:55:39,839
uh and like literally now we're you know

1474
00:55:44,450 --> 00:55:41,940
on the same couch that the show started

1475
00:55:46,190 --> 00:55:44,460
on with you know a deep freeze and a

1476
00:55:48,650 --> 00:55:46,200
nice bottle of champagne

1477
00:55:50,569 --> 00:55:48,660
which I forget exactly this was actually

1478
00:55:52,130 --> 00:55:50,579
I believe my father gave this to me you

1479
00:55:54,049 --> 00:55:52,140
know I'm a deep Seeker bro I'm a deep

1480
00:55:55,370 --> 00:55:54,059
thinker because you know what you just

1481
00:55:57,109 --> 00:55:55,380
said you know there's some profoundness

1482
00:55:59,870 --> 00:55:57,119
what you just said so let me put this

1483
00:56:02,089 --> 00:55:59,880
together go for it all right because I

1484
00:56:03,950 --> 00:56:02,099
know so I I don't even know how long

1485
00:56:06,829 --> 00:56:03,960
I've been doing radio I I don't know for

1486
00:56:08,390 --> 00:56:06,839
sure uh eight years maybe some eight

1487
00:56:10,370 --> 00:56:08,400
nine years maybe a little bit longer

1488
00:56:11,990 --> 00:56:10,380
shorter I don't know but there's been

1489
00:56:14,990 --> 00:56:12,000
many times where we push really hard

1490
00:56:17,630 --> 00:56:15,000
we're dialed in you know what I'm saying

1491
00:56:19,730 --> 00:56:17,640
we dialed in hard and and we devoted

1492
00:56:22,849 --> 00:56:19,740
every breathing extra available second

1493
00:56:26,030 --> 00:56:22,859
we had of our life to push to promote to

1494
00:56:28,250 --> 00:56:26,040
show prep to it in in our drives you

1495
00:56:30,049 --> 00:56:28,260
know and now I look back and now knowing

1496
00:56:31,190 --> 00:56:30,059
what I know now and and being around the

1497
00:56:33,650 --> 00:56:31,200
people that I know now at a completely

1498
00:56:35,690 --> 00:56:33,660
different business level 99 what I was

1499
00:56:37,910 --> 00:56:35,700
doing back in the day by chasing the the

1500
00:56:39,650 --> 00:56:37,920
Facebook stuff and and some of the

1501
00:56:41,870 --> 00:56:39,660
content I was doing and how I was doing

1502
00:56:43,309 --> 00:56:41,880
it and what I was allowing it was

1503
00:56:44,569 --> 00:56:43,319
destroying me it wasn't helping me at

1504
00:56:46,069 --> 00:56:44,579
all

1505
00:56:47,510 --> 00:56:46,079
um and then it also started affecting

1506
00:56:48,950 --> 00:56:47,520
Family Life work life and everything

1507
00:56:50,569 --> 00:56:48,960
else and then before you know it you got

1508
00:56:53,510 --> 00:56:50,579
this Snowball Effect and you got turmoil

1509
00:56:55,190 --> 00:56:53,520
well that's pretty much it you know but

1510
00:56:56,329 --> 00:56:55,200
your vision now the way you just said it

1511
00:56:58,609 --> 00:56:56,339
see now that's when things happen

1512
00:57:01,490 --> 00:56:58,619
brother because everything in my life

1513
00:57:03,829 --> 00:57:01,500
there's and we'll get to it but

1514
00:57:07,730 --> 00:57:03,839
it was not one day

1515
00:57:10,370 --> 00:57:07,740
and shame on me did I ever fathom

1516
00:57:12,589 --> 00:57:10,380
going to what we're going to be going to

1517
00:57:15,109 --> 00:57:12,599
this year and and I can break it all

1518
00:57:16,370 --> 00:57:15,119
down in any way you want brother but and

1519
00:57:19,190 --> 00:57:16,380
shame on me

1520
00:57:22,450 --> 00:57:19,200
or create love for creating a limit you

1521
00:57:26,150 --> 00:57:22,460
know uh because I was just proven wrong

1522
00:57:28,549 --> 00:57:26,160
of my own behavior that limits our

1523
00:57:29,990 --> 00:57:28,559
figment of our imagination but my

1524
00:57:32,089 --> 00:57:30,000
mindset was completely different going

1525
00:57:34,609 --> 00:57:32,099
into this with different expectations

1526
00:57:36,290 --> 00:57:34,619
you know well you you create your own

1527
00:57:38,049 --> 00:57:36,300
limits on yourself

1528
00:57:40,430 --> 00:57:38,059
um with with

1529
00:57:42,710 --> 00:57:40,440
you know again that just like it comes

1530
00:57:46,490 --> 00:57:42,720
out of fear a lot of it it comes down to

1531
00:57:49,250 --> 00:57:46,500
past convention it comes down to

1532
00:57:50,809 --> 00:57:49,260
um you know one's own uh biases that you

1533
00:57:54,650 --> 00:57:50,819
know whether you're talking about biases

1534
00:57:56,210 --> 00:57:54,660
of ability or biases of of uh you know

1535
00:57:58,010 --> 00:57:56,220
intelligence

1536
00:58:00,170 --> 00:57:58,020
um or just you know your own doubts

1537
00:58:02,150 --> 00:58:00,180
about how much you can endure to to get

1538
00:58:04,549 --> 00:58:02,160
somewhere or what you think that you

1539
00:58:07,069 --> 00:58:04,559
know or how hard something actually is

1540
00:58:09,410 --> 00:58:07,079
and it's not that hard and you know

1541
00:58:12,170 --> 00:58:09,420
that'll that'll put barriers in your own

1542
00:58:14,150 --> 00:58:12,180
way to be able to achieve it and like

1543
00:58:17,089 --> 00:58:14,160
you know we can

1544
00:58:19,210 --> 00:58:17,099
like even even with like this show

1545
00:58:22,510 --> 00:58:19,220
like before we we hit

1546
00:58:24,829 --> 00:58:22,520
we were doing like very well back in

1547
00:58:26,210 --> 00:58:24,839
2016-2017 and like I'm sitting there

1548
00:58:28,309 --> 00:58:26,220
like a home like wow man the world has

1549
00:58:29,750 --> 00:58:28,319
changed five times over since then dude

1550
00:58:31,370 --> 00:58:29,760
that was kind of painful just here in

1551
00:58:34,549 --> 00:58:31,380
that year because it seems so freaking

1552
00:58:37,309 --> 00:58:34,559
long ago but it seemed like yesterday oh

1553
00:58:39,170 --> 00:58:37,319
blind yellow you got covered you got

1554
00:58:41,210 --> 00:58:39,180
like you know the all of the like the

1555
00:58:42,950 --> 00:58:41,220
three years were just everything just

1556
00:58:44,390 --> 00:58:42,960
shut down they're like now those things

1557
00:58:48,349 --> 00:58:44,400
are starting to open back up and things

1558
00:58:52,010 --> 00:58:48,359
start to go in more of a new normal

1559
00:58:54,049 --> 00:58:52,020
normal way or at least relatively back

1560
00:58:56,270 --> 00:58:54,059
to the fact we can go up and around and

1561
00:58:57,770 --> 00:58:56,280
not have to worry about

1562
00:59:02,690 --> 00:58:57,780
um you know any type of restrictions or

1563
00:59:04,670 --> 00:59:02,700
anything like that or whatever uh but

1564
00:59:05,930 --> 00:59:04,680
like that entire time because it was

1565
00:59:08,270 --> 00:59:05,940
essentially the same thing every single

1566
00:59:10,130 --> 00:59:08,280
day or through most days everything just

1567
00:59:12,950 --> 00:59:10,140
blurred right together and it's like

1568
00:59:14,990 --> 00:59:12,960
yeah I you know closed my eyes

1569
00:59:17,809 --> 00:59:15,000
and open it it's like all of a sudden

1570
00:59:19,730 --> 00:59:17,819
like wow this you know the one kids you

1571
00:59:23,630 --> 00:59:19,740
know in in dance recital and the other

1572
00:59:26,270 --> 00:59:23,640
ones actually here and and running

1573
00:59:28,270 --> 00:59:26,280
around and it's like whatever [\h__\h]

1574
00:59:31,670 --> 00:59:28,280
tables climbing tables

1575
00:59:33,589 --> 00:59:31,680
climbing tables throwing stuff ocean got

1576
00:59:35,569 --> 00:59:33,599
a personality on our old man old man you

1577
00:59:37,789 --> 00:59:35,579
got Legos you got Legos in the house

1578
00:59:40,010 --> 00:59:37,799
he's not much of a Lego kid or that's a

1579
00:59:41,870 --> 00:59:40,020
good thing she's more of a oh no no even

1580
00:59:44,870 --> 00:59:41,880
even with you know she's she's more of

1581
00:59:48,049 --> 00:59:44,880
like a physical running and jumping oh

1582
00:59:50,289 --> 00:59:48,059
Tess is the uh my oldest is she's the um

1583
00:59:52,670 --> 00:59:50,299
good she's the artist

1584
00:59:54,289 --> 00:59:52,680
so the the youngest one she's gonna be

1585
00:59:56,750 --> 00:59:54,299
be the musician and together they're

1586
00:59:57,770 --> 00:59:56,760
gonna have like a band where one designs

1587
01:00:01,789 --> 00:59:57,780
the albums and the other one actually

1588
01:00:09,470 --> 01:00:05,829
the night that I can again together

1589
01:00:10,670 --> 01:00:09,480
so we can wholesale it so we can package

1590
01:00:12,170 --> 01:00:10,680
something up we got you covered just

1591
01:00:13,609 --> 01:00:12,180
tell me what you need dude artwork you

1592
01:00:15,289 --> 01:00:13,619
need some music we got you covered

1593
01:00:17,030 --> 01:00:15,299
you're gonna eat some beats need a ghost

1594
01:00:19,670 --> 01:00:17,040
writer it's fine that's good oh that's

1595
01:00:22,430 --> 01:00:19,680
right you do that too uh not so much

1596
01:00:24,710 --> 01:00:22,440
anymore but yeah

1597
01:00:27,109 --> 01:00:24,720
ah no just like writing in general like

1598
01:00:28,430 --> 01:00:27,119
you know like Jack of all trades master

1599
01:00:30,049 --> 01:00:28,440
review of them kind of like you know

1600
01:00:31,609 --> 01:00:30,059
kind of like you you're you're a man of

1601
01:00:33,049 --> 01:00:31,619
the world you you do pretty much

1602
01:00:36,470 --> 01:00:33,059
everything

1603
01:00:39,109 --> 01:00:36,480
master or well what you just said Jack

1604
01:00:40,910 --> 01:00:39,119
of all trades master of a few damn facts

1605
01:00:41,870 --> 01:00:40,920
damn fact

1606
01:00:43,370 --> 01:00:41,880
um I am actually looking for a

1607
01:00:44,990 --> 01:00:43,380
Ghostwriter though

1608
01:00:49,010 --> 01:00:45,000
chat GPT

1609
01:00:51,490 --> 01:00:49,020
I want you no man what's you get me your

1610
01:00:54,650 --> 01:00:51,500
Elsa getting shot cheap

1611
01:00:56,030 --> 01:00:54,660
I appreciate that but I'm having the

1612
01:00:59,329 --> 01:00:56,040
hardest time

1613
01:01:01,670 --> 01:00:59,339
so I I started writing my book

1614
01:01:03,049 --> 01:01:01,680
probably four years ago and and what I

1615
01:01:05,569 --> 01:01:03,059
ended up doing Chris is I had my

1616
01:01:07,309 --> 01:01:05,579
recorder and I just sat there with my

1617
01:01:08,510 --> 01:01:07,319
recorder on my backyard smoking a cigar

1618
01:01:10,250 --> 01:01:08,520
and just talking about the certain

1619
01:01:13,010 --> 01:01:10,260
highlights the highlighted parts of my

1620
01:01:14,750 --> 01:01:13,020
life I want to talk about because I

1621
01:01:16,069 --> 01:01:14,760
can't type and think I can't type I'm a

1622
01:01:18,049 --> 01:01:16,079
professional during the day brother I'm

1623
01:01:20,270 --> 01:01:18,059
a professional and I still type with

1624
01:01:22,309 --> 01:01:20,280
these two things right here come out all

1625
01:01:24,289 --> 01:01:22,319
day all day

1626
01:01:26,770 --> 01:01:24,299
um

1627
01:01:30,829 --> 01:01:26,780
what am I talking about again

1628
01:01:33,230 --> 01:01:30,839
ADHD we are the master and this is the

1629
01:01:35,710 --> 01:01:33,240
talk radio of ADHD

1630
01:01:38,030 --> 01:01:35,720
um ADHD of Talk Radio

1631
01:01:40,490 --> 01:01:38,040
the brains of the brain's a weird thing

1632
01:01:42,049 --> 01:01:40,500
man what was I just talking about uh you

1633
01:01:43,730 --> 01:01:42,059
were talking about ghost writing and I

1634
01:01:44,930 --> 01:01:43,740
said oh yeah you wanted these goes right

1635
01:01:46,670 --> 01:01:44,940
for you I'm like I can do that but

1636
01:01:49,789 --> 01:01:46,680
you're getting also chat GPT because

1637
01:01:53,510 --> 01:01:49,799
yeah my brain it goes at a way different

1638
01:01:56,030 --> 01:01:53,520
wavelength than what my output is and

1639
01:01:57,589 --> 01:01:56,040
when I try to speak I'm trying to reach

1640
01:01:58,910 --> 01:01:57,599
an emotional level and I'm trying to use

1641
01:02:00,530 --> 01:01:58,920
the right words and when I'm sitting

1642
01:02:02,150 --> 01:02:00,540
there trying to worry about typos and

1643
01:02:03,650 --> 01:02:02,160
all that crap at the same time I can't

1644
01:02:04,670 --> 01:02:03,660
do that kind of stuff man I don't know

1645
01:02:05,809 --> 01:02:04,680
people that sit there and they type and

1646
01:02:07,190 --> 01:02:05,819
they have conversations with you the

1647
01:02:10,250 --> 01:02:07,200
freaksman I think they're possessed I'm

1648
01:02:12,710 --> 01:02:10,260
just saying a little bit they may need

1649
01:02:13,970 --> 01:02:12,720
I hit the mouse and oh everything goes

1650
01:02:16,670 --> 01:02:13,980
squirrely

1651
01:02:19,010 --> 01:02:16,680
um so

1652
01:02:21,410 --> 01:02:19,020
I I need

1653
01:02:23,329 --> 01:02:21,420
and it was meant to be that it wasn't

1654
01:02:25,130 --> 01:02:23,339
written two years ago because I'm

1655
01:02:27,470 --> 01:02:25,140
literally in my final chapter right now

1656
01:02:29,809 --> 01:02:27,480
my final chapter is just about complete

1657
01:02:31,789 --> 01:02:29,819
and so I spoke to Otter AI

1658
01:02:33,230 --> 01:02:31,799
because again the things nowadays when

1659
01:02:34,970 --> 01:02:33,240
it comes to like this is going on to the

1660
01:02:37,190 --> 01:02:34,980
whole technique because I actually had

1661
01:02:39,470 --> 01:02:37,200
like uh at least at least to get

1662
01:02:41,809 --> 01:02:39,480
organized now like you know organized

1663
01:02:44,630 --> 01:02:41,819
the studio is essentially my my old

1664
01:02:47,210 --> 01:02:44,640
couch in a disassembled completely like

1665
01:02:48,950 --> 01:02:47,220
oh man I got boxes and and stuff pile up

1666
01:02:51,170 --> 01:02:48,960
all over the place behind this So for

1667
01:02:53,630 --> 01:02:51,180
anybody who's out there I'm right now on

1668
01:02:55,849 --> 01:02:53,640
a laptop on one laptop stand and I've

1669
01:02:58,490 --> 01:02:55,859
got my old 32 inch monitor on another

1670
01:03:00,410 --> 01:02:58,500
laptop stand with like spaghetti wires

1671
01:03:02,210 --> 01:03:00,420
and this is my old microphone from the

1672
01:03:04,250 --> 01:03:02,220
office I thought I told you it was going

1673
01:03:05,890 --> 01:03:04,260
to be a little Jank for the next couple

1674
01:03:10,190 --> 01:03:05,900
of weeks until we moved to the new house

1675
01:03:12,470 --> 01:03:10,200
uh but we're doing it we're doing it and

1676
01:03:15,010 --> 01:03:12,480
what was I talking about again oh that's

1677
01:03:17,569 --> 01:03:15,020
right AI

1678
01:03:20,390 --> 01:03:17,579
so it's it's

1679
01:03:22,430 --> 01:03:20,400
what you get with technology nowadays uh

1680
01:03:24,230 --> 01:03:22,440
and as I oh that's right I'm sorry but I

1681
01:03:26,150 --> 01:03:24,240
actually prepare now for my shows I do

1682
01:03:28,010 --> 01:03:26,160
like all the written stuff I do like

1683
01:03:29,390 --> 01:03:28,020
talking points that I can go through I

1684
01:03:32,390 --> 01:03:29,400
try and I try and keep things organized

1685
01:03:34,549 --> 01:03:32,400
technology was something that

1686
01:03:36,890 --> 01:03:34,559
I was told would be a good idea to talk

1687
01:03:38,809 --> 01:03:36,900
about and

1688
01:03:41,809 --> 01:03:38,819
with the stuff they have out now with

1689
01:03:44,030 --> 01:03:41,819
something called Otter AI not a sponsor

1690
01:03:45,349 --> 01:03:44,040
um I use it for uh you know other

1691
01:03:47,390 --> 01:03:45,359
podcasts that I do and if I'm doing

1692
01:03:49,970 --> 01:03:47,400
transcripts I will basically I'll take

1693
01:03:52,910 --> 01:03:49,980
the MP3 I'll dump it into the system it

1694
01:03:55,190 --> 01:03:52,920
will transcribe the entire you know the

1695
01:03:57,470 --> 01:03:55,200
entire thing it's I think it's um

1696
01:04:00,349 --> 01:03:57,480
about 1200 minutes worth of audio I can

1697
01:04:01,490 --> 01:04:00,359
do off of eight bucks a month early I

1698
01:04:03,589 --> 01:04:01,500
think it's like nine dollars you could

1699
01:04:07,250 --> 01:04:03,599
do it for 100 us if you sign up it's

1700
01:04:10,250 --> 01:04:07,260
like 50 off and it'll do a 1200 minutes

1701
01:04:11,210 --> 01:04:10,260
uh uh a month and then at that point all

1702
01:04:12,530 --> 01:04:11,220
you need to do is just go through and

1703
01:04:16,190 --> 01:04:12,540
edit so if you want to be able to just

1704
01:04:18,230 --> 01:04:16,200
sit there and record your thoughts and

1705
01:04:20,510 --> 01:04:18,240
Tran you know put it into an AI

1706
01:04:22,430 --> 01:04:20,520
transcriber and it's real good like it's

1707
01:04:25,309 --> 01:04:22,440
real good it'll even provide outlines

1708
01:04:27,710 --> 01:04:25,319
the whole thing and you can essentially

1709
01:04:29,569 --> 01:04:27,720
write your book long form that way give

1710
01:04:32,809 --> 01:04:29,579
to an editor they'll

1711
01:04:34,370 --> 01:04:32,819
you know put the entire thing down

1712
01:04:36,650 --> 01:04:34,380
you're counting out why are you counting

1713
01:04:40,450 --> 01:04:36,660
out okay so I can almost get it's ten

1714
01:04:45,530 --> 01:04:43,490
not five not zero if you get that many

1715
01:04:47,089 --> 01:04:45,540
minutes a month how many one hour shows

1716
01:04:49,730 --> 01:04:47,099
can you do

1717
01:04:52,370 --> 01:04:49,740
um 60 Minutes uh well I think did I get

1718
01:04:55,069 --> 01:04:52,380
like 16 or 17 about 10 Imports that you

1719
01:04:57,170 --> 01:04:55,079
can do off of that level I think uh the

1720
01:05:00,049 --> 01:04:57,180
free I think is about three with 300

1721
01:05:01,490 --> 01:05:00,059
minutes so and you can even just record

1722
01:05:03,109 --> 01:05:01,500
directly to it or you know you can use

1723
01:05:05,630 --> 01:05:03,119
it for Zoom you can use it for anything

1724
01:05:06,829 --> 01:05:05,640
but like there's several services that

1725
01:05:09,230 --> 01:05:06,839
are out there

1726
01:05:10,849 --> 01:05:09,240
seriously Audrey brother Audrey descent

1727
01:05:11,990 --> 01:05:10,859
Rocky doesn't do notes for his shows

1728
01:05:13,970 --> 01:05:12,000
it's kind of been a thing for at least

1729
01:05:16,730 --> 01:05:13,980
eight nine years that's because Rob used

1730
01:05:23,150 --> 01:05:16,740
that damn good brother okay he's

1731
01:05:27,049 --> 01:05:25,849
what well you kind of were you asked the

1732
01:05:27,950 --> 01:05:27,059
questions and I'm just like okay well

1733
01:05:28,970 --> 01:05:27,960
I'm just going to give deep into

1734
01:05:30,370 --> 01:05:28,980
perspective

1735
01:05:33,170 --> 01:05:30,380
we're brothers

1736
01:05:35,049 --> 01:05:33,180
yeah well that's the whole thing it's

1737
01:05:37,670 --> 01:05:35,059
like you know you you've

1738
01:05:39,410 --> 01:05:37,680
it's like yeah you never need show notes

1739
01:05:41,210 --> 01:05:39,420
I used to never need show notes of

1740
01:05:45,230 --> 01:05:41,220
course I'd also be drinking like a 26 or

1741
01:05:46,789 --> 01:05:45,240
you know of of Glenfield 12 with uh I

1742
01:05:48,470 --> 01:05:46,799
remember that brother you know like

1743
01:05:49,750 --> 01:05:48,480
those those are the good old days when I

1744
01:05:52,370 --> 01:05:49,760
didn't have kids and I wasn't married

1745
01:05:54,890 --> 01:05:52,380
you know oh geez yeah like I can't I

1746
01:05:56,809 --> 01:05:54,900
can't go hard like that anymore remember

1747
01:05:58,490 --> 01:05:56,819
my days do you used to put some down I

1748
01:06:01,609 --> 01:05:58,500
remember sometimes man some of those

1749
01:06:05,270 --> 01:06:01,619
shows go like four hours six

1750
01:06:08,030 --> 01:06:05,280
um the longest we did was uh

1751
01:06:11,450 --> 01:06:08,040
um at least the actual deadalore show

1752
01:06:13,250 --> 01:06:11,460
I think was it was but it was like five

1753
01:06:15,530 --> 01:06:13,260
six years ago for the great John Anthony

1754
01:06:17,450 --> 01:06:15,540
West when we did the giant three most

1755
01:06:20,569 --> 01:06:17,460
experience and we had you know everybody

1756
01:06:23,089 --> 01:06:20,579
on at that point and we went

1757
01:06:26,230 --> 01:06:23,099
eight or nine hours I think

1758
01:06:29,029 --> 01:06:26,240
um and like they oh that got messy

1759
01:06:31,010 --> 01:06:29,039
oh my goodness all right a little bit

1760
01:06:32,870 --> 01:06:31,020
messy that's Marathon level right there

1761
01:06:34,970 --> 01:06:32,880
I I do not ever recommend to anybody out

1762
01:06:37,190 --> 01:06:34,980
there never mix scotch and Coke Zero

1763
01:06:38,750 --> 01:06:37,200
because that will not end well for

1764
01:06:41,450 --> 01:06:38,760
anybody

1765
01:06:43,370 --> 01:06:41,460
um yeah I know I found it out the hard

1766
01:06:45,289 --> 01:06:43,380
way

1767
01:06:46,970 --> 01:06:45,299
see now now I just I stick to beer and I

1768
01:06:48,890 --> 01:06:46,980
got I have like you know some sparkling

1769
01:06:51,589 --> 01:06:48,900
water over there and that's basically it

1770
01:06:53,809 --> 01:06:51,599
I've got one drink during the show

1771
01:06:55,609 --> 01:06:53,819
and then you know I cut it off at that

1772
01:06:57,230 --> 01:06:55,619
because I gotta get up like a six

1773
01:06:58,490 --> 01:06:57,240
o'clock I gotta go to Home Depot I gotta

1774
01:07:00,829 --> 01:06:58,500
get some mid building materials and

1775
01:07:03,049 --> 01:07:00,839
stuff like that before going to work and

1776
01:07:04,970 --> 01:07:03,059
but even then it's like yeah I could go

1777
01:07:07,789 --> 01:07:04,980
on and on because like you get that that

1778
01:07:10,730 --> 01:07:07,799
you know like we're gonna drink Scotch

1779
01:07:13,130 --> 01:07:10,740
and we're gonna find Atlantis

1780
01:07:16,069 --> 01:07:13,140
oh I'm all about scotch and Atlantis man

1781
01:07:18,049 --> 01:07:16,079
yeah it's okay man you know Herodotus

1782
01:07:21,349 --> 01:07:18,059
you know he was like

1783
01:07:23,990 --> 01:07:21,359
past the gates of Hercules there's this

1784
01:07:26,270 --> 01:07:24,000
island do you believe Atlantis was real

1785
01:07:28,430 --> 01:07:26,280
like dude I would say okay so here's the

1786
01:07:32,329 --> 01:07:28,440
thing this this is the thing

1787
01:07:34,609 --> 01:07:32,339
I I like to come up with my own

1788
01:07:36,170 --> 01:07:34,619
mind about stuff and like I can build

1789
01:07:38,390 --> 01:07:36,180
off of other people's ideas from my own

1790
01:07:40,730 --> 01:07:38,400
opinions and say okay and I can say like

1791
01:07:42,589 --> 01:07:40,740
yeah this is you know worthwhile or this

1792
01:07:44,930 --> 01:07:42,599
is uh you know this doesn't have any

1793
01:07:47,809 --> 01:07:44,940
Merit at least it's not logical I would

1794
01:07:49,970 --> 01:07:47,819
say at least it's a possibility but I

1795
01:07:51,609 --> 01:07:49,980
would say that it is not

1796
01:07:57,230 --> 01:07:51,619
aliens

1797
01:08:00,410 --> 01:07:57,240
crystals UFOs vamanos or whatever you

1798
01:08:02,569 --> 01:08:00,420
know Grant and Graham don't send me an

1799
01:08:04,789 --> 01:08:02,579
email Graham if you get mad at me

1800
01:08:06,829 --> 01:08:04,799
um I don't think necessarily that it was

1801
01:08:09,529 --> 01:08:06,839
you know to the extent that Graham

1802
01:08:11,690 --> 01:08:09,539
Hancock says is it somewhere in between

1803
01:08:12,890 --> 01:08:11,700
was it just like some Paleolithic people

1804
01:08:15,349 --> 01:08:12,900
on an island

1805
01:08:17,390 --> 01:08:15,359
I don't know I wasn't there uh I would

1806
01:08:18,849 --> 01:08:17,400
say there was at least some thing that

1807
01:08:20,590 --> 01:08:18,859
we should look into

1808
01:08:22,490 --> 01:08:20,600
but

1809
01:08:24,229 --> 01:08:22,500
I'm you know there there's a lot of

1810
01:08:25,610 --> 01:08:24,239
people who've done a lot of schooling

1811
01:08:28,550 --> 01:08:25,620
who know a little bit more about

1812
01:08:30,349 --> 01:08:28,560
archeology and about his history than I

1813
01:08:33,309 --> 01:08:30,359
know who know a few things and I'm like

1814
01:08:36,110 --> 01:08:33,319
maybe they also have a point

1815
01:08:37,370 --> 01:08:36,120
right and I found it interesting too and

1816
01:08:39,590 --> 01:08:37,380
I wonder

1817
01:08:42,769 --> 01:08:39,600
you know because if when you go back to

1818
01:08:45,169 --> 01:08:42,779
what was it 15 000 BC and we talked

1819
01:08:47,150 --> 01:08:45,179
about the sea levels and I I can't

1820
01:08:49,789 --> 01:08:47,160
remember exactly the time it was right

1821
01:08:52,010 --> 01:08:49,799
around the quebeco tempeh time

1822
01:08:53,689 --> 01:08:52,020
um but the sea levels were much lower at

1823
01:08:56,030 --> 01:08:53,699
that time yeah it was about 400 feet

1824
01:08:58,970 --> 01:08:56,040
lower give or take right and so and then

1825
01:09:00,470 --> 01:08:58,980
you hear about with that amount of sea

1826
01:09:02,870 --> 01:09:00,480
level being gone how much more like the

1827
01:09:06,229 --> 01:09:02,880
State of Florida would be exposed so you

1828
01:09:08,450 --> 01:09:06,239
think of of of how many civilizations

1829
01:09:10,490 --> 01:09:08,460
you know with the rise of oceans right

1830
01:09:13,189 --> 01:09:10,500
how many civilizations have we not yet

1831
01:09:15,950 --> 01:09:13,199
explored well and that that's like even

1832
01:09:18,650 --> 01:09:15,960
around uh the east coast of the US you

1833
01:09:22,130 --> 01:09:18,660
know you go out

1834
01:09:25,010 --> 01:09:22,140
uh like half a mile or so into the

1835
01:09:27,110 --> 01:09:25,020
shallow shallower Waters they will find

1836
01:09:28,669 --> 01:09:27,120
like not you know not necessarily at

1837
01:09:31,729 --> 01:09:28,679
that range but you'll you'll find like

1838
01:09:33,950 --> 01:09:31,739
spear points tips and and uh evidence of

1839
01:09:37,090 --> 01:09:33,960
people who were on the shoreline so yeah

1840
01:09:39,590 --> 01:09:37,100
like yeah because we as humans because

1841
01:09:43,189 --> 01:09:39,600
you know very intelligent we're all so

1842
01:09:46,189 --> 01:09:43,199
dumb we tend to build near sources of

1843
01:09:47,890 --> 01:09:46,199
water and sometimes that does some

1844
01:09:51,709 --> 01:09:47,900
interesting things when you know

1845
01:09:55,010 --> 01:09:51,719
cataclysms tsunamis asteroid impacts

1846
01:09:56,570 --> 01:09:55,020
what have you hey those settlements tend

1847
01:09:59,750 --> 01:09:56,580
to get wiped out and then the survivors

1848
01:10:02,330 --> 01:09:59,760
move further in land or they go to find

1849
01:10:04,070 --> 01:10:02,340
another body of water all you need to do

1850
01:10:06,410 --> 01:10:04,080
is watch one of those tsunami videos

1851
01:10:08,090 --> 01:10:06,420
that's on YouTube from Boxing Day

1852
01:10:09,530 --> 01:10:08,100
tsunami I also got to just watch one of

1853
01:10:11,570 --> 01:10:09,540
those brother and I'm good right where

1854
01:10:13,370 --> 01:10:11,580
I'm at you know I'm good I got I got

1855
01:10:15,709 --> 01:10:13,380
time if there's a tsunami near me

1856
01:10:17,750 --> 01:10:15,719
because I got like four hours

1857
01:10:19,250 --> 01:10:17,760
well yeah like well you're you're uh

1858
01:10:22,550 --> 01:10:19,260
like where are you at now like you're

1859
01:10:24,890 --> 01:10:22,560
not Houston I'm Dallas Dallas okay so

1860
01:10:26,450 --> 01:10:24,900
it's about four hours to the coast so

1861
01:10:27,590 --> 01:10:26,460
like even within like yeah you got four

1862
01:10:29,450 --> 01:10:27,600
hours to the coast you're not gonna have

1863
01:10:32,450 --> 01:10:29,460
to know unless you're dealing with a

1864
01:10:34,370 --> 01:10:32,460
space Rock there's 13 14 miles wide

1865
01:10:36,530 --> 01:10:34,380
right you know like the the Chick-fil-A

1866
01:10:38,630 --> 01:10:36,540
impact crater that you'd have to worry

1867
01:10:41,390 --> 01:10:38,640
about your average

1868
01:10:43,610 --> 01:10:41,400
you know maybe you'd have to worry blog

1869
01:10:45,110 --> 01:10:43,620
and at that point you're gone anyway is

1870
01:10:47,030 --> 01:10:45,120
that the biggest crater that that we

1871
01:10:49,790 --> 01:10:47,040
have on record for the planet no the

1872
01:10:51,350 --> 01:10:49,800
biggest crater we have

1873
01:10:55,610 --> 01:10:51,360
I do not know the name of it I know that

1874
01:10:58,430 --> 01:10:55,620
there is one in Africa which is I think

1875
01:11:02,090 --> 01:10:58,440
the Caldera the impact crater is like a

1876
01:11:03,649 --> 01:11:02,100
hundred some miles across Jesus and like

1877
01:11:06,229 --> 01:11:03,659
but this this was also created like two

1878
01:11:08,030 --> 01:11:06,239
billion years ago so it's so old that

1879
01:11:09,890 --> 01:11:08,040
you you can't even really tell that that

1880
01:11:12,530 --> 01:11:09,900
it's that it's a crater because it's

1881
01:11:14,990 --> 01:11:12,540
been so weathered at this point and

1882
01:11:16,729 --> 01:11:15,000
what's what's even size though right so

1883
01:11:18,470 --> 01:11:16,739
that's big to us just because we're

1884
01:11:21,229 --> 01:11:18,480
measuring everything based off of our

1885
01:11:23,810 --> 01:11:21,239
calculation but relatively speaking

1886
01:11:25,729 --> 01:11:23,820
that's probably just not even a speck of

1887
01:11:29,530 --> 01:11:25,739
dust in spaces terms you know what I

1888
01:11:36,110 --> 01:11:33,070
it's what they call it space

1889
01:11:38,330 --> 01:11:36,120
because there's a lot of it

1890
01:11:40,030 --> 01:11:38,340
um and you're you're dealing with like

1891
01:11:43,189 --> 01:11:40,040
the the the

1892
01:11:45,290 --> 01:11:43,199
you know the galactic Lottery if

1893
01:11:47,870 --> 01:11:45,300
something actually hits that large and

1894
01:11:49,669 --> 01:11:47,880
back then the Rocks were a lot bigger

1895
01:11:51,890 --> 01:11:49,679
because there's a lot more of them and

1896
01:11:53,810 --> 01:11:51,900
obviously since then they've hit other

1897
01:11:54,530 --> 01:11:53,820
bodies in the solar system or they've

1898
01:11:56,709 --> 01:11:54,540
just

1899
01:11:59,090 --> 01:11:56,719
been flung out of the solar system

1900
01:12:00,770 --> 01:11:59,100
but you know we don't know because

1901
01:12:03,470 --> 01:12:00,780
there's still massive rocks that are out

1902
01:12:05,090 --> 01:12:03,480
there 200 kilometers 50 kilometers

1903
01:12:07,390 --> 01:12:05,100
and it's just it's a matter of time

1904
01:12:10,189 --> 01:12:07,400
until something decides to come our way

1905
01:12:12,770 --> 01:12:10,199
how how long it is it might not be in

1906
01:12:15,050 --> 01:12:12,780
our lifetime might be in 2046 we don't

1907
01:12:17,330 --> 01:12:15,060
know I was just watching one of those

1908
01:12:20,990 --> 01:12:17,340
science programs and they were talking

1909
01:12:23,810 --> 01:12:21,000
about the James Webb Telescope yeah that

1910
01:12:26,330 --> 01:12:23,820
it has some of the most for one profound

1911
01:12:31,130 --> 01:12:26,340
pictures I've ever seen in my life

1912
01:12:32,570 --> 01:12:31,140
and the the explanation of the vastness

1913
01:12:34,070 --> 01:12:32,580
of it when they when they do the

1914
01:12:37,130 --> 01:12:34,080
thumbnail and everything that thumbnail

1915
01:12:39,050 --> 01:12:37,140
there's 500 little dots are all the

1916
01:12:41,270 --> 01:12:39,060
universe is all within that little tiny

1917
01:12:43,370 --> 01:12:41,280
space in that view but

1918
01:12:46,970 --> 01:12:43,380
um it said that it captured these

1919
01:12:49,669 --> 01:12:46,980
galaxies so far back in time reaching

1920
01:12:51,530 --> 01:12:49,679
near dates of what they would you know

1921
01:12:54,470 --> 01:12:51,540
the big old big bang thing

1922
01:12:56,090 --> 01:12:54,480
but now it's creating conversations I

1923
01:12:57,350 --> 01:12:56,100
guess is the best way and this be

1924
01:12:58,370 --> 01:12:57,360
something you probably understand a lot

1925
01:13:00,350 --> 01:12:58,380
more than me because I don't know a lot

1926
01:13:02,570 --> 01:13:00,360
about this stuff but they're saying

1927
01:13:05,090 --> 01:13:02,580
because of the vastness of the size of

1928
01:13:07,490 --> 01:13:05,100
these universes so far back in time but

1929
01:13:10,310 --> 01:13:07,500
you know what I mean that it's making

1930
01:13:12,530 --> 01:13:10,320
them question some of their theories in

1931
01:13:14,090 --> 01:13:12,540
regards to when certain things happen in

1932
01:13:15,229 --> 01:13:14,100
the history of this universe well and

1933
01:13:16,870 --> 01:13:15,239
that's kind of one of the interesting

1934
01:13:20,570 --> 01:13:16,880
things is I I remember

1935
01:13:22,870 --> 01:13:20,580
because I I yeah like I I not that I

1936
01:13:25,910 --> 01:13:22,880
know enough but I do listen to a few

1937
01:13:29,390 --> 01:13:25,920
podcasts out there uh John Michael

1938
01:13:32,149 --> 01:13:29,400
Gautier you know respect brother

1939
01:13:33,530 --> 01:13:32,159
um it one of the only thing that I've

1940
01:13:35,930 --> 01:13:33,540
been able to find out about it or at

1941
01:13:37,250 --> 01:13:35,940
least heard about it is like they're so

1942
01:13:39,590 --> 01:13:37,260
large back then and like they're looking

1943
01:13:42,110 --> 01:13:39,600
back so far it's like how is it that

1944
01:13:43,490 --> 01:13:42,120
these Galaxy like one of the galaxies

1945
01:13:47,270 --> 01:13:43,500
that they found

1946
01:13:50,149 --> 01:13:47,280
was so large that it's essentially the

1947
01:13:51,950 --> 01:13:50,159
size of our entire local group from from

1948
01:13:54,350 --> 01:13:51,960
you know like Andromeda like think

1949
01:13:55,610 --> 01:13:54,360
Andromeda to like the furthest point of

1950
01:13:57,470 --> 01:13:55,620
Andromeda to the farthest point of the

1951
01:14:01,430 --> 01:13:57,480
Milky Way in the exact opposite that's

1952
01:14:02,990 --> 01:14:01,440
how big it is and like you like and

1953
01:14:05,149 --> 01:14:03,000
Andromeda is going to crash through the

1954
01:14:07,070 --> 01:14:05,159
Milky Way and you know what it's like

1955
01:14:08,450 --> 01:14:07,080
500 million years a billion years and

1956
01:14:11,750 --> 01:14:08,460
it's inching ever closer and that's just

1957
01:14:16,070 --> 01:14:11,760
a Galaxy that large wow with a super

1958
01:14:19,130 --> 01:14:16,080
massive black hole that is so massive

1959
01:14:21,169 --> 01:14:19,140
that it like just the black hole itself

1960
01:14:22,970 --> 01:14:21,179
contains enough mass that it basically

1961
01:14:25,669 --> 01:14:22,980
would equal the Milky Way

1962
01:14:27,709 --> 01:14:25,679
like that's like I'm that's probably off

1963
01:14:29,390 --> 01:14:27,719
but that's basically the kind of skills

1964
01:14:31,370 --> 01:14:29,400
we're talking about here and the

1965
01:14:34,850 --> 01:14:31,380
questions they keep asking is why is it

1966
01:14:37,430 --> 01:14:34,860
that we do not find them within our area

1967
01:14:38,990 --> 01:14:37,440
if space is supposed to be uniform

1968
01:14:41,350 --> 01:14:39,000
because that you know on the largest

1969
01:14:44,030 --> 01:14:41,360
scale space is supposed to basically be

1970
01:14:45,350 --> 01:14:44,040
the same everywhere if you get too large

1971
01:14:48,470 --> 01:14:45,360
enough of a scale but it's like we're

1972
01:14:50,270 --> 01:14:48,480
only finding this these galaxies at the

1973
01:14:51,830 --> 01:14:50,280
earliest points in time

1974
01:14:54,530 --> 01:14:51,840
and we're not finding them at this point

1975
01:14:56,030 --> 01:14:54,540
it's like why is that like what what is

1976
01:14:58,130 --> 01:14:56,040
and that that's like to me that actually

1977
01:15:00,050 --> 01:14:58,140
could be the opposite right you think it

1978
01:15:02,930 --> 01:15:00,060
would be the opposite yeah right

1979
01:15:04,970 --> 01:15:02,940
like the baby universes would be

1980
01:15:07,010 --> 01:15:04,980
ah man I don't know brother see again

1981
01:15:08,930 --> 01:15:07,020
this when Ryan was trying to explain it

1982
01:15:13,490 --> 01:15:08,940
to me that these universes are in the

1983
01:15:15,770 --> 01:15:13,500
past I'm like okay and then not to sound

1984
01:15:18,709 --> 01:15:15,780
dumb because I get light speed and all

1985
01:15:20,689 --> 01:15:18,719
that I get all that

1986
01:15:22,130 --> 01:15:20,699
but it's still kind of a trip to think

1987
01:15:23,390 --> 01:15:22,140
about because I have a mess around like

1988
01:15:25,430 --> 01:15:23,400
you know so when you fly to Australia

1989
01:15:28,010 --> 01:15:25,440
are you traveling in time

1990
01:15:30,649 --> 01:15:28,020
because you're moving with the Earth

1991
01:15:32,750 --> 01:15:30,659
Kinda Yeah well you're you're out of

1992
01:15:36,290 --> 01:15:32,760
sync a little bit like

1993
01:15:38,990 --> 01:15:36,300
thank you at 11 o'clock am but you land

1994
01:15:40,250 --> 01:15:39,000
at 11 o'clock AM you know it's mostly

1995
01:15:42,649 --> 01:15:40,260
because you're moving at a certain speed

1996
01:15:44,630 --> 01:15:42,659
you know like a theory of relativity

1997
01:15:46,310 --> 01:15:44,640
you're moving at a relativistic speed to

1998
01:15:47,510 --> 01:15:46,320
everything else so like yeah there is a

1999
01:15:49,910 --> 01:15:47,520
slight delay in time but we're talking

2000
01:15:52,310 --> 01:15:49,920
at fractions of us of a you know

2001
01:15:54,229 --> 01:15:52,320
fractions of of a unit of time that are

2002
01:15:55,790 --> 01:15:54,239
so small it's not not that big of a

2003
01:15:57,709 --> 01:15:55,800
difference it's more if you're up in

2004
01:16:00,709 --> 01:15:57,719
orbit it's more if you're traveling at

2005
01:16:01,490 --> 01:16:00,719
light speed obviously

2006
01:16:03,590 --> 01:16:01,500
um

2007
01:16:06,229 --> 01:16:03,600
but it's one of the things we don't like

2008
01:16:07,610 --> 01:16:06,239
think about it always pisses me off

2009
01:16:08,870 --> 01:16:07,620
and I'm gonna say I can actually say

2010
01:16:10,370 --> 01:16:08,880
that because we're past like 30 seconds

2011
01:16:11,930 --> 01:16:10,380
if you swear in the first 30 seconds to

2012
01:16:14,030 --> 01:16:11,940
demonetize you I think now or they they

2013
01:16:16,130 --> 01:16:14,040
may have reversed that but it pisses me

2014
01:16:18,709 --> 01:16:16,140
off when you know you get all these

2015
01:16:21,709 --> 01:16:18,719
science podcasts for like

2016
01:16:23,870 --> 01:16:21,719
where are the aliens man you know we've

2017
01:16:26,630 --> 01:16:23,880
looked everywhere and we don't see the

2018
01:16:30,169 --> 01:16:26,640
aliens and not one of these

2019
01:16:34,130 --> 01:16:30,179
shows not one of these uh like not one

2020
01:16:35,169 --> 01:16:34,140
of these videos is ever saying well you

2021
01:16:37,130 --> 01:16:35,179
know

2022
01:16:39,229 --> 01:16:37,140
relativistically

2023
01:16:40,850 --> 01:16:39,239
we're looking at something at the other

2024
01:16:42,290 --> 01:16:40,860
side of the Galaxy which is 10 000 light

2025
01:16:43,990 --> 01:16:42,300
years away we're not finding anything

2026
01:16:46,550 --> 01:16:44,000
well

2027
01:16:49,310 --> 01:16:46,560
150 years ago we were still using horses

2028
01:16:53,090 --> 01:16:49,320
and carriage you know we we went to the

2029
01:16:54,830 --> 01:16:53,100
moon we went from the first flight to uh

2030
01:16:57,649 --> 01:16:54,840
you know Kitty Hawk to landing on the

2031
01:17:00,169 --> 01:16:57,659
moon within the the same 30 or 40 years

2032
01:17:02,090 --> 01:17:00,179
and then we had two world wars you know

2033
01:17:04,310 --> 01:17:02,100
in that span of time

2034
01:17:06,709 --> 01:17:04,320
like we went from we really made a mess

2035
01:17:09,530 --> 01:17:06,719
with technology didn't we well to a

2036
01:17:11,630 --> 01:17:09,540
certain extent yeah but it's it's at

2037
01:17:14,330 --> 01:17:11,640
least we will look at our our

2038
01:17:15,890 --> 01:17:14,340
civilization went like for thousands and

2039
01:17:18,229 --> 01:17:15,900
thousands of years of very small

2040
01:17:19,669 --> 01:17:18,239
incremental change 12th century rapid

2041
01:17:23,630 --> 01:17:19,679
change we're now at the point where

2042
01:17:27,350 --> 01:17:23,640
we've got it you know uh AI language

2043
01:17:31,010 --> 01:17:27,360
models that can create content and poems

2044
01:17:32,149 --> 01:17:31,020
and and and you know bios uh you know

2045
01:17:33,530 --> 01:17:32,159
with hundreds and hundreds of Words

2046
01:17:35,689 --> 01:17:33,540
which would take

2047
01:17:36,950 --> 01:17:35,699
at least about 20 minutes to an hour for

2048
01:17:38,630 --> 01:17:36,960
an average person to be able to do it

2049
01:17:39,649 --> 01:17:38,640
you know like non-stop perfect then you

2050
01:17:41,630 --> 01:17:39,659
got to edit and all this stuff and it

2051
01:17:43,729 --> 01:17:41,640
doesn't relatively perfectly very

2052
01:17:47,570 --> 01:17:43,739
quickly we've gone to that point within

2053
01:17:49,790 --> 01:17:47,580
150 years to no electricity uh you know

2054
01:17:53,450 --> 01:17:49,800
still using fire for warmth getting

2055
01:17:54,890 --> 01:17:53,460
around on horses you know of the only

2056
01:17:56,990 --> 01:17:54,900
communication at least 150 years ago

2057
01:17:59,149 --> 01:17:57,000
would have been telegram but like that's

2058
01:18:01,370 --> 01:17:59,159
that's the level of advancement that

2059
01:18:03,229 --> 01:18:01,380
we've gone and when I expect about where

2060
01:18:05,810 --> 01:18:03,239
are the aliens and it's like where do

2061
01:18:07,610 --> 01:18:05,820
you think they are 10

2062
01:18:09,950 --> 01:18:07,620
000 years ago when we've gone that

2063
01:18:11,570 --> 01:18:09,960
distance in 150 and we're trying to say

2064
01:18:13,610 --> 01:18:11,580
like well you know within our local

2065
01:18:16,250 --> 01:18:13,620
group like 100 years we're not seeing

2066
01:18:18,350 --> 01:18:16,260
anything do we even know how they're

2067
01:18:20,450 --> 01:18:18,360
communicating are they using you know

2068
01:18:21,590 --> 01:18:20,460
something Beyond just radio signals that

2069
01:18:23,090 --> 01:18:21,600
we're listening for to be able to

2070
01:18:25,610 --> 01:18:23,100
communicate is it laser are we talking

2071
01:18:26,930 --> 01:18:25,620
some type of you know Quantum Computing

2072
01:18:29,510 --> 01:18:26,940
technology that we have not discovered

2073
01:18:31,310 --> 01:18:29,520
or gotten to yet and how many

2074
01:18:33,649 --> 01:18:31,320
civilizations

2075
01:18:37,850 --> 01:18:33,659
like even you know we don't even know

2076
01:18:39,770 --> 01:18:37,860
past 10 000 years in our own time right

2077
01:18:41,149 --> 01:18:39,780
like I was like oh man is was there an

2078
01:18:42,709 --> 01:18:41,159
ancient civilization like you asked me

2079
01:18:44,570 --> 01:18:42,719
would you believe in Atlantis I'm like I

2080
01:18:46,790 --> 01:18:44,580
don't know I wasn't around that long but

2081
01:18:49,970 --> 01:18:46,800
we you had like the Babylonians you had

2082
01:18:51,530 --> 01:18:49,980
the uh like several Chinese uh Empires

2083
01:18:53,030 --> 01:18:51,540
rise and fall you had the Mongolians you

2084
01:18:54,649 --> 01:18:53,040
had you know the the Romans you had the

2085
01:18:56,689 --> 01:18:54,659
mirror of Indians you had like the Holy

2086
01:18:59,930 --> 01:18:56,699
Roman Empire you had you know like the

2087
01:19:02,689 --> 01:18:59,940
the Franks the the Ottoman Empire you

2088
01:19:04,370 --> 01:19:02,699
know and however many other uh

2089
01:19:06,350 --> 01:19:04,380
civilizations or societies that have

2090
01:19:08,990 --> 01:19:06,360
that we don't know of or that we only

2091
01:19:11,510 --> 01:19:09,000
have like small revenants of

2092
01:19:12,950 --> 01:19:11,520
um and that happened within the last you

2093
01:19:15,350 --> 01:19:12,960
know three to four or five thousand

2094
01:19:17,990 --> 01:19:15,360
years from like let's say Babylon to now

2095
01:19:20,330 --> 01:19:18,000
and we've had these Rises and Falls

2096
01:19:22,070 --> 01:19:20,340
within society and we've only gone to

2097
01:19:24,050 --> 01:19:22,080
the point now where we have

2098
01:19:25,970 --> 01:19:24,060
advanced technology where I you know

2099
01:19:28,070 --> 01:19:25,980
you're you're in Dallas and I'm in

2100
01:19:30,050 --> 01:19:28,080
Ottawa and we're like three four

2101
01:19:32,510 --> 01:19:30,060
thousand kilometers you know miles apart

2102
01:19:34,010 --> 01:19:32,520
I'll use from American viewers and we're

2103
01:19:36,530 --> 01:19:34,020
talking basically instantaneously

2104
01:19:38,270 --> 01:19:36,540
whereas before like even with telegrams

2105
01:19:40,310 --> 01:19:38,280
you got to go to a guy give him a piece

2106
01:19:42,530 --> 01:19:40,320
of paper he's gonna you know type in the

2107
01:19:44,209 --> 01:19:42,540
machine someone's gotta listen write it

2108
01:19:45,590 --> 01:19:44,219
down and then put it on a horse and get

2109
01:19:48,649 --> 01:19:45,600
it out there but we're doing it

2110
01:19:50,870 --> 01:19:48,659
instantaneously how is it we know that

2111
01:19:52,610 --> 01:19:50,880
some Planet out there has had the exact

2112
01:19:53,990 --> 01:19:52,620
same thing happen but it's happened over

2113
01:19:55,850 --> 01:19:54,000
and over and over again within that 10

2114
01:19:58,610 --> 01:19:55,860
or 15 000 years we're just not listening

2115
01:20:00,350 --> 01:19:58,620
or seeing it in a in a place and even if

2116
01:20:02,570 --> 01:20:00,360
they have that information or that

2117
01:20:04,430 --> 01:20:02,580
technology now if they're at that level

2118
01:20:06,110 --> 01:20:04,440
now that they can talk to us

2119
01:20:08,390 --> 01:20:06,120
it's going to be another 10 000 years

2120
01:20:10,790 --> 01:20:08,400
for that information to get to us and

2121
01:20:12,649 --> 01:20:10,800
nobody mentions this and they're like

2122
01:20:16,130 --> 01:20:12,659
where are the aliens

2123
01:20:17,570 --> 01:20:16,140
well damn Define them because I'll be

2124
01:20:20,750 --> 01:20:17,580
dead by the time that stuff gets here

2125
01:20:22,070 --> 01:20:20,760
but why do I care you know everybody

2126
01:20:23,450 --> 01:20:22,080
wants to meet your results they don't

2127
01:20:24,790 --> 01:20:23,460
want to wait for [\h__\h] to travel 10 000

2128
01:20:27,470 --> 01:20:24,800
miles you know

2129
01:20:28,970 --> 01:20:27,480
whatever you just said you figure out

2130
01:20:31,310 --> 01:20:28,980
you find somebody to upload our

2131
01:20:32,810 --> 01:20:31,320
Consciousness into a computer and then

2132
01:20:34,910 --> 01:20:32,820
we just like stick around the internet

2133
01:20:37,189 --> 01:20:34,920
watching cat videos you know for the

2134
01:20:39,709 --> 01:20:37,199
next 10 000 years there's not much on

2135
01:20:41,510 --> 01:20:39,719
there look let me ask you something man

2136
01:20:43,729 --> 01:20:41,520
speaking of that

2137
01:20:45,709 --> 01:20:43,739
we had this discussion a while back when

2138
01:20:48,470 --> 01:20:45,719
when we're starting to talk about the

2139
01:20:51,350 --> 01:20:48,480
downloading of consciousness

2140
01:20:53,450 --> 01:20:51,360
um I'm talking at a soul level now let's

2141
01:20:55,370 --> 01:20:53,460
say somebody died and we had technology

2142
01:20:57,110 --> 01:20:55,380
to somehow bring that person back

2143
01:21:00,169 --> 01:20:57,120
whether it's back in their own body or

2144
01:21:01,610 --> 01:21:00,179
or or transfer their Consciousness into

2145
01:21:03,950 --> 01:21:01,620
something else whether it be a computer

2146
01:21:05,510 --> 01:21:03,960
or another physical living breathing

2147
01:21:08,209 --> 01:21:05,520
thing

2148
01:21:09,950 --> 01:21:08,219
does that individual still have it if

2149
01:21:12,590 --> 01:21:09,960
you believe

2150
01:21:14,510 --> 01:21:12,600
um that we have souls

2151
01:21:16,510 --> 01:21:14,520
does that Soul transfer with the

2152
01:21:18,649 --> 01:21:16,520
technology or once your original

2153
01:21:20,270 --> 01:21:18,659
existence is gone

2154
01:21:22,550 --> 01:21:20,280
does your soul move on and now you're

2155
01:21:24,470 --> 01:21:22,560
just kind of a lot of memory well that's

2156
01:21:27,110 --> 01:21:24,480
getting a very theological style of

2157
01:21:29,990 --> 01:21:27,120
discussion yeah absolutely now I'm my

2158
01:21:32,330 --> 01:21:30,000
spirituality is pretty complex

2159
01:21:36,110 --> 01:21:32,340
um you know like I can believe in

2160
01:21:38,090 --> 01:21:36,120
organized religion as a moral code that

2161
01:21:39,530 --> 01:21:38,100
could be used by a less Advanced you

2162
01:21:42,169 --> 01:21:39,540
know logical thinking civilization

2163
01:21:44,510 --> 01:21:42,179
that's just trying to get by and try and

2164
01:21:46,310 --> 01:21:44,520
create some order to try and live with

2165
01:21:48,050 --> 01:21:46,320
someone of a better life or at least you

2166
01:21:50,270 --> 01:21:48,060
know a life that's more cohesive to

2167
01:21:51,350 --> 01:21:50,280
making sure that one Village isn't

2168
01:21:53,750 --> 01:21:51,360
constantly burning the other Village

2169
01:21:56,390 --> 01:21:53,760
down because you know you can't you

2170
01:21:58,030 --> 01:21:56,400
can't really live that way you can it's

2171
01:22:01,550 --> 01:21:58,040
just not fun

2172
01:22:03,470 --> 01:22:01,560
so like I would say like the Bible way

2173
01:22:05,270 --> 01:22:03,480
of saying a soul maybe a lot more

2174
01:22:06,470 --> 01:22:05,280
complex than that

2175
01:22:08,270 --> 01:22:06,480
um but you're also like looking into

2176
01:22:10,910 --> 01:22:08,280
philosophical discussions like the the

2177
01:22:13,130 --> 01:22:10,920
ship of uh of Theseus at least I think

2178
01:22:15,290 --> 01:22:13,140
it's a ship of Theseus could be wrong

2179
01:22:17,450 --> 01:22:15,300
some somebody out there can correct me

2180
01:22:19,910 --> 01:22:17,460
um where it's like if you replace if

2181
01:22:21,830 --> 01:22:19,920
you've got a boat and you're constantly

2182
01:22:23,990 --> 01:22:21,840
replacing parts of that boat

2183
01:22:26,390 --> 01:22:24,000
once you place all the parts and even if

2184
01:22:28,189 --> 01:22:26,400
the boat looks the same as the same boat

2185
01:22:31,490 --> 01:22:28,199
you know

2186
01:22:33,530 --> 01:22:31,500
um I don't know like that's that's uh

2187
01:22:35,330 --> 01:22:33,540
yeah that's a complex question because

2188
01:22:36,470 --> 01:22:35,340
even even if you upload somebody's

2189
01:22:38,630 --> 01:22:36,480
Consciousness to let's say a computer

2190
01:22:40,430 --> 01:22:38,640
and then download it to a body are you

2191
01:22:43,010 --> 01:22:40,440
able to or like do we don't even know

2192
01:22:44,570 --> 01:22:43,020
what Consciousness is is it is it

2193
01:22:46,910 --> 01:22:44,580
something that's that goes beyond just

2194
01:22:49,070 --> 01:22:46,920
electronic impulses in the brain or are

2195
01:22:50,570 --> 01:22:49,080
we talking about you know something on

2196
01:22:53,870 --> 01:22:50,580
like instead of multi-dimensional level

2197
01:22:55,970 --> 01:22:53,880
are we talking about like a um you know

2198
01:23:06,669 --> 01:22:55,980
some type of quantum entanglement or or

2199
01:23:11,270 --> 01:23:09,709
but it's a fascinating one but if like

2200
01:23:12,950 --> 01:23:11,280
well how's the thing like if if you

2201
01:23:14,270 --> 01:23:12,960
downloaded your brain would you be

2202
01:23:15,709 --> 01:23:14,280
worried about if your remote like it

2203
01:23:17,149 --> 01:23:15,719
would you would you worry about if your

2204
01:23:20,270 --> 01:23:17,159
emotions would get transferred or not

2205
01:23:21,590 --> 01:23:20,280
you can't download My Brand bro well man

2206
01:23:24,590 --> 01:23:21,600
maybe I want to it's a very beautiful

2207
01:23:26,090 --> 01:23:24,600
thing you know no just you say it just

2208
01:23:28,070 --> 01:23:26,100
saying you know you got to get that mind

2209
01:23:29,870 --> 01:23:28,080
out there but like that's that's

2210
01:23:33,169 --> 01:23:29,880
something like do you ever think about

2211
01:23:35,570 --> 01:23:33,179
that like if you you know

2212
01:23:37,610 --> 01:23:35,580
what how would you transfer like you can

2213
01:23:39,530 --> 01:23:37,620
transfer somebody's memories just like

2214
01:23:41,330 --> 01:23:39,540
we can do with a computer but like can

2215
01:23:43,370 --> 01:23:41,340
you transfer somebody's emotions you

2216
01:23:48,709 --> 01:23:43,380
transfer somebody's feelings somebody's

2217
01:23:51,709 --> 01:23:50,090
um

2218
01:23:53,390 --> 01:23:51,719
that's it bro

2219
01:23:57,290 --> 01:23:53,400
but I think what makes our personalities

2220
01:24:00,350 --> 01:23:58,970
yes

2221
01:24:05,270 --> 01:24:00,360
but

2222
01:24:07,970 --> 01:24:05,280
it's is it the emotions the emotional

2223
01:24:11,390 --> 01:24:07,980
reaction of the experience

2224
01:24:12,470 --> 01:24:11,400
that from the memories is in in those

2225
01:24:14,750 --> 01:24:12,480
like

2226
01:24:17,750 --> 01:24:14,760
apply it the best way to put it is

2227
01:24:20,630 --> 01:24:17,760
the experience is just the the moment

2228
01:24:22,970 --> 01:24:20,640
that you that you're in it's the input

2229
01:24:24,169 --> 01:24:22,980
the output is your reaction to that

2230
01:24:26,270 --> 01:24:24,179
experience

2231
01:24:27,709 --> 01:24:26,280
and it's not just a one for one you know

2232
01:24:30,350 --> 01:24:27,719
you turn the light you turn the switch

2233
01:24:31,970 --> 01:24:30,360
the light goes on but what is the light

2234
01:24:34,970 --> 01:24:31,980
the lights warmth the light is energy

2235
01:24:38,450 --> 01:24:34,980
it's it's life you know that that's the

2236
01:24:40,430 --> 01:24:38,460
emotional uh equivalent to it but how do

2237
01:24:43,430 --> 01:24:40,440
you transfer that emotion

2238
01:24:44,750 --> 01:24:43,440
how do you even even Define what that

2239
01:24:48,830 --> 01:24:44,760
emotion is how would you define that

2240
01:24:51,530 --> 01:24:48,840
emotion I don't know I I don't I I you

2241
01:24:53,209 --> 01:24:51,540
know because because here here I heard

2242
01:24:55,010 --> 01:24:53,219
this one guy say one time he says that

2243
01:24:59,090 --> 01:24:55,020
every situation that we experience in

2244
01:25:01,310 --> 01:24:59,100
this planet in the existence of whatever

2245
01:25:04,610 --> 01:25:01,320
everything

2246
01:25:06,950 --> 01:25:04,620
no matter even how tragic it is starts

2247
01:25:09,590 --> 01:25:06,960
out at a neutral level

2248
01:25:10,669 --> 01:25:09,600
and a reaction is based off of

2249
01:25:13,669 --> 01:25:10,679
perception

2250
01:25:15,830 --> 01:25:13,679
and so something bad happens automatic

2251
01:25:19,070 --> 01:25:15,840
that'll manifest anger because we look

2252
01:25:20,870 --> 01:25:19,080
at it we identify it and to us that's a

2253
01:25:23,330 --> 01:25:20,880
bad thing that just happened so we react

2254
01:25:24,649 --> 01:25:23,340
to it and that and people have a

2255
01:25:26,990 --> 01:25:24,659
different reaction level of different

2256
01:25:30,649 --> 01:25:27,000
levels of of

2257
01:25:34,669 --> 01:25:32,570
where the hell am I going with this bro

2258
01:25:38,090 --> 01:25:34,679
well what's anger

2259
01:25:40,070 --> 01:25:38,100
right so the emotion part so when you

2260
01:25:41,689 --> 01:25:40,080
when I I was just thinking about that

2261
01:25:44,510 --> 01:25:41,699
guy making the reference that every

2262
01:25:47,090 --> 01:25:44,520
situation is neutral until you see it

2263
01:25:49,189 --> 01:25:47,100
and then you off of all your life

2264
01:25:51,770 --> 01:25:49,199
experiences you base a perception off of

2265
01:25:54,470 --> 01:25:51,780
how to react off of that

2266
01:25:57,050 --> 01:25:54,480
but is that real

2267
01:25:59,149 --> 01:25:57,060
Is that real compared to the experiences

2268
01:26:02,530 --> 01:25:59,159
that created the emotion the experience

2269
01:26:05,450 --> 01:26:02,540
was real but the remote the the the the

2270
01:26:07,250 --> 01:26:05,460
emotion is something that was just

2271
01:26:10,010 --> 01:26:07,260
downloaded into your Consciousness

2272
01:26:12,350 --> 01:26:10,020
because that's how you chose to react to

2273
01:26:14,209 --> 01:26:12,360
that situation that was real

2274
01:26:16,010 --> 01:26:14,219
and that reaction is going to be based

2275
01:26:18,770 --> 01:26:16,020
off of past experiences and perception

2276
01:26:20,090 --> 01:26:18,780
and 100 and it's okay in insecute okay

2277
01:26:23,270 --> 01:26:20,100
well if you're building your personality

2278
01:26:26,090 --> 01:26:23,280
up your personality is set from

2279
01:26:28,430 --> 01:26:26,100
like I think it's it's like two or three

2280
01:26:30,890 --> 01:26:28,440
you're like your basic personality is

2281
01:26:32,810 --> 01:26:30,900
set based on your experiences from when

2282
01:26:34,790 --> 01:26:32,820
you're a baby it's like how you know how

2283
01:26:36,590 --> 01:26:34,800
were you nurtured were you held were you

2284
01:26:37,669 --> 01:26:36,600
you know were you loved were you cared

2285
01:26:39,770 --> 01:26:37,679
for that kind of thing and that will

2286
01:26:41,990 --> 01:26:39,780
shape your perception and also it's like

2287
01:26:46,010 --> 01:26:42,000
what do you what is it You observe you

2288
01:26:47,870 --> 01:26:46,020
know it's I'm I'm kind of a smart ass my

2289
01:26:50,990 --> 01:26:47,880
kids are to have turned into smart asses

2290
01:26:52,669 --> 01:26:51,000
you know like my two-year-old will do

2291
01:26:55,129 --> 01:26:52,679
the whole like I'll sit there and she'll

2292
01:26:56,930 --> 01:26:55,139
feed me Cheerios and every now and again

2293
01:26:58,610 --> 01:26:56,940
she'll let go you know she'll like put

2294
01:27:00,050 --> 01:26:58,620
The Chew in and just put it like you

2295
01:27:01,850 --> 01:27:00,060
know put the Cherry wind and then she'll

2296
01:27:03,290 --> 01:27:01,860
let go uh-huh you're chewing that's

2297
01:27:06,610 --> 01:27:03,300
great then she'll pick up another one

2298
01:27:11,750 --> 01:27:08,810
she'll just give me this like this this

2299
01:27:15,229 --> 01:27:11,760
[\h__\h] eating grin I'm like oh my goodness

2300
01:27:19,370 --> 01:27:15,239
like and I know exactly where she got

2301
01:27:22,430 --> 01:27:20,930
and it's like the only way to be able to

2302
01:27:24,590 --> 01:27:22,440
like and that's gonna shape the

2303
01:27:25,250 --> 01:27:24,600
personality as far as

2304
01:27:28,610 --> 01:27:25,260
um

2305
01:27:31,070 --> 01:27:28,620
and also like how is it you uh if

2306
01:27:32,810 --> 01:27:31,080
somebody cried how were they how was the

2307
01:27:34,189 --> 01:27:32,820
reaction to that crying were they you

2308
01:27:36,890 --> 01:27:34,199
know constantly nurtured and there there

2309
01:27:38,510 --> 01:27:36,900
or was it a little bit of okay well

2310
01:27:39,950 --> 01:27:38,520
you're crying because you know you just

2311
01:27:41,510 --> 01:27:39,960
want attention like you're just doing it

2312
01:27:43,490 --> 01:27:41,520
because you want something and not

2313
01:27:44,689 --> 01:27:43,500
because your name and it's you know

2314
01:27:46,729 --> 01:27:44,699
there's a certain amount of selfishness

2315
01:27:49,790 --> 01:27:46,739
like you know like kids throwing a

2316
01:27:52,610 --> 01:27:49,800
tantrum you don't reinforce the negative

2317
01:27:56,330 --> 01:27:52,620
behavior kind of thing uh and it's it's

2318
01:27:59,990 --> 01:27:56,340
like those initial

2319
01:28:02,570 --> 01:28:00,000
um setups for the personality are going

2320
01:28:04,430 --> 01:28:02,580
to carry forward later on in life so

2321
01:28:06,169 --> 01:28:04,440
that when somebody gets a certain input

2322
01:28:08,270 --> 01:28:06,179
they're going to have that negative

2323
01:28:09,950 --> 01:28:08,280
reaction which is then shaped by all the

2324
01:28:12,169 --> 01:28:09,960
other experiences but it's all still

2325
01:28:14,510 --> 01:28:12,179
based on that initial experience

2326
01:28:16,310 --> 01:28:14,520
or that initial several you know sets of

2327
01:28:17,810 --> 01:28:16,320
experiences while the brain is still

2328
01:28:21,229 --> 01:28:17,820
developing before it's hard coded in

2329
01:28:23,629 --> 01:28:21,239
right so but it's like okay well

2330
01:28:25,550 --> 01:28:23,639
how is it hard coded in what does it

2331
01:28:28,550 --> 01:28:25,560
hurt like what is the initial program is

2332
01:28:30,530 --> 01:28:28,560
it a program is it something else is it

2333
01:28:32,689 --> 01:28:30,540
a you know is it biological where it's

2334
01:28:35,090 --> 01:28:32,699
like okay you know a certain amount of

2335
01:28:38,570 --> 01:28:35,100
hormone is released in a certain mixture

2336
01:28:40,610 --> 01:28:38,580
that when something happens then it gets

2337
01:28:42,350 --> 01:28:40,620
released and that causes the the brain

2338
01:28:44,570 --> 01:28:42,360
to react a certain way and is that is

2339
01:28:46,430 --> 01:28:44,580
that what emotion is we didn't like we

2340
01:28:48,290 --> 01:28:46,440
don't know like these are things that

2341
01:28:50,390 --> 01:28:48,300
are fundamentally still being discussed

2342
01:28:52,550 --> 01:28:50,400
with people who are a lot smarter and

2343
01:28:54,410 --> 01:28:52,560
have a lot more phds and who have piled

2344
01:28:56,450 --> 01:28:54,420
higher and deeper than whatever I could

2345
01:28:57,950 --> 01:28:56,460
have at any point in time and

2346
01:28:59,629 --> 01:28:57,960
philosophers have been talking about for

2347
01:29:01,790 --> 01:28:59,639
thousands of years

2348
01:29:03,110 --> 01:29:01,800
but it's like is it simple like what do

2349
01:29:04,910 --> 01:29:03,120
you think man

2350
01:29:06,709 --> 01:29:04,920
you know the way you explained it you

2351
01:29:10,129 --> 01:29:06,719
were explaining it just a couple minutes

2352
01:29:12,410 --> 01:29:10,139
ago and and the word individualism came

2353
01:29:14,330 --> 01:29:12,420
into mind because we're talking about a

2354
01:29:16,129 --> 01:29:14,340
basket of experiences which develops

2355
01:29:18,350 --> 01:29:16,139
character

2356
01:29:20,870 --> 01:29:18,360
um and and based off the development

2357
01:29:21,950 --> 01:29:20,880
from those experiences gives you a

2358
01:29:24,830 --> 01:29:21,960
perception

2359
01:29:27,890 --> 01:29:24,840
of a situation you explain it very

2360
01:29:29,570 --> 01:29:27,900
logically you understand from a very

2361
01:29:31,310 --> 01:29:29,580
intelligent level the importance of

2362
01:29:32,689 --> 01:29:31,320
parenting at a very young age I watched

2363
01:29:34,370 --> 01:29:32,699
an experiment one time where they did

2364
01:29:36,590 --> 01:29:34,380
this this little thing with white mouse

2365
01:29:38,209 --> 01:29:36,600
and a two-year-old child and in the

2366
01:29:40,910 --> 01:29:38,219
first couple days the kid play with it

2367
01:29:42,290 --> 01:29:40,920
it didn't know to be afraid of this cute

2368
01:29:43,790 --> 01:29:42,300
little white mouse it didn't know it

2369
01:29:45,950 --> 01:29:43,800
because it wasn't taught to be afraid of

2370
01:29:47,810 --> 01:29:45,960
it so it was totally okay with this

2371
01:29:49,910 --> 01:29:47,820
mouse crawling on just like and then

2372
01:29:52,669 --> 01:29:49,920
after two days every time that Mouse

2373
01:29:54,290 --> 01:29:52,679
touched his child they hit a pan with

2374
01:29:56,689 --> 01:29:54,300
another panic and scared the living

2375
01:29:58,310 --> 01:29:56,699
bejesus out of the kit so then it got to

2376
01:30:00,530 --> 01:29:58,320
a point to where the kid identified that

2377
01:30:03,350 --> 01:30:00,540
every time that Mouse touched it it was

2378
01:30:05,510 --> 01:30:03,360
going to be a an experience of fear and

2379
01:30:08,149 --> 01:30:05,520
then that person that that baby because

2380
01:30:10,970 --> 01:30:08,159
this was done in like the 40s went their

2381
01:30:13,010 --> 01:30:10,980
entire life hating tiny white stuffed

2382
01:30:15,530 --> 01:30:13,020
animals so there was there was a

2383
01:30:17,510 --> 01:30:15,540
traumatic download somewhere into the

2384
01:30:20,090 --> 01:30:17,520
brain from the emotional experience like

2385
01:30:22,669 --> 01:30:20,100
in PTSD that was at a subconscious level

2386
01:30:24,290 --> 01:30:22,679
because that if that person didn't know

2387
01:30:25,669 --> 01:30:24,300
that they were studied they would have

2388
01:30:26,930 --> 01:30:25,679
went their whole life not liking

2389
01:30:29,149 --> 01:30:26,940
something and not really understanding

2390
01:30:31,850 --> 01:30:29,159
why they didn't like it

2391
01:30:34,850 --> 01:30:31,860
um so I I wish everybody understood the

2392
01:30:37,550 --> 01:30:34,860
importance of the downloads of character

2393
01:30:40,669 --> 01:30:37,560
with with children so young as you

2394
01:30:42,350 --> 01:30:40,679
explained it because they don't they

2395
01:30:44,330 --> 01:30:42,360
think that they become the teacher when

2396
01:30:45,530 --> 01:30:44,340
the child becomes a teenager not

2397
01:30:46,910 --> 01:30:45,540
understanding the importance of

2398
01:30:51,530 --> 01:30:46,920
development a character at such a young

2399
01:30:55,070 --> 01:30:53,629
did you just sneeze I don't know that

2400
01:30:57,950 --> 01:30:55,080
was me coughing I'm still still getting

2401
01:30:59,870 --> 01:30:57,960
over you know the bug that I had last

2402
01:31:01,790 --> 01:30:59,880
week was just

2403
01:31:04,370 --> 01:31:01,800
it was not fun on the show well it was

2404
01:31:06,950 --> 01:31:04,380
fun but you know being sick I'm not good

2405
01:31:08,270 --> 01:31:06,960
at it it sucks like this thing's been

2406
01:31:11,110 --> 01:31:08,280
going around

2407
01:31:13,550 --> 01:31:11,120
um you know bro

2408
01:31:17,149 --> 01:31:13,560
I sneezed yesterday and I went and took

2409
01:31:20,750 --> 01:31:18,590
well that's that's that that's the 50

2410
01:31:22,550 --> 01:31:20,760
year old you know the 50s creeping up on

2411
01:31:23,810 --> 01:31:22,560
you yeah man if you get up it's like you

2412
01:31:26,510 --> 01:31:23,820
put your shoes on you're like I better

2413
01:31:28,910 --> 01:31:26,520
go take a nap you know but naps are the

2414
01:31:31,250 --> 01:31:28,920
best yeah I'm sorry dude I'm telling you

2415
01:31:32,990 --> 01:31:31,260
I'm telling you like the 20 minute power

2416
01:31:35,649 --> 01:31:33,000
nap I'm telling you actually better

2417
01:31:38,330 --> 01:31:35,659
there than I do all night

2418
01:31:40,610 --> 01:31:38,340
did you do the the power nap where you

2419
01:31:42,110 --> 01:31:40,620
uh um like you chug a like a cup of

2420
01:31:44,090 --> 01:31:42,120
coffee and you go take a you know half

2421
01:31:45,350 --> 01:31:44,100
an hour nap or 20 minute nap and you'll

2422
01:31:47,450 --> 01:31:45,360
wake up and you're like you're good to

2423
01:31:49,189 --> 01:31:47,460
go that's like an ADHD thing if you

2424
01:31:52,790 --> 01:31:49,199
could drink coffee to take a nap

2425
01:31:55,010 --> 01:31:52,800
no it's you well yes you can like I can

2426
01:31:56,390 --> 01:31:55,020
totally I can't I did the same thing oh

2427
01:31:57,590 --> 01:31:56,400
yeah you know I was like oh I'd like oh

2428
01:31:58,610 --> 01:31:57,600
I'm gonna have a black coffee before you

2429
01:32:00,530 --> 01:31:58,620
go to bed and everyone thought he was

2430
01:32:02,930 --> 01:32:00,540
crazy I'm sitting here like you know the

2431
01:32:04,570 --> 01:32:02,940
same age now that he did back then I'm

2432
01:32:07,729 --> 01:32:04,580
like this makes a lot of sense

2433
01:32:09,530 --> 01:32:07,739
bro I had a cup right before I came on I

2434
01:32:11,209 --> 01:32:09,540
had a cup of Dunkin Donuts baby that's

2435
01:32:14,450 --> 01:32:11,219
what I'm talking about that's the

2436
01:32:17,450 --> 01:32:14,460
American timmys America runs on Duggan's

2437
01:32:19,669 --> 01:32:17,460
right kind of does I think I know it's

2438
01:32:20,930 --> 01:32:19,679
good you know but I I'm not picky when

2439
01:32:22,070 --> 01:32:20,940
it comes to coffee as long as it's

2440
01:32:23,870 --> 01:32:22,080
drinkable I'm drinking it there's

2441
01:32:26,149 --> 01:32:23,880
caffeine in it it's it's I'm gonna drink

2442
01:32:28,669 --> 01:32:26,159
it I I'll at work sometimes they have

2443
01:32:30,530 --> 01:32:28,679
these coffee pots that are so aged you

2444
01:32:32,030 --> 01:32:30,540
know they're aged so they're not the

2445
01:32:33,950 --> 01:32:32,040
original color

2446
01:32:35,330 --> 01:32:33,960
um they used to be clear glass and now

2447
01:32:37,490 --> 01:32:35,340
they're a different form of Darkness

2448
01:32:39,830 --> 01:32:37,500
like a bad storm coming in town or

2449
01:32:41,750 --> 01:32:39,840
something and and sometimes you got to

2450
01:32:44,330 --> 01:32:41,760
chew that coffee because they make it so

2451
01:32:46,729 --> 01:32:44,340
strong but you know when times are

2452
01:32:50,209 --> 01:32:46,739
desperate you do what you got to do you

2453
01:32:52,430 --> 01:32:50,219
know okay okay like you probably you

2454
01:32:54,229 --> 01:32:52,440
know like your parents were were

2455
01:32:57,050 --> 01:32:54,239
American Born right like you're probably

2456
01:32:59,930 --> 01:32:57,060
third or fourth generation no no my mom

2457
01:33:01,490 --> 01:32:59,940
was Germany born and um and my dad was

2458
01:33:05,450 --> 01:33:01,500
America first generation American Born

2459
01:33:07,430 --> 01:33:05,460
okay so he may not like he may remember

2460
01:33:10,490 --> 01:33:07,440
his parents drinking you know like

2461
01:33:12,050 --> 01:33:10,500
drinking caught like actual coffee uh

2462
01:33:14,870 --> 01:33:12,060
like my parent like my mom still does

2463
01:33:16,490 --> 01:33:14,880
like before like before I left her place

2464
01:33:18,229 --> 01:33:16,500
she's like do you want a coffee like yes

2465
01:33:20,209 --> 01:33:18,239
Mom I was like I'll have a coffee and

2466
01:33:22,129 --> 01:33:20,219
you don't remember it on the stove oh

2467
01:33:23,450 --> 01:33:22,139
yeah like you know well no it was it was

2468
01:33:25,729 --> 01:33:23,460
it was Bodum coffee so it was like more

2469
01:33:27,950 --> 01:33:25,739
French Press but you know sometimes like

2470
01:33:29,450 --> 01:33:27,960
if I'm having like a you know like if

2471
01:33:31,550 --> 01:33:29,460
it's a real looking a real tough day and

2472
01:33:35,030 --> 01:33:31,560
I need that that grind like Mom that's

2473
01:33:38,209 --> 01:33:35,040
it dude you know break out the Pod it's

2474
01:33:41,930 --> 01:33:38,219
like she will make this this like this

2475
01:33:44,750 --> 01:33:41,940
bronze pot old school Balkan style

2476
01:33:48,050 --> 01:33:44,760
Turkish coffee that you want you want to

2477
01:33:49,490 --> 01:33:48,060
talk about chewing coffee oh man like

2478
01:33:51,950 --> 01:33:49,500
it's you have to drink it in a small

2479
01:33:54,649 --> 01:33:51,960
little cup so is it kind of like a

2480
01:33:56,030 --> 01:33:54,659
espresso

2481
01:33:57,890 --> 01:33:56,040
um is that what they call them those

2482
01:33:59,810 --> 01:33:57,900
little coffee cuppy thingies it's it

2483
01:34:01,370 --> 01:33:59,820
basically it's it's an espresso cup like

2484
01:34:03,830 --> 01:34:01,380
yeah like that's what that's what

2485
01:34:05,750 --> 01:34:03,840
European coffee like you know americanos

2486
01:34:07,669 --> 01:34:05,760
watered down but like the like coffee

2487
01:34:09,110 --> 01:34:07,679
coffees in that type of cup but this is

2488
01:34:12,290 --> 01:34:09,120
this is like old school Turkish coffee

2489
01:34:15,410 --> 01:34:12,300
like we're talking you know like strong

2490
01:34:16,850 --> 01:34:15,420
right right you drink it and if you have

2491
01:34:18,410 --> 01:34:16,860
too much of it like you just feel your

2492
01:34:20,330 --> 01:34:18,420
heart like

2493
01:34:23,629 --> 01:34:20,340
you know it's it's like putting putting

2494
01:34:25,430 --> 01:34:23,639
in the the nitrous in an engine if you

2495
01:34:26,990 --> 01:34:25,440
you feel it you have two of them you

2496
01:34:29,090 --> 01:34:27,000
need that nature so brother sometimes we

2497
01:34:31,970 --> 01:34:29,100
need that nitrous well you're supposed

2498
01:34:34,370 --> 01:34:31,980
to sip it and drink it slowly oh you

2499
01:34:36,050 --> 01:34:34,380
don't shoot it well we're busy you know

2500
01:34:38,030 --> 01:34:36,060
we got things to do that's a good that's

2501
01:34:39,290 --> 01:34:38,040
that's a that's a good way to uh you

2502
01:34:41,110 --> 01:34:39,300
know to to

2503
01:34:44,530 --> 01:34:41,120
get palpitations

2504
01:34:48,530 --> 01:34:44,540
from my experience Mr Chris

2505
01:34:50,510 --> 01:34:48,540
sometimes sometimes if I'm studying or

2506
01:34:52,669 --> 01:34:50,520
if I need to get home and it's late at

2507
01:34:54,410 --> 01:34:52,679
night yeah it's like okay like Turkish

2508
01:34:56,209 --> 01:34:54,420
coffee I'm good to go it'll get me there

2509
01:34:59,330 --> 01:34:56,219
you know for like you wait 20 minutes

2510
01:35:00,590 --> 01:34:59,340
you're good to go get home you crash oh

2511
01:35:03,590 --> 01:35:00,600
yeah you're fine because like the the

2512
01:35:05,570 --> 01:35:03,600
caffeine's gone yeah but I'll I will get

2513
01:35:07,910 --> 01:35:05,580
my I'll get the recipe you have to like

2514
01:35:11,570 --> 01:35:07,920
go get like a copper pot it's it looks

2515
01:35:14,090 --> 01:35:11,580
like a basically it's like a

2516
01:35:16,129 --> 01:35:14,100
feels like a cone but it you know it's

2517
01:35:17,990 --> 01:35:16,139
like a cone and then it goes to just

2518
01:35:18,970 --> 01:35:18,000
like a

2519
01:35:25,070 --> 01:35:18,980
like

2520
01:35:26,810 --> 01:35:25,080
just you put the water you put the

2521
01:35:28,550 --> 01:35:26,820
coffee in you gotta get it from a

2522
01:35:30,410 --> 01:35:28,560
specialty store probably in in Dallas

2523
01:35:31,790 --> 01:35:30,420
but like the stuff it'll get you going

2524
01:35:32,570 --> 01:35:31,800
man like you you think you're chewing

2525
01:35:33,590 --> 01:35:32,580
coffee

2526
01:35:34,790 --> 01:35:33,600
dude

2527
01:35:38,510 --> 01:35:34,800
no

2528
01:35:41,510 --> 01:35:38,520
the the old school Eastern Europe here

2529
01:35:43,129 --> 01:35:41,520
both sorry sorry Mom Balkan style like

2530
01:35:44,629 --> 01:35:43,139
coffee grind reading where you can like

2531
01:35:47,090 --> 01:35:44,639
read you know my mom can read fortunes

2532
01:35:49,910 --> 01:35:47,100
which oh oh yeah I don't know but it's

2533
01:35:51,350 --> 01:35:49,920
it's uh it's crazy shoe she'll never I

2534
01:35:53,750 --> 01:35:51,360
told her like never read mine she won't

2535
01:35:58,430 --> 01:35:53,760
read family but like friends she'll do

2536
01:36:03,950 --> 01:36:00,890
now I always I always joke with her like

2537
01:36:05,090 --> 01:36:03,960
is it actually telling the future or is

2538
01:36:06,350 --> 01:36:05,100
it because you have enough life

2539
01:36:07,669 --> 01:36:06,360
experience that you can tell and your

2540
01:36:10,610 --> 01:36:07,679
friends are dealing with a situation

2541
01:36:13,129 --> 01:36:10,620
that the coffee then gives you the

2542
01:36:14,810 --> 01:36:13,139
opportunity to be honest with them and

2543
01:36:17,149 --> 01:36:14,820
tell them that they're effing up somehow

2544
01:36:20,090 --> 01:36:17,159
and you could just

2545
01:36:25,189 --> 01:36:21,790
what you just said

2546
01:36:27,229 --> 01:36:25,199
that's that's some legit stuff bro about

2547
01:36:28,610 --> 01:36:27,239
people you know it I don't even know if

2548
01:36:30,169 --> 01:36:28,620
it's empathy I think a lot of these

2549
01:36:32,270 --> 01:36:30,179
people are Mentalist even I'm not

2550
01:36:34,250 --> 01:36:32,280
referring to your mom but the the

2551
01:36:36,770 --> 01:36:34,260
ability to be able

2552
01:36:38,810 --> 01:36:36,780
to evaluate somebody's physical being

2553
01:36:40,610 --> 01:36:38,820
and to be able to give them a reading

2554
01:36:44,090 --> 01:36:40,620
like that but it would

2555
01:36:47,030 --> 01:36:44,100
you must still do it uh I she does yeah

2556
01:36:48,290 --> 01:36:47,040
like I haven't been around when she has

2557
01:36:49,729 --> 01:36:48,300
um like obviously with everything that's

2558
01:36:52,490 --> 01:36:49,739
happened over the last like six months

2559
01:36:55,010 --> 01:36:52,500
it's probably been a little you know a

2560
01:36:56,870 --> 01:36:55,020
little bit less of wanting to deal with

2561
01:36:58,490 --> 01:36:56,880
that kind of thing right

2562
01:36:59,510 --> 01:36:58,500
um but like yeah she used to do all the

2563
01:37:00,890 --> 01:36:59,520
time like you know her friends would

2564
01:37:02,330 --> 01:37:00,900
come over they'd have coffee and then

2565
01:37:06,050 --> 01:37:02,340
she'd read their you know read the

2566
01:37:08,149 --> 01:37:06,060
coffee grinds that's pretty cool man

2567
01:37:10,490 --> 01:37:08,159
that's pretty cool that's it's you know

2568
01:37:12,530 --> 01:37:10,500
that old school

2569
01:37:14,570 --> 01:37:12,540
I'm not gonna say it's like the you're

2570
01:37:17,990 --> 01:37:14,580
you're going for the land of of the Roma

2571
01:37:21,290 --> 01:37:18,000
you know it's it's that kind of old

2572
01:37:23,689 --> 01:37:21,300
school like hardcore Catholic but also

2573
01:37:26,450 --> 01:37:23,699
like Old World mysticism at the same

2574
01:37:27,830 --> 01:37:26,460
time it's a weird mixture culture well

2575
01:37:29,390 --> 01:37:27,840
you know think about it though I mean

2576
01:37:31,910 --> 01:37:29,400
with dogs because that's this is a whole

2577
01:37:34,729 --> 01:37:31,920
other four hours but I you just look at

2578
01:37:36,590 --> 01:37:34,739
the the process of that of of spiritual

2579
01:37:38,629 --> 01:37:36,600
beliefs throughout time and how some

2580
01:37:40,910 --> 01:37:38,639
kind of intermingling mix and this got

2581
01:37:43,310 --> 01:37:40,920
Incorporated over here and

2582
01:37:45,110 --> 01:37:43,320
um I know a lady from South America a

2583
01:37:47,090 --> 01:37:45,120
super strong Christian lady but she's

2584
01:37:49,610 --> 01:37:47,100
all into the voodoo stuff and and the

2585
01:37:51,470 --> 01:37:49,620
magic she's not into it she's afraid

2586
01:37:53,629 --> 01:37:51,480
deathly of it because it's very real to

2587
01:37:55,490 --> 01:37:53,639
their cultured on there

2588
01:37:58,189 --> 01:37:55,500
um but yet there's still very devout

2589
01:38:00,590 --> 01:37:58,199
Christians you know or Catholics

2590
01:38:02,209 --> 01:38:00,600
um it's interesting it's interesting you

2591
01:38:04,310 --> 01:38:02,219
know but hey I just look at it they're

2592
01:38:06,350 --> 01:38:04,320
good people I love them for that I don't

2593
01:38:09,950 --> 01:38:06,360
even care well you look at like even

2594
01:38:12,410 --> 01:38:09,960
knock wood you know I'll still say like

2595
01:38:15,770 --> 01:38:12,420
so like you'll say something like oh you

2596
01:38:17,629 --> 01:38:15,780
know if once we uh get here and if this

2597
01:38:19,129 --> 01:38:17,639
doesn't happen and you knock wood and

2598
01:38:21,050 --> 01:38:19,139
even though it's like okay you're

2599
01:38:23,689 --> 01:38:21,060
knocking wood to basically tell the fire

2600
01:38:25,970 --> 01:38:23,699
fairies to you know knock it off

2601
01:38:29,209 --> 01:38:25,980
essentially or just like calm down

2602
01:38:30,290 --> 01:38:29,219
even though I know it's a complete

2603
01:38:31,970 --> 01:38:30,300
superstition

2604
01:38:33,890 --> 01:38:31,980
you still do it it's like baseball

2605
01:38:35,750 --> 01:38:33,900
players when they're uh you know they'll

2606
01:38:39,290 --> 01:38:35,760
they'll have like the the pregame or

2607
01:38:40,970 --> 01:38:39,300
post-game ritual like uh was it was it

2608
01:38:42,470 --> 01:38:40,980
majorly baseball where it's like they're

2609
01:38:44,629 --> 01:38:42,480
they go in and they touch the post after

2610
01:38:46,729 --> 01:38:44,639
a loss it's like well why is it you know

2611
01:38:50,030 --> 01:38:46,739
touch the poll before the game

2612
01:38:52,790 --> 01:38:50,040
and then you win well it's an actual

2613
01:38:55,189 --> 01:38:52,800
like it was a like a post in really yeah

2614
01:38:56,810 --> 01:38:55,199
I know that can like be turned into any

2615
01:38:58,610 --> 01:38:56,820
type of innuendo but it's like you know

2616
01:39:00,169 --> 01:38:58,620
like you you touch a certain spot on on

2617
01:39:04,390 --> 01:39:00,179
the floor like you know baseball players

2618
01:39:07,850 --> 01:39:04,400
are insane well you know this you know

2619
01:39:09,950 --> 01:39:07,860
like you're you're living in the

2620
01:39:12,290 --> 01:39:09,960
Southern United States it's baseball and

2621
01:39:14,510 --> 01:39:12,300
football and life there soccer dude it's

2622
01:39:16,189 --> 01:39:14,520
crazy down here it's everywhere

2623
01:39:19,370 --> 01:39:16,199
soccer

2624
01:39:21,590 --> 01:39:19,380
it's it it's good exercise it's

2625
01:39:23,570 --> 01:39:21,600
inexpensive to get your kids into yes

2626
01:39:24,950 --> 01:39:23,580
that's it you know like the processes

2627
01:39:27,830 --> 01:39:24,960
are all after school you don't have to

2628
01:39:30,610 --> 01:39:27,840
worry about like 6 a.m or 5 a.m and then

2629
01:39:32,930 --> 01:39:30,620
you you grew up in uh in West Wisconsin

2630
01:39:35,270 --> 01:39:32,940
I was born in Minnesota but I grew up in

2631
01:39:37,310 --> 01:39:35,280
Syracuse New York okay so well that's

2632
01:39:38,990 --> 01:39:37,320
not too far from where I live it's a

2633
01:39:40,850 --> 01:39:39,000
good four hour drive so like but like

2634
01:39:42,890 --> 01:39:40,860
yeah like Minnesota it's the same thing

2635
01:39:45,350 --> 01:39:42,900
up here like you know you you grew up

2636
01:39:48,350 --> 01:39:45,360
probably or at least hockey bro hockey

2637
01:39:49,689 --> 01:39:48,360
or am practices oh my God you know and

2638
01:39:53,209 --> 01:39:49,699
that was a goalie

2639
01:39:54,950 --> 01:39:53,219
oh geez yeah bro oh my god I've been

2640
01:39:56,689 --> 01:39:54,960
there been there never never

2641
01:40:00,229 --> 01:39:56,699
professional like never never you know

2642
01:40:02,330 --> 01:40:00,239
never Peewee league but like like you

2643
01:40:04,310 --> 01:40:02,340
know my wife's my wife is like yeah I'm

2644
01:40:06,709 --> 01:40:04,320
like oh my you know my my friend she's

2645
01:40:08,209 --> 01:40:06,719
you know she's busy and I don't know how

2646
01:40:10,129 --> 01:40:08,219
she does it she's got like you know

2647
01:40:12,110 --> 01:40:10,139
taking care of her three kids or two

2648
01:40:13,970 --> 01:40:12,120
kids or it's like she does all this

2649
01:40:16,490 --> 01:40:13,980
stuff and she's still you know still

2650
01:40:18,590 --> 01:40:16,500
gets up but it's like 6 a.m or 5 a.m on

2651
01:40:21,110 --> 01:40:18,600
a you know a Saturday Sunday to drive

2652
01:40:23,530 --> 01:40:21,120
her kids to hockey and you know like my

2653
01:40:25,250 --> 01:40:23,540
my uh same thing with like my my

2654
01:40:27,470 --> 01:40:25,260
brother-in-law and sister-in-law my

2655
01:40:29,570 --> 01:40:27,480
wife's uh my wife's family you know

2656
01:40:31,250 --> 01:40:29,580
their their kids were were hockey fan

2657
01:40:37,610 --> 01:40:31,260
like I

2658
01:40:39,649 --> 01:40:37,620
you don't be so I mean because a lot of

2659
01:40:41,750 --> 01:40:39,659
these very strong hockey families around

2660
01:40:45,229 --> 01:40:41,760
those traveling Lakes so it's year-round

2661
01:40:46,790 --> 01:40:45,239
bro jeez yeah and it's expensive I I

2662
01:40:50,450 --> 01:40:46,800
didn't realize why my dad works so much

2663
01:40:53,570 --> 01:40:52,070
yeah well because you know that stuff's

2664
01:40:55,490 --> 01:40:53,580
expensive brother I got a big interview

2665
01:41:00,709 --> 01:40:55,500
in the morning

2666
01:41:05,629 --> 01:41:03,410
what what time oh sir are we getting

2667
01:41:08,149 --> 01:41:05,639
close to that time are we I am uh

2668
01:41:09,590 --> 01:41:08,159
interviewing Kenny Gantt oh that's right

2669
01:41:11,330 --> 01:41:09,600
no you I thought you said in the morning

2670
01:41:13,729 --> 01:41:11,340
interview no yeah yeah no I interview

2671
01:41:17,270 --> 01:41:13,739
him we we record tomorrow and then we

2672
01:41:20,390 --> 01:41:17,280
publish it on Saturday no so yeah so uh

2673
01:41:21,110 --> 01:41:20,400
he is a two-time Super Bowl champion

2674
01:41:24,770 --> 01:41:21,120
um

2675
01:41:26,270 --> 01:41:24,780
but it's it's not about the athleticism

2676
01:41:28,790 --> 01:41:26,280
while we're having these professional

2677
01:41:30,410 --> 01:41:28,800
athletes on it's you hear these stories

2678
01:41:32,629 --> 01:41:30,420
what they go through after we're just

2679
01:41:35,510 --> 01:41:32,639
talking about hockey these guys since

2680
01:41:37,490 --> 01:41:35,520
second grade their whole life has been

2681
01:41:39,709 --> 01:41:37,500
training and football and camps and

2682
01:41:41,750 --> 01:41:39,719
games and then they go all the way up

2683
01:41:43,430 --> 01:41:41,760
into the professional career now this

2684
01:41:46,729 --> 01:41:43,440
you know Kenny he was he played until he

2685
01:41:49,129 --> 01:41:46,739
was like 34. uh Pro Bowl uh five years

2686
01:41:51,169 --> 01:41:49,139
in a row so it was a major part of his

2687
01:41:53,870 --> 01:41:51,179
life all the way until one day he

2688
01:41:56,270 --> 01:41:53,880
retires and what he did since second

2689
01:41:57,229 --> 01:41:56,280
grade up until the day he retired it was

2690
01:41:59,090 --> 01:41:57,239
done

2691
01:42:00,410 --> 01:41:59,100
and a lot of these guys don't know how

2692
01:42:03,350 --> 01:42:00,420
to re-establish their feet in the ground

2693
01:42:04,729 --> 01:42:03,360
because they're used to being told where

2694
01:42:06,370 --> 01:42:04,739
they need to be next where's the next

2695
01:42:09,070 --> 01:42:06,380
Camp where's the next training session

2696
01:42:11,450 --> 01:42:09,080
and all that is gone

2697
01:42:13,250 --> 01:42:11,460
when's the next training session when's

2698
01:42:15,709 --> 01:42:13,260
the next like when's the next practice

2699
01:42:17,870 --> 01:42:15,719
you know it's your social life it's your

2700
01:42:19,550 --> 01:42:17,880
your entire lifestyle you know your your

2701
01:42:20,570 --> 01:42:19,560
schedule is completely upended it's like

2702
01:42:23,689 --> 01:42:20,580
with anybody

2703
01:42:25,669 --> 01:42:23,699
you know like if like when my dad

2704
01:42:28,250 --> 01:42:25,679
retired he basically drove you know and

2705
01:42:30,050 --> 01:42:28,260
drove himself crazy probably the same

2706
01:42:31,370 --> 01:42:30,060
thing with your dad it's like you know

2707
01:42:33,770 --> 01:42:31,380
what what do you do you've been doing

2708
01:42:35,450 --> 01:42:33,780
the exact same thing for 40 years or for

2709
01:42:38,709 --> 01:42:35,460
50 years or for years or however long

2710
01:42:42,169 --> 01:42:38,719
how is it how was it you would just

2711
01:42:44,629 --> 01:42:42,179
uh like even for like I I kind of

2712
01:42:45,709 --> 01:42:44,639
attributed to and obviously it's not the

2713
01:42:47,030 --> 01:42:45,719
same but like I tribute to the same

2714
01:42:48,050 --> 01:42:47,040
thing with with like people who've been

2715
01:42:49,669 --> 01:42:48,060
in the military

2716
01:42:50,810 --> 01:42:49,679
you know if they've seen action or if

2717
01:42:52,970 --> 01:42:50,820
they've seen

2718
01:42:54,590 --> 01:42:52,980
um uh you know like any type of combat

2719
01:42:56,149 --> 01:42:54,600
or if they've been in very stressful

2720
01:42:57,470 --> 01:42:56,159
situations for an extended period of

2721
01:43:00,229 --> 01:42:57,480
time

2722
01:43:02,169 --> 01:43:00,239
um there's a certain

2723
01:43:04,430 --> 01:43:02,179
like the routine

2724
01:43:06,649 --> 01:43:04,440
not really like break like it doesn't

2725
01:43:09,050 --> 01:43:06,659
break you down but you get so ingrained

2726
01:43:10,310 --> 01:43:09,060
within that that motive every single day

2727
01:43:14,450 --> 01:43:10,320
where it's like okay you've got to

2728
01:43:18,310 --> 01:43:14,460
re-establish these hard-wired uh

2729
01:43:23,390 --> 01:43:21,890
that become institutionalized

2730
01:43:25,370 --> 01:43:23,400
I think that's the best way to reference

2731
01:43:28,310 --> 01:43:25,380
it you know so you have somebody who at

2732
01:43:31,850 --> 01:43:28,320
15 years in prison they're so used to be

2733
01:43:33,590 --> 01:43:31,860
corralled unheard and heard it

2734
01:43:34,850 --> 01:43:33,600
um there used to be until one time to go

2735
01:43:36,590 --> 01:43:34,860
to sleep what time they have to eat

2736
01:43:37,729 --> 01:43:36,600
dinner and what time they had to drop

2737
01:43:40,570 --> 01:43:37,739
laundry off

2738
01:43:43,129 --> 01:43:40,580
one of the main reasons a lot of people

2739
01:43:45,290 --> 01:43:43,139
they are repeat offenders is because

2740
01:43:47,209 --> 01:43:45,300
they don't know how to change the way

2741
01:43:48,950 --> 01:43:47,219
they lived their life for 15 years they

2742
01:43:50,629 --> 01:43:48,960
don't know how to make the change

2743
01:43:52,250 --> 01:43:50,639
one guy you got to get in the show if

2744
01:43:55,970 --> 01:43:52,260
you've ever watched uh watch this

2745
01:43:57,169 --> 01:43:55,980
channel Larry Lawton yeah yeah so like

2746
01:43:58,910 --> 01:43:57,179
you you got to interview this guy

2747
01:44:01,129 --> 01:43:58,920
because like just in terms of the work

2748
01:44:03,669 --> 01:44:01,139
he does in the community now

2749
01:44:05,990 --> 01:44:03,679
um I think he's like he's you know

2750
01:44:09,169 --> 01:44:06,000
America's most

2751
01:44:12,770 --> 01:44:09,179
successful jewel thief to you know being

2752
01:44:16,430 --> 01:44:12,780
uh um uh I think like the work that he's

2753
01:44:19,129 --> 01:44:16,440
done he was given an honorary

2754
01:44:21,050 --> 01:44:19,139
um like I think he's an honorary share

2755
01:44:23,090 --> 01:44:21,060
for Deputy but basically he's was made

2756
01:44:25,189 --> 01:44:23,100
an honorary police officer for his his

2757
01:44:28,430 --> 01:44:25,199
work on making sure kids don't go down

2758
01:44:29,990 --> 01:44:28,440
the same path wow um and like his entire

2759
01:44:32,390 --> 01:44:30,000
YouTube channel like I got into him when

2760
01:44:34,189 --> 01:44:32,400
he first started his channel up and you

2761
01:44:36,290 --> 01:44:34,199
know he would talk about you know what

2762
01:44:38,030 --> 01:44:36,300
it was like going to like going to jail

2763
01:44:40,490 --> 01:44:38,040
what it was like being in jail what what

2764
01:44:43,010 --> 01:44:40,500
the routines were like in you know uh

2765
01:44:46,550 --> 01:44:43,020
you know getting out you know what what

2766
01:44:48,950 --> 01:44:46,560
kept Him going from like one prison to

2767
01:44:50,750 --> 01:44:48,960
another right and like I've heard a

2768
01:44:52,250 --> 01:44:50,760
couple of of and like his stories are

2769
01:44:53,750 --> 01:44:52,260
just fantastic as they're down to earth

2770
01:44:56,510 --> 01:44:53,760
even teachers had to like do like prison

2771
01:44:58,790 --> 01:44:56,520
cooking which is great like yeah that

2772
01:45:00,410 --> 01:44:58,800
that's you know that you're you're

2773
01:45:01,910 --> 01:45:00,420
dealing against being able to tell the

2774
01:45:03,950 --> 01:45:01,920
story and obviously he's making a living

2775
01:45:07,790 --> 01:45:03,960
off of it and you know God bless him for

2776
01:45:10,070 --> 01:45:07,800
that because everyone got eat right

2777
01:45:11,990 --> 01:45:10,080
um and there's also you know like it's

2778
01:45:14,030 --> 01:45:12,000
teaching lessons but it's also what I

2779
01:45:16,970 --> 01:45:14,040
get from that is the amount of trauma

2780
01:45:18,890 --> 01:45:16,980
that people get in those situations and

2781
01:45:20,570 --> 01:45:18,900
it's not just the like it's the routine

2782
01:45:22,189 --> 01:45:20,580
but it's it's the repeated you know it's

2783
01:45:24,109 --> 01:45:22,199
the conditioning it's it's the

2784
01:45:26,390 --> 01:45:24,119
environment that you're in complete

2785
01:45:28,910 --> 01:45:26,400
absolutely brother absolutely and It's

2786
01:45:30,649 --> 01:45:28,920
haunting it's a haunting thing and but

2787
01:45:34,310 --> 01:45:30,659
you learn a lot about the human psyche

2788
01:45:36,169 --> 01:45:34,320
when um when you see it from that angle

2789
01:45:38,629 --> 01:45:36,179
and that's why I don't want to be a

2790
01:45:40,790 --> 01:45:38,639
creature to have it that's why I I I'm

2791
01:45:43,850 --> 01:45:40,800
actually brother there's a lot of times

2792
01:45:45,410 --> 01:45:43,860
maybe even within the last year that a

2793
01:45:49,129 --> 01:45:45,420
lot of parts of me feel disconnected

2794
01:45:50,990 --> 01:45:49,139
with Society it just feels like I don't

2795
01:45:53,750 --> 01:45:51,000
want to be part of it anymore and that's

2796
01:45:55,550 --> 01:45:53,760
not a dark negative thing I just it's a

2797
01:45:56,930 --> 01:45:55,560
different Matrix and I want my Matrix

2798
01:45:58,550 --> 01:45:56,940
over here I don't want to be part of

2799
01:46:00,350 --> 01:45:58,560
that mess you know it's too messy and

2800
01:46:02,090 --> 01:46:00,360
gross now you know it's just like when

2801
01:46:03,830 --> 01:46:02,100
you start growing and maturing it's just

2802
01:46:05,750 --> 01:46:03,840
like you don't want insanity you want

2803
01:46:07,970 --> 01:46:05,760
Serenity and that's what I want I want

2804
01:46:09,250 --> 01:46:07,980
something you know some Serenity preach

2805
01:46:12,169 --> 01:46:09,260
preach

2806
01:46:15,709 --> 01:46:12,179
that's I know oh man I know exactly what

2807
01:46:17,810 --> 01:46:15,719
you're where you're coming from like

2808
01:46:19,490 --> 01:46:17,820
that that's yeah I know that that's

2809
01:46:22,310 --> 01:46:19,500
basically that that's been my attitude

2810
01:46:23,810 --> 01:46:22,320
you know and you cannot stop even and

2811
01:46:25,390 --> 01:46:23,820
you mentioned it perfectly at the

2812
01:46:28,669 --> 01:46:25,400
beginning of the program

2813
01:46:31,010 --> 01:46:28,679
is understanding the fact that you're

2814
01:46:33,229 --> 01:46:31,020
gonna have those days bro man you're

2815
01:46:35,810 --> 01:46:33,239
gonna feel broken I've had how I got

2816
01:46:38,750 --> 01:46:35,820
through the last six months of my life

2817
01:46:41,390 --> 01:46:38,760
man I don't know and still able to

2818
01:46:44,090 --> 01:46:41,400
accomplish things that we did I don't

2819
01:46:48,950 --> 01:46:44,100
know it's it's the will

2820
01:46:50,689 --> 01:46:48,960
of not wanting to fail or not wanting to

2821
01:46:52,790 --> 01:46:50,699
I don't know what it was brother I it's

2822
01:46:54,830 --> 01:46:52,800
just this will and drive we have not to

2823
01:46:55,850 --> 01:46:54,840
be like what we used to be I guess I

2824
01:46:58,430 --> 01:46:55,860
don't know

2825
01:46:59,750 --> 01:46:58,440
for me it's it's I'm not going to say

2826
01:47:01,010 --> 01:46:59,760
it's apathy

2827
01:47:03,890 --> 01:47:01,020
like it's not because it's not apathy

2828
01:47:06,410 --> 01:47:03,900
like I care I care great deal

2829
01:47:09,109 --> 01:47:06,420
um you know like if my kids are are hurt

2830
01:47:11,510 --> 01:47:09,119
or you know if my wife is having a bad

2831
01:47:14,149 --> 01:47:11,520
day and it's like you know or she's just

2832
01:47:15,590 --> 01:47:14,159
having a tough time of it because it's

2833
01:47:17,390 --> 01:47:15,600
like if you're adulting there's there's

2834
01:47:18,709 --> 01:47:17,400
struggles you know with anybody it's the

2835
01:47:20,149 --> 01:47:18,719
same thing with you same thing with your

2836
01:47:21,530 --> 01:47:20,159
wife same thing with anybody else who's

2837
01:47:23,510 --> 01:47:21,540
listening

2838
01:47:25,490 --> 01:47:23,520
um and you know I care deeply about that

2839
01:47:29,470 --> 01:47:25,500
but it's you know I look at

2840
01:47:34,430 --> 01:47:29,480
from you know dealing with

2841
01:47:39,709 --> 01:47:36,950
you know finally going to the hospital

2842
01:47:41,750 --> 01:47:39,719
major natural disaster which you know

2843
01:47:43,850 --> 01:47:41,760
which basically through knocked out of

2844
01:47:46,370 --> 01:47:43,860
power you're spending spending a month

2845
01:47:48,470 --> 01:47:46,380
nursing my dad back to health changing

2846
01:47:50,209 --> 01:47:48,480
jobs you know getting into that moment

2847
01:47:51,890 --> 01:47:50,219
thinking oh things are fine and then you

2848
01:47:54,169 --> 01:47:51,900
know dad passing then dealing with

2849
01:47:56,270 --> 01:47:54,179
everything after that dealing with you

2850
01:47:57,649 --> 01:47:56,280
know the the last year dealing with you

2851
01:47:59,810 --> 01:47:57,659
know the last two months of being

2852
01:48:01,490 --> 01:47:59,820
extremely busy at work and it's you know

2853
01:48:03,649 --> 01:48:01,500
like dealing with having to deal with

2854
01:48:06,410 --> 01:48:03,659
like my car breaking no but my Santa Fe

2855
01:48:08,149 --> 01:48:06,420
broke down because the engine it went on

2856
01:48:09,169 --> 01:48:08,159
it finally it was kind of funny when

2857
01:48:12,530 --> 01:48:09,179
that actually happened just as a

2858
01:48:13,850 --> 01:48:12,540
digression uh visited my father's grave

2859
01:48:16,070 --> 01:48:13,860
and you know was like sitting there and

2860
01:48:18,950 --> 01:48:16,080
had a word I'm like Dad

2861
01:48:20,390 --> 01:48:18,960
your car is still a piece of [\h__\h] and

2862
01:48:25,570 --> 01:48:20,400
I'm leaving

2863
01:48:30,410 --> 01:48:27,830
I'm like

2864
01:48:33,050 --> 01:48:30,420
really like

2865
01:48:34,310 --> 01:48:33,060
like okay because he loved that car and

2866
01:48:35,149 --> 01:48:34,320
he's like don't talk badly about my car

2867
01:48:37,450 --> 01:48:35,159
I'm like

2868
01:48:40,609 --> 01:48:37,460
okay Dad it's like um

2869
01:48:43,669 --> 01:48:40,619
yeah it's one of those like if

2870
01:48:45,590 --> 01:48:43,679
you know like I'm I'm a rational guy but

2871
01:48:46,850 --> 01:48:45,600
like there's yeah I I know when the

2872
01:48:48,350 --> 01:48:46,860
universe is talking kind of thing there

2873
01:48:49,609 --> 01:48:48,360
you go and it's like all of those you

2874
01:48:51,470 --> 01:48:49,619
know like all those things one after

2875
01:48:54,050 --> 01:48:51,480
another getting sick you know you know

2876
01:48:55,609 --> 01:48:54,060
covid blah blah blah blah blah and like

2877
01:48:58,250 --> 01:48:55,619
I hear some of my friends like you're

2878
01:49:00,890 --> 01:48:58,260
like you've been like every single

2879
01:49:03,830 --> 01:49:00,900
like like every single month some crazy

2880
01:49:04,970 --> 01:49:03,840
just that you have no power over then

2881
01:49:07,189 --> 01:49:04,980
you just have to deal with your throne

2882
01:49:10,310 --> 01:49:07,199
into it how is it you do it I'm like

2883
01:49:12,890 --> 01:49:10,320
at this point I have two options I can

2884
01:49:14,270 --> 01:49:12,900
either just say like yeah you know it's

2885
01:49:16,490 --> 01:49:14,280
just it's another thing throw it another

2886
01:49:17,990 --> 01:49:16,500
pile and just like not even keep going

2887
01:49:20,209 --> 01:49:18,000
forward just like we'll deal with the

2888
01:49:22,550 --> 01:49:20,219
situation as it comes and we'll find

2889
01:49:25,129 --> 01:49:22,560
focus on the solution or you can just

2890
01:49:26,930 --> 01:49:25,139
keep focusing on the negativity and and

2891
01:49:28,729 --> 01:49:26,940
the obstacle and saying oh I can't

2892
01:49:31,010 --> 01:49:28,739
overcome this instead of like all right

2893
01:49:32,390 --> 01:49:31,020
so this is like you know what is it I

2894
01:49:33,830 --> 01:49:32,400
need to be able to do to fix this what

2895
01:49:36,410 --> 01:49:33,840
is the

2896
01:49:38,149 --> 01:49:36,420
where is it I need to like what do I

2897
01:49:41,510 --> 01:49:38,159
need to do to take the next right step

2898
01:49:45,050 --> 01:49:41,520
next to be able to keep going forward

2899
01:49:47,149 --> 01:49:45,060
while not getting rid of it but handling

2900
01:49:49,910 --> 01:49:47,159
it so it's it's fixed or at least

2901
01:49:53,330 --> 01:49:49,920
managed uh and

2902
01:49:54,890 --> 01:49:53,340
you you you get into that you know like

2903
01:49:56,870 --> 01:49:54,900
you have to talk to talk about someone

2904
01:49:58,669 --> 01:49:56,880
professionally it's like hey man you

2905
01:50:00,290 --> 01:49:58,679
know I know a lot of people I know talk

2906
01:50:03,050 --> 01:50:00,300
to therapist in their you know therapist

2907
01:50:04,430 --> 01:50:03,060
is like what the like how are you like

2908
01:50:07,370 --> 01:50:04,440
you're still standing this is impressive

2909
01:50:09,229 --> 01:50:07,380
right you got to focus on the solution

2910
01:50:11,510 --> 01:50:09,239
you got it like you you the problems

2911
01:50:13,490 --> 01:50:11,520
suck yeah but eventually it's like man

2912
01:50:14,990 --> 01:50:13,500
life is going to be problems on a

2913
01:50:16,669 --> 01:50:15,000
constant basis some of them caused by

2914
01:50:18,950 --> 01:50:16,679
you some of them are caused by somebody

2915
01:50:20,930 --> 01:50:18,960
else some of them is just entropy of the

2916
01:50:22,729 --> 01:50:20,940
universe and you know it's that big rock

2917
01:50:25,010 --> 01:50:22,739
that's coming out of the sky and it's

2918
01:50:26,930 --> 01:50:25,020
gonna you know slam into the Yucatan

2919
01:50:28,970 --> 01:50:26,940
Peninsula and wipe out the dinosaurs

2920
01:50:30,770 --> 01:50:28,980
right you know and it's like you can

2921
01:50:32,930 --> 01:50:30,780
sink you can swim you can deal with it

2922
01:50:34,609 --> 01:50:32,940
you can run from it but it's inevitable

2923
01:50:36,830 --> 01:50:34,619
you might as well accept it and move on

2924
01:50:38,930 --> 01:50:36,840
or excuse to fix it move on well it kind

2925
01:50:40,850 --> 01:50:38,940
of gives me a drive to to work with the

2926
01:50:42,830 --> 01:50:40,860
philosophy that

2927
01:50:45,050 --> 01:50:42,840
that The Closer you get the greatness

2928
01:50:48,229 --> 01:50:45,060
the more the devil tries to stop you

2929
01:50:49,970 --> 01:50:48,239
most of our problems I'm Gonna Roll with

2930
01:50:51,470 --> 01:50:49,980
that because

2931
01:50:53,510 --> 01:50:51,480
um that means I'm getting pretty damn

2932
01:50:55,189 --> 01:50:53,520
close you know because he's working real

2933
01:50:56,689 --> 01:50:55,199
hard you know

2934
01:50:59,990 --> 01:50:56,699
it always seems to be trying to put a

2935
01:51:04,189 --> 01:51:02,450
well it's like is it

2936
01:51:05,510 --> 01:51:04,199
the thing is like it a lot of this is

2937
01:51:07,729 --> 01:51:05,520
just chance like you know if you're

2938
01:51:10,910 --> 01:51:07,739
talking like you know an actual devil if

2939
01:51:12,590 --> 01:51:10,920
you're talking metaphorical it a lot of

2940
01:51:15,470 --> 01:51:12,600
a lot of life is struggle like you know

2941
01:51:17,570 --> 01:51:15,480
pain is wisdom yeah pain is wisdom and

2942
01:51:19,310 --> 01:51:17,580
that's you know my first time I said

2943
01:51:22,129 --> 01:51:19,320
that my wife was like that's kind of

2944
01:51:24,530 --> 01:51:22,139
morbid I'm like no it's very basic you

2945
01:51:26,750 --> 01:51:24,540
know you when you were a kid my mom's

2946
01:51:28,310 --> 01:51:26,760
like don't touch the stove it's hot you

2947
01:51:30,649 --> 01:51:28,320
touch the stove you're like

2948
01:51:31,790 --> 01:51:30,659
but you learn not to touch that stove

2949
01:51:34,729 --> 01:51:31,800
yeah

2950
01:51:36,950 --> 01:51:34,739
um and from dealing with a lot of the

2951
01:51:38,930 --> 01:51:36,960
situations you tend like you don't get

2952
01:51:40,729 --> 01:51:38,940
desensitized to it but you get to a

2953
01:51:42,649 --> 01:51:40,739
point in time where

2954
01:51:50,090 --> 01:51:42,659
the

2955
01:51:52,310 --> 01:51:50,100
before I know how to deal with this I've

2956
01:51:54,050 --> 01:51:52,320
got I've developed the tools that can

2957
01:51:55,850 --> 01:51:54,060
handle the situation or fix the problem

2958
01:51:57,950 --> 01:51:55,860
a lot better you're like I got this

2959
01:51:59,390 --> 01:51:57,960
under control don't worry about this I

2960
01:52:00,890 --> 01:51:59,400
got this well it's like the first time

2961
01:52:02,570 --> 01:52:00,900
like okay what was your favorite game

2962
01:52:04,550 --> 01:52:02,580
when you were growing up but you played

2963
01:52:06,850 --> 01:52:04,560
Nintendo or were you a Sega guy oh

2964
01:52:09,290 --> 01:52:06,860
Nintendo guy okay

2965
01:52:10,750 --> 01:52:09,300
I played the Mario one that only had two

2966
01:52:13,370 --> 01:52:10,760
boards

2967
01:52:14,990 --> 01:52:13,380
that was Atari sorry I'm a little bit

2968
01:52:17,209 --> 01:52:15,000
you know I just stage myself a little

2969
01:52:18,890 --> 01:52:17,219
bit what was my game on Nintendo what

2970
01:52:20,689 --> 01:52:18,900
was the big popular game back there it

2971
01:52:22,370 --> 01:52:20,699
was the Super Mario Bros the Nintendo

2972
01:52:24,350 --> 01:52:22,380
just the advanced ones and learn all the

2973
01:52:25,550 --> 01:52:24,360
cheat codes and all that so are we

2974
01:52:26,930 --> 01:52:25,560
talking the one we had like the whistles

2975
01:52:28,970 --> 01:52:26,940
and like the twinkie Suitor we're

2976
01:52:30,890 --> 01:52:28,980
talking the original one with like three

2977
01:52:32,750 --> 01:52:30,900
colors you know red Mario with the

2978
01:52:36,290 --> 01:52:32,760
fireballs and that was it I've done that

2979
01:52:37,490 --> 01:52:36,300
one with the Atari okay so when when you

2980
01:52:40,010 --> 01:52:37,500
got to a level

2981
01:52:41,450 --> 01:52:40,020
you know like it would like the worst

2982
01:52:44,149 --> 01:52:41,460
the game that was the hardest for you to

2983
01:52:45,770 --> 01:52:44,159
beat how long did it take you oh shoot I

2984
01:52:47,030 --> 01:52:45,780
would stay up for days sometimes you

2985
01:52:48,709 --> 01:52:47,040
know

2986
01:52:50,750 --> 01:52:48,719
um but I definitely pull a couple

2987
01:52:52,609 --> 01:52:50,760
nighters you know just to get to level

2988
01:52:54,709 --> 01:52:52,619
nine on Super Mario Bros Nintendo or

2989
01:52:56,030 --> 01:52:54,719
with Super Mario Brothers and like once

2990
01:52:57,890 --> 01:52:56,040
you beat that game were you able to beat

2991
01:52:59,570 --> 01:52:57,900
it again a lot easier the next time easy

2992
01:53:01,250 --> 01:52:59,580
with my eyes closed probably in half the

2993
01:53:02,570 --> 01:53:01,260
time so it's the same thing for

2994
01:53:04,370 --> 01:53:02,580
everybody who's wondering I'm wearing

2995
01:53:06,350 --> 01:53:04,380
shorts because I'm not just like in my

2996
01:53:09,109 --> 01:53:06,360
no pants here but like yeah what bro

2997
01:53:11,450 --> 01:53:09,119
what what yeah man chicken legs you know

2998
01:53:14,270 --> 01:53:11,460
you can scare nothing

2999
01:53:18,530 --> 01:53:16,010
it's the same thing with life you know

3000
01:53:20,330 --> 01:53:18,540
you you you save the princess throw

3001
01:53:22,310 --> 01:53:20,340
Bowser into the into the pool you're

3002
01:53:24,649 --> 01:53:22,320
like all right this is cool you know I I

3003
01:53:25,609 --> 01:53:24,659
you know it's not that level nine is not

3004
01:53:27,590 --> 01:53:25,619
that hard

3005
01:53:30,169 --> 01:53:27,600
you know all the bullets they're flying

3006
01:53:32,090 --> 01:53:30,179
around and those fiery uh you know

3007
01:53:33,890 --> 01:53:32,100
turning traps it's like yeah I got this

3008
01:53:35,510 --> 01:53:33,900
you know that's life kind of the same

3009
01:53:37,850 --> 01:53:35,520
thing you do it once you can do it again

3010
01:53:42,590 --> 01:53:37,860
a little bit better yeah we just got to

3011
01:53:42,600 --> 01:53:46,070
oh my God

3012
01:53:50,209 --> 01:53:48,950
what how do you how do you deal with

3013
01:53:52,430 --> 01:53:50,219
with

3014
01:53:54,229 --> 01:53:52,440
just like you know a day-to-day like how

3015
01:53:56,090 --> 01:53:54,239
do you keep things simple just like just

3016
01:53:58,490 --> 01:53:56,100
in terms of like your pro like not

3017
01:54:00,709 --> 01:53:58,500
metaphorically I'm talking about getting

3018
01:54:01,970 --> 01:54:00,719
through your day right so I got a

3019
01:54:04,609 --> 01:54:01,980
philosophy

3020
01:54:07,970 --> 01:54:04,619
and I call it the these spiritual

3021
01:54:11,090 --> 01:54:07,980
monetary system okay it's a spiritual

3022
01:54:12,649 --> 01:54:11,100
monetary system my SMS

3023
01:54:14,570 --> 01:54:12,659
so I start out every day with 100

3024
01:54:17,149 --> 01:54:14,580
spiritual dollars

3025
01:54:18,410 --> 01:54:17,159
and as I progressed through the day and

3026
01:54:21,890 --> 01:54:18,420
I have different interactions with

3027
01:54:24,709 --> 01:54:21,900
different people I can invest some of my

3028
01:54:27,290 --> 01:54:24,719
spiritual money to that person and

3029
01:54:29,330 --> 01:54:27,300
depending on what their situation is but

3030
01:54:33,530 --> 01:54:29,340
my first question is is that is there an

3031
01:54:36,830 --> 01:54:33,540
Roi or am I going to just deplete part

3032
01:54:39,109 --> 01:54:36,840
of my 100 energy base and give you some

3033
01:54:41,930 --> 01:54:39,119
without a return meaning that it's a

3034
01:54:43,490 --> 01:54:41,940
negative situation for me so if I'm

3035
01:54:45,530 --> 01:54:43,500
gonna put out energy if I'm gonna give

3036
01:54:47,390 --> 01:54:45,540
some of my spiritual money away

3037
01:54:49,070 --> 01:54:47,400
it's always going to be an investment

3038
01:54:50,689 --> 01:54:49,080
and if there's not an Roi on my

3039
01:54:52,910 --> 01:54:50,699
investment I'm not going to acknowledge

3040
01:54:54,709 --> 01:54:52,920
it and I had to train myself and being a

3041
01:54:56,930 --> 01:54:54,719
management with managing the amount of

3042
01:54:59,090 --> 01:54:56,940
people I manage you have to train

3043
01:55:01,070 --> 01:54:59,100
yourself to think like that it's a

3044
01:55:02,149 --> 01:55:01,080
priority of investment in the mind how

3045
01:55:05,450 --> 01:55:02,159
much real estate are we going to give

3046
01:55:07,970 --> 01:55:05,460
that because what I've learned is that

3047
01:55:10,669 --> 01:55:07,980
overthinking is actually and can create

3048
01:55:13,910 --> 01:55:10,679
some major catastrophic issues actually

3049
01:55:15,830 --> 01:55:13,920
add on multiple issues on top of the

3050
01:55:17,570 --> 01:55:15,840
original core issue and then everything

3051
01:55:18,770 --> 01:55:17,580
is chaos because you're not just dealing

3052
01:55:20,149 --> 01:55:18,780
with the core issue anymore now you're

3053
01:55:22,970 --> 01:55:20,159
dealing with the surface issues from the

3054
01:55:24,050 --> 01:55:22,980
reaction of the overthinking

3055
01:55:27,290 --> 01:55:24,060
she's

3056
01:55:30,410 --> 01:55:27,300
I I was that's really cool like just

3057
01:55:34,189 --> 01:55:30,420
just from a your spirit spiritual

3058
01:55:35,870 --> 01:55:34,199
monetary system yeah the SMS the SMS and

3059
01:55:38,330 --> 01:55:35,880
like that like that's basically just

3060
01:55:40,490 --> 01:55:38,340
learning how to like prioritize and time

3061
01:55:42,530 --> 01:55:40,500
manage but yeah in a more of a

3062
01:55:44,750 --> 01:55:42,540
philosophical way I was talking more

3063
01:55:46,189 --> 01:55:44,760
from a do you make your lunch at night

3064
01:55:48,590 --> 01:55:46,199
or do you rush and make it in the

3065
01:55:49,910 --> 01:55:48,600
morning and then go to the washroom you

3066
01:55:51,290 --> 01:55:49,920
know that kind of process how do you get

3067
01:55:54,950 --> 01:55:51,300
through your day but that's still pretty

3068
01:55:57,410 --> 01:55:54,960
cool oh man bro I don't you know I I

3069
01:55:58,790 --> 01:55:57,420
don't plan any of when I do anything

3070
01:56:01,550 --> 01:55:58,800
you know what I'm saying because then I

3071
01:56:03,590 --> 01:56:01,560
don't get mad when I don't do it

3072
01:56:06,109 --> 01:56:03,600
and it's like oh okay well there you go

3073
01:56:08,030 --> 01:56:06,119
it's like yo

3074
01:56:10,250 --> 01:56:08,040
all right

3075
01:56:12,530 --> 01:56:10,260
say man up there I got this like deep

3076
01:56:14,570 --> 01:56:12,540
philosophical question like well like do

3077
01:56:16,490 --> 01:56:14,580
you put your shoes on before you put

3078
01:56:18,890 --> 01:56:16,500
your socks on or do you just like throw

3079
01:56:20,990 --> 01:56:18,900
the socks in the the truck and you go I

3080
01:56:22,550 --> 01:56:21,000
I never when I was when I was a Clubby

3081
01:56:25,609 --> 01:56:22,560
and I rode all the time on a motorcycle

3082
01:56:27,649 --> 01:56:25,619
I purposely I never got a motorcycle

3083
01:56:29,330 --> 01:56:27,659
because I wanted to have a beautiful

3084
01:56:30,950 --> 01:56:29,340
shiny motorcycle I got a motorcycle

3085
01:56:32,390 --> 01:56:30,960
because I enjoyed the spiritual

3086
01:56:33,470 --> 01:56:32,400
experience of riding the freedom of

3087
01:56:34,129 --> 01:56:33,480
riding

3088
01:56:36,590 --> 01:56:34,139
um

3089
01:56:38,810 --> 01:56:36,600
so I never cared for my bike I like a

3090
01:56:41,209 --> 01:56:38,820
lot of these Weekend Warriors would I my

3091
01:56:42,530 --> 01:56:41,219
bike was always dirty I have saddle bags

3092
01:56:43,910 --> 01:56:42,540
that were all dirty full of mud I would

3093
01:56:45,649 --> 01:56:43,920
always have a sleeping bag on my back

3094
01:56:46,910 --> 01:56:45,659
seat all curled up I just use it for a

3095
01:56:49,070 --> 01:56:46,920
backrest

3096
01:56:50,330 --> 01:56:49,080
and everybody always says dude why don't

3097
01:56:51,410 --> 01:56:50,340
you clean your bike I says because if I

3098
01:56:53,870 --> 01:56:51,420
clean my bike then I'm gonna always

3099
01:56:55,550 --> 01:56:53,880
worry about keeping it clean

3100
01:56:57,530 --> 01:56:55,560
I don't ride a bike to worry about

3101
01:56:59,390 --> 01:56:57,540
keeping it clean I ride a bike so I can

3102
01:57:01,310 --> 01:56:59,400
go out and Hammer it down and go feel

3103
01:57:03,350 --> 01:57:01,320
some wind in my face that's what I do it

3104
01:57:04,609 --> 01:57:03,360
for so I'm not going to worry about a

3105
01:57:06,770 --> 01:57:04,619
clean bike I'm gonna worry about a bike

3106
01:57:08,990 --> 01:57:06,780
I can ride

3107
01:57:10,669 --> 01:57:09,000
amen it's the same thing with me

3108
01:57:13,850 --> 01:57:10,679
although for me it's

3109
01:57:15,729 --> 01:57:13,860
like I love my car I try and keep the

3110
01:57:17,570 --> 01:57:15,739
inside as clean as possible just from

3111
01:57:19,490 --> 01:57:17,580
not having

3112
01:57:22,250 --> 01:57:19,500
you know crushed up cans of of like

3113
01:57:25,010 --> 01:57:22,260
Perrier or you know like a chip bag or

3114
01:57:27,709 --> 01:57:25,020
whatever but I'll always try and make

3115
01:57:29,450 --> 01:57:27,719
sure that my backup camera is clean

3116
01:57:30,410 --> 01:57:29,460
just at least just walk by just you know

3117
01:57:32,990 --> 01:57:30,420
take it off just so I know where I'm

3118
01:57:35,629 --> 01:57:33,000
going even if it's got the sensors but

3119
01:57:38,629 --> 01:57:35,639
you know if it's the windows are dirty

3120
01:57:40,370 --> 01:57:38,639
as long as I could see I'm okay but I'm

3121
01:57:41,750 --> 01:57:40,380
religious about making sure I can see at

3122
01:57:43,490 --> 01:57:41,760
the front window or the back window so

3123
01:57:47,689 --> 01:57:43,500
like I'll always especially like you you

3124
01:57:51,290 --> 01:57:47,699
know you you know the the snowy tree

3125
01:57:53,750 --> 01:57:51,300
spring late winter like a salt in the

3126
01:57:55,910 --> 01:57:53,760
road like those slush cars are in the

3127
01:57:57,770 --> 01:57:55,920
background it's annoying anybody in the

3128
01:58:00,109 --> 01:57:57,780
southern like if you're in a warm

3129
01:58:02,330 --> 01:58:00,119
climate you understand rain you'll

3130
01:58:05,030 --> 01:58:02,340
understand mud on on your car you will

3131
01:58:08,689 --> 01:58:05,040
never know the absolute frustration of

3132
01:58:11,089 --> 01:58:08,699
trying to drive at night when it's just

3133
01:58:13,370 --> 01:58:11,099
around uh I'd say maybe like 20 30

3134
01:58:14,050 --> 01:58:13,380
degrees outside and it was washing

3135
01:58:17,570 --> 01:58:14,060
machine

3136
01:58:19,310 --> 01:58:17,580
slush Splash exactly and they're like

3137
01:58:21,350 --> 01:58:19,320
you got a car or truck that's just

3138
01:58:22,790 --> 01:58:21,360
constantly spraying in front of you and

3139
01:58:24,609 --> 01:58:22,800
you're just like oh the windshield

3140
01:58:28,010 --> 01:58:24,619
wipers go this way and it's just streak

3141
01:58:31,010 --> 01:58:28,020
it smears it it don't take it off oh you

3142
01:58:32,930 --> 01:58:31,020
we we have like up here in Ottawa it's

3143
01:58:35,990 --> 01:58:32,940
bad up here in Ottawa

3144
01:58:39,169 --> 01:58:36,000
every single gas station will have

3145
01:58:41,149 --> 01:58:39,179
windshield fluid like dozens and dozens

3146
01:58:43,550 --> 01:58:41,159
outside of it it has a two-for-one

3147
01:58:45,830 --> 01:58:43,560
special like 15 bucks we actually had a

3148
01:58:48,470 --> 01:58:45,840
run on it this year with supply chain

3149
01:58:51,770 --> 01:58:48,480
issues there was like a week where

3150
01:58:53,450 --> 01:58:51,780
nobody had any yeah

3151
01:58:55,729 --> 01:58:53,460
throw something like the old days throw

3152
01:58:59,270 --> 01:58:55,739
some snow on the front and you'd wipe it

3153
01:59:00,470 --> 01:58:59,280
bro I I I've done that at stop signs

3154
01:59:02,570 --> 01:59:00,480
where you hurry up and get out of the

3155
01:59:05,689 --> 01:59:02,580
car go grab a handful of snow and wipe

3156
01:59:07,490 --> 01:59:05,699
it on the windshield oh my God that's a

3157
01:59:09,410 --> 01:59:07,500
dangerous thing walking around with that

3158
01:59:11,689 --> 01:59:09,420
smear on your windows well yeah because

3159
01:59:14,330 --> 01:59:11,699
you you can't you can't see especially

3160
01:59:16,189 --> 01:59:14,340
like it even if you're in the morning if

3161
01:59:17,450 --> 01:59:16,199
you're driving into the sun because the

3162
01:59:18,709 --> 01:59:17,460
sun's going to reflect right through it

3163
01:59:20,209 --> 01:59:18,719
and all you're just going to do is get

3164
01:59:22,370 --> 01:59:20,219
glare which means you can't see anything

3165
01:59:24,290 --> 01:59:22,380
or the same thing night time at this

3166
01:59:26,990 --> 01:59:24,300
time of year or at least you know before

3167
01:59:30,290 --> 01:59:27,000
daylight savings time you know it only

3168
01:59:32,510 --> 01:59:30,300
you you go at five o'clock or 5 30 and

3169
01:59:34,609 --> 01:59:32,520
all you have is just the sun right at

3170
01:59:36,109 --> 01:59:34,619
its largest and it's brightest right

3171
01:59:38,570 --> 01:59:36,119
like right on the horizon it's just

3172
01:59:40,129 --> 01:59:38,580
shining right in your face right and

3173
01:59:42,410 --> 01:59:40,139
like it's it you know you're you're

3174
01:59:44,330 --> 01:59:42,420
going at 100 like let's say it's you

3175
01:59:46,930 --> 01:59:44,340
know 60 70 on the highway where you're

3176
01:59:49,129 --> 01:59:46,940
trying to you can't see out the window

3177
01:59:51,169 --> 01:59:49,139
so you drive slower and then everyone

3178
01:59:52,310 --> 01:59:51,179
drives slower and then you know it takes

3179
01:59:55,010 --> 01:59:52,320
you an hour and a half home it's

3180
01:59:57,890 --> 01:59:55,020
annoying oh I'm not good at that I'm not

3181
02:00:00,169 --> 01:59:57,900
good you're you're in Dallas now like

3182
02:00:01,729 --> 02:00:00,179
you you don't have that it's it's like

3183
02:00:03,229 --> 02:00:01,739
you're four hours from the coast so

3184
02:00:06,050 --> 02:00:03,239
you're dealing with at least humidity

3185
02:00:07,550 --> 02:00:06,060
from from the Gulf but I'm dealing with

3186
02:00:09,410 --> 02:00:07,560
psychopath drivers down here everybody

3187
02:00:10,910 --> 02:00:09,420
thinks they're race car drivers it is

3188
02:00:12,890 --> 02:00:10,920
the worst place it's the second worst

3189
02:00:15,970 --> 02:00:12,900
place to drive in America what's the

3190
02:00:18,490 --> 02:00:15,980
first La L.A yep

3191
02:00:21,470 --> 02:00:18,500
405.

3192
02:00:24,830 --> 02:00:21,480
is terrible bro

3193
02:00:28,189 --> 02:00:24,840
look for 405 in LA or in Dallas 405 in

3194
02:00:30,649 --> 02:00:28,199
L.A it's it's the what it's ask Audrey

3195
02:00:31,970 --> 02:00:30,659
she knows all about it but it's dude I

3196
02:00:33,410 --> 02:00:31,980
was so freaked out when I went to

3197
02:00:34,729 --> 02:00:33,420
California and I was on the 405 I've

3198
02:00:37,129 --> 02:00:34,739
never seen anything like in my life but

3199
02:00:39,770 --> 02:00:37,139
Dallas is a close second people here are

3200
02:00:40,850 --> 02:00:39,780
crazy bro what's your commute like in

3201
02:00:43,850 --> 02:00:40,860
the morning like how long does it take

3202
02:00:46,250 --> 02:00:43,860
you so I my day starts I get up at 4 a.m

3203
02:00:48,350 --> 02:00:46,260
every day every my days go from 4 AM

3204
02:00:50,870 --> 02:00:48,360
till night at night

3205
02:00:53,629 --> 02:00:50,880
um so I get up at 4am the purpose the

3206
02:00:55,550 --> 02:00:53,639
reason I get up at 4 AM is to beat the 5

3207
02:00:57,950 --> 02:00:55,560
a.m traffic because once you hit five

3208
02:01:00,109 --> 02:00:57,960
o'clock you are done bro you got people

3209
02:01:01,370 --> 02:01:00,119
doing 105 miles an hour in and out of

3210
02:01:02,330 --> 02:01:01,380
cars because they're crabby and they

3211
02:01:05,390 --> 02:01:02,340
need a hug

3212
02:01:07,010 --> 02:01:05,400
uh but my ride home I'm about 26 miles

3213
02:01:10,189 --> 02:01:07,020
away from the facility I work at

3214
02:01:12,050 --> 02:01:10,199
sometimes it takes me almost two hours

3215
02:01:14,209 --> 02:01:12,060
because it just gets bumper-to-bumper

3216
02:01:15,589 --> 02:01:14,219
and gridlock and then accidents down

3217
02:01:17,750 --> 02:01:15,599
here because everybody thinks they're a

3218
02:01:19,250 --> 02:01:17,760
race car driver accidents down here are

3219
02:01:22,310 --> 02:01:19,260
catastrophic

3220
02:01:26,149 --> 02:01:22,320
they're just not bumper vendors you know

3221
02:01:28,609 --> 02:01:26,159
um they are catastrophic terrible stuff

3222
02:01:29,229 --> 02:01:28,619
105 this

3223
02:01:32,870 --> 02:01:29,239
is

3224
02:01:34,250 --> 02:01:32,880
140 150 kilometers an hour give or take

3225
02:01:37,370 --> 02:01:34,260
like that's

3226
02:01:39,649 --> 02:01:37,380
but that that that's like left lane

3227
02:01:41,810 --> 02:01:39,659
you know when when traffic is clear

3228
02:01:43,310 --> 02:01:41,820
in the left lane

3229
02:01:44,570 --> 02:01:43,320
um and like an Ottawa it's three three

3230
02:01:46,550 --> 02:01:44,580
to four lanes usually it's about three

3231
02:01:49,129 --> 02:01:46,560
lanes uh you get some like some HOV

3232
02:01:51,770 --> 02:01:49,139
lanes you get like a Transit Lane but in

3233
02:01:55,250 --> 02:01:51,780
the left lane you'll have two people

3234
02:01:57,950 --> 02:01:55,260
like myself where it's like you're doing

3235
02:02:00,470 --> 02:01:57,960
uh trying to translate this roughly into

3236
02:02:01,729 --> 02:02:00,480
miles here you're doing like 75 you know

3237
02:02:04,370 --> 02:02:01,739
like that's kind of the safe speed

3238
02:02:07,010 --> 02:02:04,380
because you're you're doing you know 10

3239
02:02:08,810 --> 02:02:07,020
over at least 10 miles over then the

3240
02:02:10,990 --> 02:02:08,820
cops don't care

3241
02:02:14,510 --> 02:02:11,000
um you know like you probably push it to

3242
02:02:16,790 --> 02:02:14,520
15 over sometimes

3243
02:02:18,950 --> 02:02:16,800
um but if you like you know you'll get

3244
02:02:20,750 --> 02:02:18,960
the occasional guys like like 140 get

3245
02:02:23,990 --> 02:02:20,760
you know get out of my way and you can

3246
02:02:25,790 --> 02:02:24,000
either just stay with traffic or move

3247
02:02:29,450 --> 02:02:25,800
over they get the people who are doing

3248
02:02:33,189 --> 02:02:29,460
like 40. oh my God

3249
02:02:35,629 --> 02:02:33,199
it's clear traffic it's like why

3250
02:02:38,270 --> 02:02:35,639
this isn't uh

3251
02:02:41,629 --> 02:02:38,280
it doesn't matter the like race

3252
02:02:43,430 --> 02:02:41,639
nationality you know gender sex of the

3253
02:02:45,770 --> 02:02:43,440
person they're just those individuals

3254
02:02:46,850 --> 02:02:45,780
like they're it's it's agnostic here in

3255
02:02:48,410 --> 02:02:46,860
Ottawa like it doesn't it doesn't matter

3256
02:02:50,510 --> 02:02:48,420
like you just have people who are just

3257
02:02:52,370 --> 02:02:50,520
like you know Sunday driving in the left

3258
02:02:55,910 --> 02:02:52,380
lane

3259
02:02:57,589 --> 02:02:55,920
and I said why why why when like why but

3260
02:03:00,410 --> 02:02:57,599
there's nobody else on the road well

3261
02:03:03,649 --> 02:03:00,420
there has been people have gotten killed

3262
02:03:06,169 --> 02:03:03,659
down here because of the slow drivers

3263
02:03:08,390 --> 02:03:06,179
creates road rage and then that slow

3264
02:03:10,010 --> 02:03:08,400
driver is a crazy person at the same

3265
02:03:11,330 --> 02:03:10,020
time they just drive real slow you know

3266
02:03:13,850 --> 02:03:11,340
what I mean

3267
02:03:15,589 --> 02:03:13,860
um those are the most and I'm sorry I'm

3268
02:03:17,629 --> 02:03:15,599
going to say it like this but the people

3269
02:03:19,609 --> 02:03:17,639
really you got to understand how much of

3270
02:03:21,589 --> 02:03:19,619
a pain in our face you are when you're

3271
02:03:24,169 --> 02:03:21,599
doing literally the speed limit in what

3272
02:03:25,930 --> 02:03:24,179
we call a speed pass Lane

3273
02:03:29,149 --> 02:03:25,940
um there are states here that actually

3274
02:03:31,490 --> 02:03:29,159
you can get a pretty hefty fine if you

3275
02:03:33,050 --> 02:03:31,500
were impeding traffic in a speed lane if

3276
02:03:34,010 --> 02:03:33,060
you see a car coming behind you folks

3277
02:03:35,689 --> 02:03:34,020
you know what that means it means you

3278
02:03:37,430 --> 02:03:35,699
move over if the car is going faster

3279
02:03:39,770 --> 02:03:37,440
than you allowed to go faster than you

3280
02:03:41,810 --> 02:03:39,780
it's really simple the philosophy of

3281
02:03:43,669 --> 02:03:41,820
driving on a three-lane highway super

3282
02:03:45,950 --> 02:03:43,679
simple well and that's something like

3283
02:03:48,229 --> 02:03:45,960
you go outside City Limits and people

3284
02:03:50,510 --> 02:03:48,239
understand well you know you got it goes

3285
02:03:51,950 --> 02:03:50,520
down in two lanes left is the fast lane

3286
02:03:54,709 --> 02:03:51,960
if you know somebody's coming up behind

3287
02:03:56,689 --> 02:03:54,719
you you move over but like if you're

3288
02:03:59,330 --> 02:03:56,699
five miles behind you in City those

3289
02:04:00,530 --> 02:03:59,340
rules don't apply going from Ottawa to

3290
02:04:03,830 --> 02:04:00,540
Toronto

3291
02:04:05,570 --> 02:04:03,840
it's it's pretty well established

3292
02:04:07,010 --> 02:04:05,580
that you just move the heck out of the

3293
02:04:09,830 --> 02:04:07,020
way and then you got the people like

3294
02:04:12,050 --> 02:04:09,840
well you know I'm just going to go extra

3295
02:04:14,450 --> 02:04:12,060
fast and I'm going to pass in the right

3296
02:04:15,470 --> 02:04:14,460
and but here here like here in town you

3297
02:04:16,850 --> 02:04:15,480
know everyone passes on the right

3298
02:04:19,010 --> 02:04:16,860
because no one molec moves the heck over

3299
02:04:20,930 --> 02:04:19,020
and that causes traffic that causes

3300
02:04:23,330 --> 02:04:20,940
accidents I've seen some like 10 car

3301
02:04:25,669 --> 02:04:23,340
pileups in the winter so people doing

3302
02:04:27,229 --> 02:04:25,679
that because like I I don't

3303
02:04:30,050 --> 02:04:27,239
like I just don't understand they're

3304
02:04:31,729 --> 02:04:30,060
seeing the inpatient drivers to to

3305
02:04:33,830 --> 02:04:31,739
forcefully

3306
02:04:35,149 --> 02:04:33,840
and and you're already upset because

3307
02:04:37,250 --> 02:04:35,159
you're already mad because somebody's

3308
02:04:38,629 --> 02:04:37,260
doing 40 in the speed lane so you kind

3309
02:04:40,129 --> 02:04:38,639
of want to let them know you're upset by

3310
02:04:43,010 --> 02:04:40,139
giving a little bit of juice you know

3311
02:04:45,350 --> 02:04:43,020
and then and everything backfires and

3312
02:04:48,850 --> 02:04:45,360
then at least in the states

3313
02:04:54,350 --> 02:04:52,010
in Dallas yeah here at a lot of the road

3314
02:04:56,510 --> 02:04:54,360
rage shootings well there was one for

3315
02:04:59,089 --> 02:04:56,520
out of Florida and again Florida is its

3316
02:05:00,410 --> 02:04:59,099
own you know and again not getting

3317
02:05:03,770 --> 02:05:00,420
political here people but it's its own

3318
02:05:05,270 --> 02:05:03,780
Universe in the the Florida man stories

3319
02:05:07,250 --> 02:05:05,280
are everywhere and there was one video

3320
02:05:10,430 --> 02:05:07,260
on Reddit that I saw where like some guy

3321
02:05:11,750 --> 02:05:10,440
is driving and somebody throws like like

3322
02:05:13,669 --> 02:05:11,760
just threw a cup out of their car and

3323
02:05:17,149 --> 02:05:13,679
like the cup hit their window the person

3324
02:05:19,669 --> 02:05:17,159
is driving you know pulls up their side

3325
02:05:21,890 --> 02:05:19,679
pulls a gun out and then just unloads an

3326
02:05:24,649 --> 02:05:21,900
entire clip out of there like just all

3327
02:05:26,030 --> 02:05:24,659
like out of the front of their car out

3328
02:05:30,109 --> 02:05:26,040
of the side window

3329
02:05:32,209 --> 02:05:30,119
I mean what like are are you kidding me

3330
02:05:33,950 --> 02:05:32,219
like you you when you hear about that

3331
02:05:35,810 --> 02:05:33,960
like in Canada if you hear about that in

3332
02:05:38,030 --> 02:05:35,820
Toronto it becomes national news it's

3333
02:05:39,890 --> 02:05:38,040
like this is you know first of all

3334
02:05:41,149 --> 02:05:39,900
because it's an illegal gun second of

3335
02:05:43,370 --> 02:05:41,159
all it's because somebody used it and

3336
02:05:44,990 --> 02:05:43,380
because somebody used it in traffic I

3337
02:05:46,729 --> 02:05:45,000
want to buy a mountain bro with the big

3338
02:05:47,870 --> 02:05:46,739
fencer all the way around the mountain

3339
02:05:50,270 --> 02:05:47,880
just

3340
02:05:52,070 --> 02:05:50,280
give me a link yeah it'll be my own

3341
02:05:54,589 --> 02:05:52,080
country you know

3342
02:05:59,870 --> 02:05:54,599
you can have like your own currency in

3343
02:05:59,880 --> 02:06:02,410
foreign

3344
02:06:08,149 --> 02:06:05,510
did the bear really [\h__\h] in the woods

3345
02:06:09,410 --> 02:06:08,159
that's gonna be the deepest it gets dude

3346
02:06:10,970 --> 02:06:09,420
those are going to be the debates we

3347
02:06:12,530 --> 02:06:10,980
have into the bearish of the woods

3348
02:06:14,010 --> 02:06:12,540
debate Thursday nights at seven o'clock

3349
02:06:17,570 --> 02:06:14,020
be there

3350
02:06:20,030 --> 02:06:17,580
[Laughter]

3351
02:06:22,250 --> 02:06:20,040
and on that note brother I love you man

3352
02:06:24,649 --> 02:06:22,260
I really do it and I'm so damn grateful

3353
02:06:27,050 --> 02:06:24,659
that um me too brother I missed you man

3354
02:06:29,330 --> 02:06:27,060
I did I missed you too man a great deal

3355
02:06:30,709 --> 02:06:29,340
we got to have you come on my show and

3356
02:06:32,450 --> 02:06:30,719
we just got to talk about some things

3357
02:06:34,189 --> 02:06:32,460
man just talk about life that's cool

3358
02:06:35,810 --> 02:06:34,199
thing about what I do you know when the

3359
02:06:37,370 --> 02:06:35,820
show's named after you and you're the

3360
02:06:39,109 --> 02:06:37,380
boss you can talk about whatever you

3361
02:06:43,370 --> 02:06:39,119
want well that's you know the fun thing

3362
02:06:45,350 --> 02:06:43,380
it's like you know like it's it's what

3363
02:06:46,850 --> 02:06:45,360
is the cool [\h__\h] you learned tonight you

3364
02:06:48,169 --> 02:06:46,860
know we learned about life we learned

3365
02:06:53,030 --> 02:06:48,179
some philosophy we learned something in

3366
02:06:58,310 --> 02:06:55,089
you know

3367
02:07:01,790 --> 02:06:58,320
is the cat Dead or Alive we don't know

3368
02:07:03,530 --> 02:07:01,800
we know that it wants

3369
02:07:04,790 --> 02:07:03,540
to you know and the cool thing about

3370
02:07:07,010 --> 02:07:04,800
these kinds is that these are the

3371
02:07:08,570 --> 02:07:07,020
conversations that you know I'll put in

3372
02:07:09,770 --> 02:07:08,580
my car when I'm driving tomorrow and

3373
02:07:12,050 --> 02:07:09,780
I'll just listen back to what we're

3374
02:07:13,189 --> 02:07:12,060
saying it's just everything's relatable

3375
02:07:15,290 --> 02:07:13,199
brother and that that's a beautiful

3376
02:07:20,810 --> 02:07:15,300
thing about you man I'm I'm so happy to

3377
02:07:25,550 --> 02:07:22,370
it was one of those things like you know

3378
02:07:26,689 --> 02:07:25,560
like my dad used to he never told me but

3379
02:07:29,149 --> 02:07:26,699
my mom would always tell me it's like

3380
02:07:32,570 --> 02:07:29,159
yeah your dad watches your show I'm like

3381
02:07:35,089 --> 02:07:32,580
oh God the United swearing that I did on

3382
02:07:36,290 --> 02:07:35,099
the show back then uh and the f-bombs

3383
02:07:37,310 --> 02:07:36,300
that I throw he well that's where I

3384
02:07:38,990 --> 02:07:37,320
learned that I swear it was from him

3385
02:07:40,910 --> 02:07:39,000
from when I was younger and it's like

3386
02:07:42,709 --> 02:07:40,920
okay well you know you know working

3387
02:07:44,149 --> 02:07:42,719
through stuff and you know getting that

3388
02:07:45,350 --> 02:07:44,159
creative Outlet there it's like okay now

3389
02:07:47,750 --> 02:07:45,360
it's it's time to be able to get things

3390
02:07:50,689 --> 02:07:47,760
going so and like the big thing is like

3391
02:07:53,450 --> 02:07:50,699
I couldn't I couldn't I couldn't do the

3392
02:07:55,010 --> 02:07:53,460
show if I didn't have you on because

3393
02:07:56,149 --> 02:07:55,020
every single time you've always been on

3394
02:07:58,010 --> 02:07:56,159
the show every single time I've always

3395
02:08:00,649 --> 02:07:58,020
talked to you whether it's through text

3396
02:08:02,209 --> 02:08:00,659
or it's just like sending a meme or it's

3397
02:08:03,830 --> 02:08:02,219
over Facebook when I know you know

3398
02:08:05,810 --> 02:08:03,840
whenever you have the time

3399
02:08:07,189 --> 02:08:05,820
it's like it's always been a positive

3400
02:08:08,629 --> 02:08:07,199
experience of like I want other people

3401
02:08:11,089 --> 02:08:08,639
to be able to have that positive

3402
02:08:13,010 --> 02:08:11,099
experience and you know and be able to

3403
02:08:14,450 --> 02:08:13,020
share that with others because like you

3404
02:08:15,709 --> 02:08:14,460
know people know you through through

3405
02:08:18,649 --> 02:08:15,719
your radio shows or they know you

3406
02:08:20,689 --> 02:08:18,659
through through Facebook Ben but you

3407
02:08:23,950 --> 02:08:20,699
know it's like I just I just know as as

3408
02:08:28,070 --> 02:08:23,960
you know Rocky my brother and yeah

3409
02:08:29,810 --> 02:08:28,080
it's been an evolutionary process I've

3410
02:08:31,729 --> 02:08:29,820
I've learned a lot about myself through

3411
02:08:35,089 --> 02:08:31,739
the process of radio and exploration of

3412
02:08:36,950 --> 02:08:35,099
life and reality and the Matrix and and

3413
02:08:40,010 --> 02:08:36,960
um you know the good thing about it is

3414
02:08:42,830 --> 02:08:40,020
yeah it's been a fun weird run and it's

3415
02:08:44,870 --> 02:08:42,840
been dark and ugly too at times but

3416
02:08:46,970 --> 02:08:44,880
um if we're willing to see the lessons

3417
02:08:49,729 --> 02:08:46,980
around us even in radio even in politics

3418
02:08:51,229 --> 02:08:49,739
even in societal conversations

3419
02:08:53,870 --> 02:08:51,239
um with the right people you'll make the

3420
02:08:55,669 --> 02:08:53,880
right progress amen you know what I'm

3421
02:08:56,930 --> 02:08:55,679
saying and and I'm honored to call you

3422
02:08:58,370 --> 02:08:56,940
my brother and I'm honored to have him a

3423
02:08:59,629 --> 02:08:58,380
circle and I can't wait to have you come

3424
02:09:00,770 --> 02:08:59,639
on our show and we'll talk about

3425
02:09:03,109 --> 02:09:00,780
whatever the hell you want to talk about

3426
02:09:04,910 --> 02:09:03,119
but well that'd be appreciate you let me

3427
02:09:07,189 --> 02:09:04,920
know the time I'll set up the tables a

3428
02:09:08,990 --> 02:09:07,199
little bit better this time and uh you

3429
02:09:11,149 --> 02:09:09,000
know at least I'll put a back drape here

3430
02:09:13,250 --> 02:09:11,159
or something don't worry about a back

3431
02:09:15,229 --> 02:09:13,260
tray Brother come on man hey you know

3432
02:09:16,550 --> 02:09:15,239
what what matters is is that you're on

3433
02:09:20,570 --> 02:09:16,560
your microphone man and people can hear

3434
02:09:23,209 --> 02:09:22,070
we're gonna do one card game because

3435
02:09:25,490 --> 02:09:23,219
these cards been here for the entire

3436
02:09:35,270 --> 02:09:25,500
time to look at them all right so tell

3437
02:09:38,689 --> 02:09:36,850
you got six

3438
02:09:41,149 --> 02:09:38,699
these are these are golden from the

3439
02:09:42,470 --> 02:09:41,159
Golden Nugget by the way okay

3440
02:09:43,910 --> 02:09:42,480
so

3441
02:09:46,070 --> 02:09:43,920
okay six feet

3442
02:09:48,589 --> 02:09:46,080
it's just high low

3443
02:09:50,450 --> 02:09:48,599
oh shoot oh wait okay wait what am I

3444
02:09:52,070 --> 02:09:50,460
supposed to be doing just just stop and

3445
02:09:53,870 --> 02:09:52,080
if you whatever card you get I got the

3446
02:09:55,910 --> 02:09:53,880
higher card or not you know oh okay okay

3447
02:09:58,609 --> 02:09:55,920
ready here we go here we go okay try it

3448
02:10:00,589 --> 02:09:58,619
again try it again so yeah

3449
02:10:08,149 --> 02:10:00,599
stop

3450
02:10:15,430 --> 02:10:08,159
five

3451
02:10:20,629 --> 02:10:18,950
Strangers in the Night yeah so I win

3452
02:10:23,330 --> 02:10:20,639
this one

3453
02:10:25,550 --> 02:10:23,340
so next time if I ever come down to

3454
02:10:27,050 --> 02:10:25,560
Dallas or you come up to Ottawa you buy

3455
02:10:28,189 --> 02:10:27,060
me a beer then I'll buy you okay well

3456
02:10:31,490 --> 02:10:28,199
you need to come to Dallas because we

3457
02:10:34,550 --> 02:10:33,109
well let me let me get yeah once I get

3458
02:10:38,089 --> 02:10:34,560
the new house and the new studio built

3459
02:10:39,649 --> 02:10:38,099
up here then you know what's it once I

3460
02:10:41,270 --> 02:10:39,659
figure out the finances that has a

3461
02:10:42,950 --> 02:10:41,280
houseworks they're expensive but you

3462
02:10:46,669 --> 02:10:42,960
need the space you know like the kids

3463
02:10:49,430 --> 02:10:46,679
are growing and having the dog

3464
02:10:52,310 --> 02:10:49,440
plus the kids plus myself plus the wife

3465
02:10:54,050 --> 02:10:52,320
watching TV at the same time and it's uh

3466
02:10:56,030 --> 02:10:54,060
it's like no you get to the kids have

3467
02:10:57,530 --> 02:10:56,040
your room we'll have our room you know

3468
02:11:00,050 --> 02:10:57,540
of the kitchen the dining room to meet

3469
02:11:01,970 --> 02:11:00,060
up and then all right hey you know

3470
02:11:09,490 --> 02:11:01,980
Audrey's coming down in November for the

3471
02:11:14,570 --> 02:11:12,410
I appreciate that uh

3472
02:11:16,910 --> 02:11:14,580
yes just stay online for a second I'll

3473
02:11:18,350 --> 02:11:16,920
I'll sign this off so uh ladies and

3474
02:11:20,149 --> 02:11:18,360
gents next week

3475
02:11:23,089 --> 02:11:20,159
um we got I believe we've got William

3476
02:11:25,430 --> 02:11:23,099
Pokemon next week so check that out

3477
02:11:27,530 --> 02:11:25,440
we're gonna be talking some UFOs and at

3478
02:11:29,930 --> 02:11:27,540
least the UFO in society what's been

3479
02:11:31,550 --> 02:11:29,940
going on in the UFO sphere just just

3480
02:11:33,050 --> 02:11:31,560
from a

3481
02:11:35,149 --> 02:11:33,060
how's that going because I haven't

3482
02:11:38,510 --> 02:11:35,159
talked about that in a while and we all

3483
02:11:40,370 --> 02:11:38,520
know how much fun that used to be so